Itâs about that time again: time when the last issue of the year is wrapping up, and time to think about whether or not I have the resources and motivation to continue the magazine.
I have loved doing Nightlight. I still love it. I will continue to love it, for everything it gave me, and for everything it gave all of you. Itâs an important part of my life.
However...my wonderful co-editor is neck-deep in graduate school, and if all goes well, next year I might be, too. Even without grad school, there are many draws on my time and my attention, and with my latest laptop being a very generous Mac hand-me-down, I canât even use the same program to make the magazine that I have been for years (no Microsoft Publisher for Macs, unfortunately). I started Nightlight because I was in a dark place after the first time I applied to a grad school and got rejected, because Iâd been in a dark place for a long time. My current emotional state is...questionable. But what isnât questionable is that I want to give all of you a good and finished product for every issue, no matter how small, and Iâm afraid I might not be able to do that anymore. I donât have the time or energy or resources to really grow Nightlight the way I want it to grow, to invest in its social media presence and interact more with the community it aims to serve. I want so much for this little rag of mine. But I might not be able to give it what it deserves.
1. Bow out after three wonderful years and close Nightlight for good. It had a great run, and I love what experiences it gave, but it was going to end sometime, and it seems now is the time.
2. Go on hiatus for a year or two, until my workload and the workload of my co-editor is more manageable. It wouldnât be over, but it would be inert for a long time.
3. Try to keep going as we have been.
I want to hear from the readership before I make my final decision. Whatever happens, thank all of you for the support and the love. Itâs meant the world.