Mani listen. If you want this to work, youre going to have to work with me. We cant have you sit like this all day in this miserable position with these miserable thoughts.
I deserve more than this stupid life. Im sick of dwelling over my own sorrows and pain. Do you want to go back to being homeless and chained to your own negative spiral of thoughts and actions? I cant have this. No no no no. Lets see. You have to prepare. Prepare for tomorrow. Prepare for next month. Breathe Mani. Please go read your book. It will do you good. I promise. It will. Just stay calm.
Listen. This is what youre going to do. Forget about tonight. Go drink some water and put your socks on because youre cold and dehydrated. Nice. Go get the big bags from the kitchen too so you can tidy your room a bit. Mani, you have to believe in yourself. No one is going to do it for you. Listen to me. You can go read a bit if you like. And after that please put your clothes folded in the bags. I dont want to be hated by everything and everyone.. please Mani. Dont hate yourself either. I wish I could go back to six months ago. But at the same time, imagine saying that in six months time about the time you have now. Breathe Mani. You know, all you need is right where you need it and where you want it to be. Everything you need to be fearless and successful is right here.. okay? Few rules here please. Now listen please. There are a few things very important at this very moment.
1. YOUR ROOM IS A FUCKING MESS. ITS WORSE THAN CHARS ROOM ON ITS WORST DAYS. FUCK YOU MANAL YOU HAD ALL THE TIME OF THE WORLD TO CLEAN THIS MESS. NO MORE EXCUSES.
2. Tomorrow is your first day of work. You know you really need some preparation time. You will have to get up early in the morning. To fix everything. And your account now too. Just figure it out. Do some preparations right now. Every beginning is hard..
3. Think about school now. You need wifi at home. Seriously. You need to be able to work somewhere quiet and peaceful. You need to get to work! You have exams, very important ones. This is your last shot at life, I swear.
4. Dont do stupid things with your money. First, think of wifi. Then, invest in your work. Then, stick to the work and save money. Save money for when you need it.. No one, not a dead soul is going to be there for you when you dont have it. You want freedom? Act like a responsible woman then.
5. You just have to work on your body and mind, this cant go on like this any longer. Go visit a gym. Please. And learn how to defend yourself.
So these are five important things to get started with. Look on Indeed if you can find yourself a decent job. For you know, to keep sane. Thats enough for you now.
