"I wouldn't call it overcompensation, it's just... Basic human decency?" He had to think for a few seconds, but decided to land on the most honest answer, instead of some wise concept. Summer's last words left Elliott speechless, despite the many thoughts going over his head. He recognized every single twitch in her expression because he'd felt it in himself too. He nodded slowly, his eyes gently focused on his friend's face, as if those two actions could make her understand the words that were burning is his tongue; that he knew exactly what it felt like; that it wasn't true; that someday she'd be on the other side of it, like he was. Like he was supposed to be, at least.
But Elliott decided on a story instead. She'd been honest with him all night long, while he'd brushed over or simply avoided certain topics. It was about time he let her see inside. "You know, when June's mom told me about the pregnancy, she had to do it a second time because in the first one I was too drunk to remember." Elliott's dry smile lasted for mere seconds, but the act of pushing his plate to the side and placing both hands on the table, fingers interlocked, seemed to take hours. "It took two years and a lot of help for me to meet my baby. I was scared all the time before that." Still am, every day, he thought to himself. "Same as you. That I was going to end up like my mother, my father, or worse, even. But you'll see that you won't have to fight it at all, sunshine. 'Cause, in the end, there's barely anything to fight against. We're not like them." Elliott actually believed that he was better than his parents and if that was the only thing to worry about, he was over it. The thing that terrified him now were not his family; it was himself. But that was something he reserved only for his writing, transferring all that fear into his characters. In his real life, he prefered playing the well-adjusted part. "First time I saw Juniper, I just knew that I could never do anything remotely close to anything Caroline, Russell, Nora or Elias did. You'll feel it too."