I wish I could send him a letter but I’m scared that someone else will read it

This actually happened as well. I did send him a letter to his old address his ex or daughter read it and never passed it on to him. It's really funny to think about it now

The fact that I'll be back to where it all started is causing me quite a stir. I am happy because I feel like it's coming full circle on each own. I'm not scared of coming across him anymore. If it's destiny then it'll happen, if not then it's for the best. I wonder how it will feel to be back to the place I've been dreaming about for the past two years. Almost every night for almost two years. How will it all feel now that I'm a different person ? Like him, I love this city no matter how it scares me. Both him and the city have a gold exterior but under the surface are rotten and I understand but I still love them

It's been 2 or 3 years that I wrote this post and I can now say that it was destiny and I did meet him again one day in the summer out of the blue in my previous town. We didn't end up together but I did take my answers, explained everything to him and my heart stopped being so heavy

Men love to talk about how much it sucks to be put in the friendzone but can we talk about how it feels to be a woman and realize that you didn’t have an actual friend? You just had somebody looming over you, waiting for you to agree to fuck them