He is incapable of doing the right thing that HE agreed to do!!

Instead of just doing what he was suppose to do back in May 2023 and only owe me 8k…. Now he owes me 18k plus attorney fees which comes out to a lil over 20k!!

The fucking dumbass doesn’t have a job and took most of the money out of the Roth IRA which carries penalties!

Not to mention that he hid stocks from me which is money I will never see and I don’t know how much it is.

Being angry is normal and natural in this situation

His faulty logic is just his narc side showing

- For sure, talking about how my ex-husband continues to lie and manipulate. The ongoing legal mess into makes a really angry. I don’t know what to do with that. I hate how there is still unresolved issues. They’re just too many feelings with this as well. One side of this is reassuring that I did the right thing by divorcing him because he hasn’t changed and probably will never change. Another side of it is how incredibly frustrating. It is for him to continue to lie. Turns out he does have money and he doesn’t need to live off of the Roth IRA account. Even if he was bro, that money is still mine him dragging his feet to give me a rightfully mine. It’s so infuriated. I know why the feelings are probably because of the abuse I endured over the years. It’s him thinking that he can just take what he wants without any consequences. Even the thought of him getting away with one more things Angers me.

I really never get angry, so it’s a very unsettling feelings to have inside my body.

From all of this, I feel like I’m scrutinizing my current partner. I think I’m so afraid of choosing wrong a second time.

Betrayal Do something else I’m feeling. It feels like more than it just to slap in the face too.

My current border wants me to talk about it with him, but it doesn’t feel right. I feel like this is not a burden he should have to carry.

Once I get my interest rate lowered, I can throw more money at the principal and get it paid off even faster!

I would love to pay it off in 15 yrs instead of 30 yrs!

If I continue this I can have it paid off by the time I’m 45 which would be amazing!

I am so utterly blessed

He surprised me with a trip to see my best friend in Europe and go to another town they were both really want to visit and end in the city he loves the most. It will start on my birthday and end on his.

I have stopped eating breast fast for a couple of weeks now to naturally lower my calorie intake. I have noticed a bit of a difference but maybe it’s just my body dismorphia taking hold again.

I know he loves and adores me and that I couldn’t have possibly found a more amazing human being to call mine.

I look back to my manifestation list of characteristics of my future husband and the father of my children and he still fits every single item perfectly.

Even down to my ‘nice to have’ list he fits it all!!

On the first line of my list, I have…

Kind, chivalry, soft, playful, and loving

On the second line…

Generous with his time and effort

And third..

Masculine

Those things wrapped up into a 6’2” tanned version of Cillian Murphy and now with the perfect salt/pepper hair… can you blame a girl?

Whatever I want, he provides for me and anticipates my needs and sees me for the flawed human I am. With his main priority of keeping me happy and safe.

Idk if he has canceled it for another place or if we are still going in June