Hi, Iâm Sawan1984!
A passionate reader, Iâve recently stepped into the world of fanfic writing â spotlighting Dragon Age: Origins with a darker AU twist.
Plotting and polishing text is my joy, and I channel that into New Bad Beginning â a gritty, morally gray exploration of Morriganâs rise during the Fifth Blight. Expect war, blood magic, political intrigue, trauma, and a survivalâdriven antiâheroine who stops being merely support and starts rewriting her own destiny.
Currently posted on AO3: New Bad Beginning â 8+ chapters (Mature)
[https://archiveofourown.org/works/44396590]
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Title: New Bad Beginning
Fandom: Dragon Age: Origins
Rating: Mature (Major Character Death, Graphic Depictions of Violence; war, blood magic, trauma)
Genre: Dark Fantasy / Anti-Heroine / War / Magic / Political Intrigue / Trauma / Mystery
Tags: POV Morrigan ¡ Blood Magic ¡ Fade Demons ¡ Madness ¡ Dragon Age Lore ¡ Grey Wardens ¡ The Blight ¡ Morally-Gray Characters
Summary:
Morrigan steps out of the Wardenâs shadow and into the centre of the Fifth Blight. When Flemethâs daughter leaves the Korcari Wilds, there is no chosen hero waitingâonly a witch prepared to bargain with demons, Grey Wardens and kings if it keeps her alive. Fereldenâs fate tilts on the choices of someone who never claimed to be a saviour.
This is a long, lore-heavy canon divergence that pulls in characters and plot threads from Origins, Awakening and DA2. Expect major changes to familiar events, political scheming between Ferelden, Orlais and the Chantry, and a protagonist who treats people as pieces on a board⌠until some of those pieces start to matter more than she planned.
Excerpt:
âShe had never sought to lead â yet here she stood, at the edge of ruinâŚâ
Start here: Chapter 1 on AO3 âś
https://archiveofourown.org/works/44396590
Latest update: Chapter 27 on AO3 âś
https://archiveofourown.org/works/44396590/chapters/217199511
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@tiredtruffle â Morrigan + Alim Surana, back to back in a fight against Darkspawn
CW: darkspawn violence, battle injury, impalement, body horror-adjacent magic
Dragon Age | New Bad Beginning (NBB)
Note:
The exact âback to backâ shape belongs to another scene already used elsewhere, so Iâm taking the cleaner non-repeat match: Morrigan and Alim trapped in the same collapsing fight, holding the same impossible edge while darkspawn climb toward them. It is not heroic in the polished sense. It is exhaustion, bad choices, frost on steel, a mage on the verge of collapse, and Morrigan deciding that survival may demand something worse than death.
Suledin. Dinâanshiral.
Excerpt:
Still pale but steady, the elf noddedâno fainting in his plans. They slid down the ladder to find Alistair braced at the stairwell, the thunder of approaching darkspawn echoing upward. Battle had come to them.
Morrigan tossed over her shoulder:
â Donât die.
Morrigan approached Alistair and, moving slowly to avoid startling him, touched his blade. A simple spell rippled across the metal, coating it in frost as if freshly pulled from a winter gale. The warrior acknowledged the aid with a curt nod. Alim, wrapped in shimmering magical and spiritual wards, attempted a grim joke:
â Heard tales in camp about the legendary Witch of Korkari. They say she could call lightning upon her enemies. Perhaps weâre fortunate to have such company?
The witch nearly agreedâthen froze mid-breath, struck by uncertainty. Racing through her memory, she realized the lightning spellâs sequence had vanished, feeding fresh paranoia. The hours spent mastering it felt intact, yet the spell itself... as if those efforts had evaporated. What else had been lost during those blank hours? With a noncommittal nod to Alim, she steeled herself for battle.
A minute and a half later, the first three genlocks appeared on the lower floor. Clad in rusted mail and wielding jagged blades, they charged up the stairs with startling speed. The spell on Alistairâs blade hurled the lead creature backwardâbones crunched as it tumbled downâmarking the fightâs start.
Morrigan clenched her fist and hissed through gritted teeth:
â Tua vita mea estĂŠ.
Something intangible brushed the charging genlockâlike a ripple on waterâbefore its sword plunged into her abdomen to the hilt, dragging her back a step with a choked cry of pain. Though Alim roared in fury, Alistair was locked in his own struggle. Genlocks in melee were deadlier than they were at range, especially armed and armored. Deflecting thrusts with his shield, barely dodging, the blond bided his timeâthen ducked low and surged forward. A shield bash to the gut, a stab to the thigh, and he flung his opponent down the stairs after the first.
Turning, he witnessed something unnatural: Morrigan, impaled and smiling horribly, cradled the kneeling genlockâs head as she whispered:
â FrĂos. TenacĂ.
Frost crawled over the creatureâs skull beneath her fingers. It collapsed, sword clattering free. She yanked the blade from her bellyâbarely a trickle of blood nowâand tossed it aside.
â Leave this one. Itâll serve as a... well of life.
Five more genlocks reached the third floor. An archer loosed at Alistairâthe only visible armed targetâforcing him to dodge right, slamming into the wall. Alim managed to hurl one attacker downstairs, his ragged breathing betraying his limits.
Alistair whirled, using foes as shields against the archer. Morrigan, exploiting her staffâs reach, speared a genlockâs eye, then bludgeoned it senseless. Slipping from the archerâs sight, she repeated her freezing spell on the stunned creature.
Before Alistair could fully use one darkspawn as cover, a hilt struck his jaw twice in the scrum. He retaliatedâkicking both genlocks down the stairsâthen spat blood and retreated from arrow range.
â Our timeâs running out.
Panting, he checked his grip and squinted upward.
â Darkâs falling.
Two genlocks and another archer burst onto the landing. Alistair and Morrigan split, complicating their aimâbut the archer targeted the swaying elf. Without hesitation, Morrigan incanted:
â Somnia dirae tenebrae, animus furentĂŠ!
A wave of translucent gloom flashed through the room. The effect was more than sheâd hoped for: the archer flailed at invisible threats; one genlock froze; the other stumbled backward down the stairs. Alistair seized the openingârunning one through the neck, shield-bashing the second, then finishing it on the floor.
â Canât... huff... help but wonder. Got more tricks like last nightâs?
Morrigan shot him a glare, fatigue now plain.
â Honesty will kill you.
â Bit late for warnings.
A thunder of footsteps echoed belowâdozens, plus an ogreâs heavy tread. Morrigan hissed:
â Remember your vow at the ruins? To protect? Your hourâs come. Delay them. Even a minute.
â Got a plan?
â An idea. Weâll see what it costs me.
He readied his blade.
â Still better than âwe die now.â
Alistair clenched his teeth and took position at the stairwell, his attention wholly consumed by the approaching footsteps below. Morrigan lingered for a moment on his tense back before turning to the elf who was clinging to consciousness by sheer will.
Read on AO3: https://archiveofourown.org/works/44396590 (Chapter 3) @thedasweekend
   â Whatâs so scary about an empty Imperial Highway?
   Her eyes flashed with challenge.
   â If you mean the fever, thereâs nothing to fear anymore. The locals are well acquainted with fractures of all kindsâ and old hunting wounds from beasts that took a man down days before he limped home. Though all that⌠â She repeated the gesture, gentler now so it wouldnât look like mockery. â âŚwonât heal in a day. But beauty isnât my priority now. And I donât think youâre heading to the foothills⌠on foot. I imagine you fear Iâll become dead weight when you meant to travel light. However, in the saddle, my presence wonât much affect our speed. As for the bloodshed⌠Does the route bypass settlements?
   Squeezing her eyes shut for a moment, Morrigan admitted honestly:
   â No. Thereâll be one settlement. Listen. This is foolish. You canât hear yourself. Barely two days have passed since Tralin had you slung over his shoulder while the fever shook you. I wonât pretend Iâm not afraid youâll collapse mid-journey. And itâs not about âdead weight.â I am no healer. If it happens in the middle of some nameless mountain valley, days from help through snowfall, you will simply⌠cease to exist.
   â Who talks of death like that: âcease to existââŚ?
   â Leliana, this sudden stubbornness⌠Itâs as ifâ
   The witch fell silent mid-sentence, slowly closing her mouth as she peered into the glinting green eyes opposite her.
   â You had a vision. Another âvoice.â
   Leliana averted her gaze, then slowly lowered her headâ wordless confirmation. Morriganâs fingers brushed her lips before she shook her head in bewilderment and went on:
   â Letâs assume. But how do you intend to justify this madness?
   With an awkward snortâ made awkward by the tightness of her healing faceâ Leliana answered:
   â Weâll see⌠Someone else would have ended this conversation. But youâre curious about my arguments, arenât you?
   Growing slightly pale, the Seeker asked with apprehension:
   â Idol?
   â Yes. Given what youâve said, itâs easy to guess: Zibenkek learned of this place through blood magic. And if the dragonâs their idol, then the valleyâs full of idiotsâŚ
   â Who worship it.
   â Yes⌠Well, and what the âold idolâ is, Iâll figure out on the spot.
   â If the legend is trueâŚ
   Throwing up a hand, Morrigan let her irritation spill out:
   â Then decideâ what do you actually believe? Is the legend true? Then itâs also true that unknown figures from some ancient cult managed to hide the ashes of the great faithâs progenitor from everyone. And then either they perished, or they turned to blood magic and dragon worship. Or do you believe that legends rarely leave the realm of dreams?
   â What difference does it make what I believeâŚ
   Tristanâs voice sounded weak and dull, but there was not a trace of doubt in it:
   â Only what I can do about it matters. Even if Zibenkek sent you to kill a dragon and desecrate the greatest shrine⌠youâd still go. The relic is considered lost, and we have a host of tangible problems on our hands. And besides⌠Iâm bedridden. But itâs worth thinking, for a moment, about coincidences. Youâre not the first in this castle obsessed with the Sacred Ashes as a key to solving problems.
   â Oh yes, weâve âtalkedââŚ
   Morrigan slowly rose, but the rustle as Tristan shifted on the pillow made her turn to him first. The Seeker was trying to sit up, his face contorted in a grimace of pain, but his eyes⌠Those icy eyes looked at her with inhuman certainty:
   â This conversation reminded me⌠Sometimes, after paying the price for answers, Iâm surprised all over again at what those answers cost. Again and again, I get what I needâ and in the end, where has it brought me? Donât mistake this for weakness brought on by sickness. However much the cost has touched me personally, of all the losses I regret only one. The others ultimately became either the consequence of duty, or served some goodâ as I understand it. But the moment I began seeking an answer to an extremely personal question, andâŚ
   Tristanâs fingers twitched on the blanket, weakly but unmistakably pointing at Morrigan.
   Morriganâs lips pressed into a thin line. Her nails dug into her palms, leaving half-moons on her skin, but her voice stayed steady:
   â Why?
   â You are far from an ordinary stranger, wandering the world and stumbling into interesting places. Or interesting events. You are a rare instrument that has ended up in the right place at the right hour. Such a coincidence cannot be accidental. Someone brought you to usâ deliberately⌠But what we cannot control or bend to our will is not worth time. Returning to⌠the instrument. You will occupy a significant place in the war unfolding around us, ancient as time itself. Seizing the moment, we will tip the scales in our favor.
   â Ha.
   In response, her interlocutor only raised its brows in question. Morrigan collected herself and clarified:
   â And what, in your opinion, is my âpotentialâ?
   â There is a deep irony in how the enemy, after centuries, repeats our steps. The root causes are different. The method is different. But the result⌠It is even more ironic to discover that while searching for a rope for a drowning man, he has learned to swim. You, of course, would not understand⌠Your⌠âmotherâ experimented with the draconic line. And progressed much farther than her peers. And here is the resultâ before us.
   Morrigan couldnât suppress a sharp intake of breathâ her eyes widened, her fingers gripping the armrests:
   â Me?!
   â M-m-m⌠Well, for instance. When was the last time you had your courses?
   Zibenkek smiled, revealing teeth that were too even.
   â Donât scowl. An obvious discrepancy in the facts escaped your notice, not without reason. You can turn that thought over later. So. You need power. You will receive our pact on the following conditions. We will show you a place in the foothills of the Frostback Mountains. You must go there, find a forgotten site, and within it: an abandoned treasure. Then perform a task whose result will aid usâ and you.
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   Melsendre felt the cold blade of fear slowly slide between her shoulder blades. This man didnât smell of sweat and steel like ordinary soldiers, but of something alienâas if his clothes were steeped in the smoke of distant lands where familiar laws did not apply.
   â Why are you wasting time on me?
   â Because it is a dance. You take a step, a sweep of the armâevery necessary movement. Some moves seem meaningless, but without them the beauty of the dance dies. Another might casually pluck a flower. But I... am patient. For now.
   â Is the flower an allegory? How crude?
   Melsendre felt the manâs smile against her back. Something must have shifted in his posture: a faint creak of glove-leather or boot-leather.
   â You... are unusual. And that is your value.
   â Do not stoop to empty flattery. You want something. And it is certainly not my âflower.â Such men do not waste time on empty dances. My intuition is silent, like a frightened cat in a corner. But whatever you want in the end, I will not serve two masters. Nor am I privy to my patronâs current affairs.
   No answer came. Just as the girl began to think her interlocutor had dissolved as heâd appeared, strong hands clad in fine black leather settled on her shoulders, and warm breath brushed her earâbreath that, contrary to expectation, carried the scent of mint and the pungent aroma of unknown herbs. Like the embodiment of a far northern coastlineâsea to the horizon.
   â You are right. And wrong about the main thing. Your place at Gaspar de Chalonsâs side, and the trust he will one day place in youâthose are unique. Together, you are like a masterpiece. Exceptional. This dance you share will open so much to you. You simply cannot imagine...
   When his footsteps faded, Melsendre took her first full breath of the evening. She plucked an apple from the nearest branch and discovered, to her surprise, that the fruit was worm-ridden. As if the orchard itself was giving her a sign: beauty merely masks the rot.
   A pause followed. Tense silence hung while Tristan pinned Morrigan with his gaze, and sheâmasking her interestâwaited without expression. At last he forced it out:
   â A month, I suppose.
   â HmmâŚ
   Her fingers tapped the armrest.
   â So theyâre somewhere between Halamshiral and the gates of Orzammar. Theyâll cross the southern border with the first blizzards. And even if some passing merchant spots them, winter will serve as a shield. That much is clear. Wynne, I think, will return sooner. Nowânext question. The pact.
   The Seeker licked his dry lips, glancing sideways at the clay jug and mug on the bedside table. Morrigan poured water without ceremony and helped the sick man drink his fill, buying him the time he needed to think.
   â Not nowâ
   â No, no, no.
   Morrigan shook her head.
   â If not now, the right moment will never come. And if youâre too weak, you wonât be serving that pact for long anyway. Letâs⌠clear this up.
   Rubbing her forehead, the witch went on:
   â There is no alliance between us. No friendship either. UnlessâŚ
   Her mouth twisted.
   â A coincidence of interests. You hold my leashâand the promise of my death is the handle. A strong motivation, without the rest. But I wager that leash comes from the same pact. Now ask yourself: would you give your life for mine? Youâre a step from the grave. What price will your âpatronâ exact for a mageâs death? So many questions⌠Itâs not as if Iâm free to leave while youâre weak. But you are right: before, I held time in my hands. Now, while you lie abed, how many of your patronâs plans can I ruin? Choose.
   Tristan closed his eyes and was silent a moment. Then he said:
Note:
Abandoned homes do not always announce themselves with open doors and silence. Sometimes they are seen from a hilltop: too few columns of smoke, too much clean snow between buildings, roofs gone where roofs should be, rooms left open to the sky as if the house itself had forgotten how to shelter anyone. Redcliffe looks peaceful only from far away. Close enough, the snow is just a shroud.
Abelas. Suledin.
Excerpt:
So, scarcely daring to breathe wrong, the party on foot and horseback finally saw the bay below Redcliffe ahead. Blanketed in fresh snow, it might have passed for a peaceful haven. But to a sharp eye, nothing was missed: how few columns of smoke rose into the sky; how sparse the dark figures moving below; how much pristine whiteness lay unbroken between the buildings; and the roofless shells where snow, instead of resting on shingles, fell straight into empty rooms. Not only the burned housesâalso those that had been razed to their foundations in the fireâs wake.
Standing on the crest of the last hill before the descent into the valley, Morrigan spoke aloud, as if to no oneâand yet only a step from Marjolaine and Leliana:
â First of Harvest⌠A whole month has passed. As if it had never beenâand already another turn waits.
Leliana didnât answer. She only tugged the reins lightly and guided the horse down the slope.
Read on AO3: https://archiveofourown.org/works/44396590 (Chapter 25) @thedasweekend
   Later, Morriganâs thoughts were interrupted by mundane concerns: to wash, to eat, and to try to feed Bethany. And in the course of these tasks, one after another, Isolde caught herârested a little, perhaps, but not relaxed in the slightest. Fear and pain showed through the thin veneer of the noblewoman like cracks in old porcelain. For reasons Morrigan could not quite name, it stirred something like respect in her, and left her with no desire to dodge a hard truth. Besides, Milady had no wish to make their conversation public; she closed the door firmly behind her.
   â MageâŚ
   â Morrigan.
   â That name has an interesting origin. Itâs not Hasind, is it?
   Morriganâs smirk was grim.
   â Got Tralin talking⌠The Templarâs weak before nobilityâŚ
   Then, after giving Milady a quick once-over, she added:
   â You would know better than I. Mother never told me how she chose my name.
   Isolde nodded and went on:
   â My husbandâs people are of real interest to me. Quite the opposite of indifference. In my youth, the history of these lands fascinated meâthe extraordinary interweaving of remnants of Avvar culture, reforged by northern invaders into something new, yet still distinct. Your name, in the ancient Avvar tongues that served as the basis for the Fereldan language, means: âQueen of Ravens.â A strong name. Mine stems from an old Orlesian dialect and means merely: âto rule.â Which I am trying to do⌠perhaps not in the best way. Tell me, âQueen,â what of my son? What is there to hope for? And can one even speak of hope here?
   At those words, it was as if a mask slipped from Morrigan; pretense vanished without a trace. She had never known the meaning of her own name, but she knew this much: the âmadâ Flemeth never did anything simply for amusement. Much could look like amusement⌠until the appointed time arrived.
   â The enemy proved too formidable. I killed Connor in his own dream, on the other side of the Veil. Meaningless words to an outsider. In plain terms: the boyâs mind is damagedâlikely beyond repair. That is the price of liberation. His and ours. I cannot forbid you to hope. The heart wonât stop beating. And perhaps a healer of great knowledge will reach us in time. You are likely sick of patience by now. But I cannot offer anything else.
   The inconsolable mother bit her lip until it bled, staring at the floor. After a minute of silence, she said, almost inaudibly:
   â To wait againâŚ
   â Yes.
   Morriganâs answer made Isolde flinch, and the girl continued:
   â It resembles a spiderâs web. Youâre caught. And no matter how much you struggle, the end is already clearâonly death is in no hurry to grant release. Each of you faces a choice: to keep choosing, or to stop. To open your eyes, or to press on blindly. To go on for somethingâor for someoneâorâŚ
   She exhaled, her voice flattening.
   â To you this is only airâshreds of meaningless phrases. You know⌠youâd do better speaking to any âSister of Light.â Or thereâacross the bay at the chantryâa companion is coming to her senses. Leliana. In some measure, she is a specialist in wounded and bleeding hearts. Tell her you come from Morrigan, who is all right. And that sheâs rested enough.
   Watching Morriganâs face carefully, the Lady of the Fort nodded slowly.
   â Thank you for the honest answer. And the advice.
@micapocalypse â Alim + Naire + a costly mistake
CW: arrest, blades at throat, accusation of maleficarum, suspected possession, sibling conflict
Dragon Age | New Bad Beginning (NBB)
Note:
A costly mistake can look very reasonable while it is being made. Alim does not act from cruelty here. He chooses the lawful path, the cautious path, the path that lets him say he is protecting his sister and the Circle at the same time. Naire remembers something simpler: she was saved. Between those truths, the mistake opens its mouth.
Abelas, lethallan. Suledin.
Excerpt:
The crowd scattered like water hissing off hot stones. Only Naire remained, unmoving, blinking in confusion. Morriganâs expression emptied as she shifted her gaze from the tense Knight-Commander to Alim:
â You?
The elfâs silence was answer enough. Ignoring Morrigan, he spoke to his sister:
â Naire, come here. Please.
â But she saved me, Alim! I donât understandâ
Alimâs fists clenched until his knuckles whitened. His eyes darted between Naire and Morrigan, searching for some flaw in his suspicions. But the woman before him was undeniably Morrigan. Regret, pain, and irritation warred in his voice:
â This is... the right way. For everyone.
He stepped forward:
â I waited by those doors from dawn till dusk, sister. Every hour couldâve been your last. And you know what kept me there? The thought that if you survived... itâd likely be because of her. â His gaze flicked to Morrigan. â But that doesnât mean I can overlook the rest.
Morrigan laughed bitterly and nudged Naire toward him:
â Go to him. Heâll spin you a tale or two. Might even forget who saved his hide.
Then she focused entirely on Gregor:
â Shouldâve left you to die back then.
Read on AO3: https://archiveofourown.org/works/44396590 (Chapter 13) @thedasweekend
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   Morrigan returned to the corridor and followed the trail of blood drops. Before long she found her âpartner.â Apparentlyâwith Tralinâs helpâhe had been laid on a bed in a room that, by its furnishings, had belonged to Connor. And here, now, still tasting the irony, Morrigan stood and watched.
   Minutes dragged. Then footsteps approachedâTralinâs, unmistakable. Instinctively, Morrigan shifted so she could keep both the Seeker and the doorway in view. Tralin halted on the threshold and lowered his gaze to the revolting-looking leader of their party. As if sensing the tension in the room, he did not step inside. He spoke quietly:
   â The people of the Fort are coming to their senses. The lethargy has lifted. Many are ill. Gravely so. I found the guards earlier, but theyâll be of little use for the time being. We need aid from the village. This whole place⌠needs aid.
   â Isolde is asleep.
   Tralin nodded.
   â Milady helped greatly with the Seeker. She knew where the medicines were. She showed admirable composure. But Milady wasnât meant for thisâespecially with her husband and son teetering on the brink in the next room. Still, that does not change the fact that it was Milady who bled Redcliffe Fort dry by sending most of the knights away. It was Milady who hid her sonâs talent from the Chantry, choosing to teach him in secret. Untrained magesâŚ
   He cut himself off, realizing whereâand with whomâand under what circumstances he was speaking. Morriganâs lips twitched into a barely perceptible smirk. Tristan had chosen his âtoolsâ well. In the weak dawn light, the shadow of her lashes slid over her cheekbones as she shifted her gaze to Tralin. Aloud, however, she said something else:
   â Predictable. Isolde was the weak link their enemies exploited. A chink in the armour. But sometimes⌠to rid yourself of weakness is akin to killing yourself. The Arl is no less to blameâpreferring blind comfort within the family to constant vigilance. Perhaps this whole affair began with his weakness, not his wifeâs.
   Tralinâs gaze stayed on her. He gave nothing awayâacceptance or disagreementâonly silence. After a pause, he said:
   â The decisions are for the Seeker to make. Are we safe?
   Morrigan shook her head, more bemused than affirmative.
   â Strange words to hear from a Templar. Safer than before, I suppose. A powerful Fade-spawn can do much, if it doesnât care what it costs. Youâd know better than I would. Strangely enough, what happened to the tower at Grintorn comes to mind⌠No cause, no catalystâyet the building vanished into the Fade. Entirely.
   Morriganâs brows liftedâgenuine surprise. She had never heard of the incident near Orzammar, of a stronghold said to have played no small role in Fereldenâs resistance during the Orlesian occupation.
   She stepped back inside herself and returned to the original problem. If the trap was flawless, of course there was no escape. But what if it wasnât? Morrigan murmured:
   â If thereâs more pride in âPrideâ than skillâŚ
   Effort was for what could be reached. So she accepted the idea of a flaw as her starting point. Slowly scanning the seam where the two reflections met, she asked herself what mistake a demon might make. Squinting, she plucked one thought from the swarm: how would she build such a trap? And how would she hide⌠the imperfection? Snapping her fingers, she spoke aloud, slowly:
   â I understand how to move rooms. So rooms donât appear from nothing. They connect again and againâquickly⌠but âquicklyâ isnât âinstantly.â
   She rose and returned to the door. The only apparent weakness in the puzzle was the simultaneous existence of two exits: the door below and the âdoorâ above. If there were two doors⌠were paired connections even necessary when there was only room for one? She stroked her thumb over the cool bronze of the handle, polished as if by a thousand touches. The detail felt more real than floor or wallâas if someone had memorized the sensation of a palm against it down to the smallest grain.
   â So. That instant when the room above shiftsâperhaps thatâs the only crack to the outside. Assuming it isnât fantasy. And how would IâŚ
   Morrigan looked up, judging whether she could climb. With antlers and mounts, nothing could be simpler. Without delay she scrambled up the wall, breaking only two or three exhibits. At the boundary she felt a strange tension: her upper body already pulled toward the floor of the new room, telling her headâwithout argumentâwhich way was up and which was down, while her lower half still tugged the other way.
   In the end the problem was simple and brutal: how to use the crack at all. For the first time, Morrigan felt pinned by limitation. The Fadeâs great obstacle for any traveler was this: unlike its inhabitants, you could not freely change your form, your perception, or the things themselves. Experience, which should have been a tool, turned into fetters.
   Two facts irritated her most. First, the lack of optionsâreal ideasâforcing her forward blind, trying at random. Second, the kind of ideas she was driven to. She knew that for the past weekâperhaps twoâshe had lived inside anotherâs will and desire. By contrast, the moments when sheâd raged against circumstance now seemed childish and selfish. And here she was, seriously considering the power that had always repelled her most: the spell of transformation.
   Listening intently, Lady Isolde opened the room oppositeâevidently a storeroom for the Arlâs hunting trophies. Judging by the number and variety of stuffed beasts and antlers, the collection spanned more than one generation of Guerrins. Tristan pointed to a carpet from northern Rivainâvibrant as tropical butterfly wings, its patterns as if woven from the northern lights. He stopped Isolde, who had followed, with a shake of his head. Kneeling, Morrigan ran her palm over the dense pile.
   â Yes. A needleâs eye. The path to exclusivityâŚ
   â What?
   â Just⌠a strange thought. So?
   â Lie down. Breathe. As you saidââexclusivity.â That will be the price Iâll pay.
   â Just donât âforgetâ your promise. I wonder⌠do deeds like this cling to the memory?
   Overcoming the pain, Tristan knelt beside her and took her hand. Not fully understanding, he gave a restrained shrug.
   â Depends on who. Mages who survive crossing into the Fade usually try to forget it for the rest of their daysâoften unsuccessfully. Thatâs why research moves slowly, and why itâs done in terrible secrecy. If you mean me⌠Iâd like to forget a great deal too. I hope this wonât be added to that list. For the inconsolable mother behind the doorâabsolutely, whatever the outcome. For the others, itâs harder to vouch. Pick one point. Concentrate. And be silent.
   Tristan closed his eyes. Morrigan stared at the ceiling, her face suggesting a single question: what will it feel like? Minutes passed, and nothing unusual happened. In fact, nothing happened at allâonly breathing: her own steady rhythm and the tense one of the man beside her. Until a dull thud reached her ears, the sound of a body hitting the floor. She turned her headâand found no trace of her companionâŚ
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   And as soon as the party stepped off the stairs⌠a door creaked, as if sighing under the weight of centuries. A figure appeared in the doorwayâtoo straight, too still to be fully human. As it stepped forward, the light fell on a face where arrogance wrestled with despair like two demons in one vessel. But the illusion dissipated, and it turned out to be merely a woman. Stately, tall by local standards, blessed by nature with generous curves. Her blonde hair was gathered in a practical bun, save for fine curls framing a pleasant, round face with a pair of pale green eyes and the distinctive nose of an eastern Orlesian native. Moderately adorned, an unpretentious burgundy satin dress emphasized what it should without flaunting anything extra. Through all this, traces of exhaustion and emotional strain peered through, each step threatened to crush what remained of the Lady. Yet in her gaze was an inappropriate arrogance, as if something alien watched from behind the cracks of a mask.
   Before the woman could open her mouth, an invisible torrent of force silently erupted from the Seeker. As unexpected as it was, given how battered Tristan appeared, it caught even the tense mage off guard. Especially since she sincerely believed the man had reached his limit downstairs in the hall. Cursing inwardly, the girl took stock of the surprise, strengthening her opinion: âSeekersâ were not an âimproved form of Templars,â but a phenomenon fundamentally different from them. And yet, thoughts of Tristanâs âpactâ would not leave her alone.
   Washing over the Lady with no visible effect, the force seemed to rip away the foreign presence. Tears welled in the womanâs eyes, her hands trembled, and Lady Isolde sank to her knees, caring little for the pain or her dress. Her parched lips parted, whispering almost inaudibly:
   â My son⌠Save my son! PleaseâŚ
   Then, from the open room, came the sound of a small body falling, and on the tormented motherâs face it became utter, hopeless horrorâŚ
Note:
This is not Morrigan at the abandoned Gallows. It is the closest clean textual echo I can offer from NBB: Kirkwall as a city that keeps its old cruelties standing in stone, the Gallows named not as scenery but as testimony. Sometimes a place does not need the character inside it to cast a shadow over the story. Sometimes it is enough that someone remembers what kind of wound the stone was built around.
Virâabelasan.
Excerpt:
â From your tale, Kirkwall brought you nothing but misfortune. A streak of ill luck?
â Well, Iâm aliveâŚ
Vincent turned, skeptical, but met genuine bewilderment.
â That bad?
Benedict weighed his words.
â Tristan and I werenât mingling with nobility. Kirkwall isnât just filth, stench, blood, whores, addicts, and crimeâbut scour the slums and sewers, and thatâs all youâll see. Itâs not Orlais, where even backwaters spare you the âfloating corpse at dawnâ greeting. Let alone a corpse you know. Kirkwallâs overcrowded, impoverished, corrupt, inept at every level. Never recovered from Perrinâs assault on the Templars or the Qunari occupation during the Storm Age. MakerâI doubt itâs recovered since its founding. But youâre right. There was one bright spot. Immoral to admit, but⌠Melsendre. A gorgeous Orlesian bard with raven hair. Three glorious nights. Iâm no charmer, but mystery sufficed. Yes, her âprofessionâ became obvious swiftly. Thankfully, her aims never crossed mine. We parted without paranoia⌠or attachments.
At the guest chamber, silence fell. Vincent had no reply; Benedict traced the seamless basalt walls, murmuring:
â You know what truly astonishes me about Kirkwall? Centuries of darkness, violence, horrorâyet the Gallows, the harbor, its countless statues stand as silent tributes to its founders. Soaked in innocent blood, yet⌠timeless. Like this place. Donât you think?
Vincentâs gaze skimmed the walls.
â I value their practicality. Nothing more. Sleep well. Rest is rare in Aeonar.
Once alone, Benedict rubbed his eyes and sighed:
â Yes, I rememberâŚ
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@theelderdemon â Thatâs not how you speak to me + Morrigan
@micapocalypse â regret
CW: magical killing, intimidation, religious coercion, dragon terror
Dragon Age | New Bad Beginning (NBB)
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The line is not spoken plainly. It does not have to be. Someone tries to make Morrigan small in front of frightened people, to name her, diminish her, place her beneath the roomâs idea of holiness. She answers in the language already waiting there: proof, terror, consequence. Regret appears only as a thing too honest to counterfeit. If she said she was sorry, it would be another lie.
TelâAbelas.
Softly stepping forwardâand immediately catching Bromâs fiery golden gaze, leaping to meet hers from under bushy browsâthe witch joined the conversation, trying to speak in a loud, measured voice:
â You are a concerned man. A son, or perhaps a brother, among the Temple Guardians? It cannot be that you are seriously worried about Kolgrim. Otherwise⌠how to explain?.. While the residents were gathering at the chantry at an ungodly hour, comforting each other in grief, anxiety, and hope, your eyes were fixed on that trail. That is the only way you and your comrades could have ended up at the Refugeâs fence line ahead of time. Oh, or perhaps itâs simpler⌠Were you waiting for a messenger with new tidings?
Brom blinked, forcing his gaze away, but Morrigan was already striking her next blow:
â Kolgrim, Brom isnât your kin, is he?
The warrior pressed his lips together in displeasure at the raised topic. A telling shadow passed over his face; the girl saw only irritation and a faint tinge of shame there. Without delay, she clicked her tongue:
â So thatâs it. Even here, filth isnât hard to find.
Brom, who had managed to collect himself, snorted and shook his head:
â A vixen. Sharp-tongued. Good thing the âchosen oneâ serves the people, and not the other way around. OtherwiseâŚ
Baring her teeth like a predator, Morrigan addressed Kolgrim alone, pointedly ignoring Brom:
â Your compliment was better earlier. Scales, forked tongue⌠A more interesting prospect than a fluffy tail. Is such delicacy really needed here? I suspect Father outplayed you from the grave, having cultivated doubt in every useful person beforehand. Any truth is a lie, and a lie is like truth.
Pointing behind her without looking, Morrigan did not release Kolgrimâs grey eyes for a moment:
â If parents mistake a crow for an eagle, their son cannot become a falcon. Nobility and honor can be turnedâcleverlyâfrom a shield into poisoned arrows. And itâs hard to argue with corpses and shadows⌠Do you have something that cannot be tainted by such suspicions?
Kolgrim opened his mouth, ready to answer the witchâs challenge, but immediately snapped it shut. His grey eyes slid over the warriorsâthose searching the crowd for familiar faces, those thoughtfully studying the trampled snow before them, those watching the maid in their midst with burning eyes. Annoyance and fury flashed across his face when his gaze fell on the urn, gleaming with indifferent gold. After the unbroken pause, he said firmly:
â No.
The girl nodded, simply. As she was about to respond, she turned toward the mountains, peering into the dark sky above the ridgeline. The witch frowned, then lowered her scarlet-gold gaze from the heavens onto the figures of the Guardians. Staring as if through them, she asked herselfâpointlessly, inappropriatelyâwhether Kolgrimâs mother and father were alive, whether he had brothers, sisters. Gathering her resolve, she addressed the spearmen loudly and clearly:
â Have you truly forgotten an indisputable truth? Each of you has witnessed it again and againâdailyâso often it has eaten into your bones, become as mundane as breath.
Turning back to Kolgrim, Morrigan finished the thought:
â And that truth needs no prophets; it can speak for itself.
The man raised his eyebrows and, soundlessly, with his lips alone, mouthed:
â Andraste?
Bromâs face darkened as he shouted harshly:
â What heresy is this?!
At that same moment a sound loud enough for all to hear carried across the yardâthe slow beats of enormous wings. And the noise grew, sharpening. It was almost immediately clear it was not a single pair. Heavy, low breathingâslightly whistling, slightly gurgling, like the lungs of mighty forgesâjoined the wingbeats. All of it in the nightâs darkness, under an utterly still black sky where the vague, deceptive outlines of clouds were barely visible. Whatever filled their headsâwhatever they believedâwhatever principles they professed, every single one felt the touch of paralyzing, animal terror. Like hares realizing too late the presence of a pack of hungry wolves. A couple of teenagersâthe kind who already trailed their parents everywhereâand a good half of the women panicked, rushing toward the nearest houses in tears or emitting incoherent gasps. The others did not dare move. Morrigan realized only two emotions remained in herârapture and envyâhaving burned away everything else. A quick glance at Kolgrim showed her he was in the grip of something similar. But in him it was rapture and⌠fear.
In the space of a heartbeat, the seemingly motionless sky split open. Enormous silhouettes materialized out of the darkness. Each new beat of those vast wings spawned eerie eddies in the clouds, blinding the involuntary onlookers with waves of snow blown from the hilltop. Torch flames thrashed like birds gone mad in cages and, losing the battle, guttered out, yielding to the gloom. People squinted, crouched, covered themselves with hands and clothing, but no one dared turn their back on the unfolding horror. The massive bulk of the male landed first, plummeting onto the summit from the last few meters. Corded muscles absorbed the momentum, but a resounding impact rolled through the valley, echoing inside their skulls. From the settlement came, at that moment, the distinct sounds of panic and the crash of falling pottery. The female, in comparison, settled on the hill gracefully and quietlyâalmost more staggering. Then the brood appeared. Like minnows beside sharks, they flopped down clumsily behind the ridge, nearly tumbling like stones. Judging by the soft thuds and plaintive squealsâill-suited to the deadliness of the âlittle onesââfew managed to land competently.
Without waiting for them to fully settle, Morrigan spun in place and in three steps was nose to nose with Brom. It was the only movement in the crowd, and it drew eyes at once. Pale as snow, Brom tore his gaze with difficulty from the flickering molten amber of the dragonsâ pupilsâstudying the people below like a faceless herdâonly to become captive to the Witchâs golden eyes, reflecting the last torch-gleams. He swallowed audibly, trying to calm taut nerves, but the girl gave him no respite; she leaned closer and, in a barely audible voice, said:
â That is the truth, requiring not a shred of proof. I admit, my mother is astounding. No one couldâor canâplay so virtuously, and yet so directly and cruelly, upon the prejudices and weaknesses of others. I canât compare, but Iâll try to play. Alas, I do not command time in abundance. I havenât the leisure to be delicate with petty obstacles.
Without another word, she stroked the bulging veins at his throat with feigned tenderness⌠He jerked away, managing only a soundless exhale:
â MageâŚ
And then Brom sank into the snowâfor a heartbeat, fighting for his life. Witnessing his tribesmanâs swift end, Kolgrim lunged toward the witch, shouting:
â MorriganâŚ
But his voice broke off midway, as if he had run headlong into an invisible wall. He was stopped by an attentive gaze, ready for any continuation. The crowd, stunned by the appearance of the dragons, struggled to digest what had happened. The swiftness, the absence of blood, screams, and the clang of weaponsânone of it matched the rapid death of a seasoned hunter. Letting no excess emotion show, Morrigan addressed the leader of the Guardians coldly:
â My words of regret would be hypocrisy and lies. As would your words that this cannot be done.
   Tristan looked neither fresh nor healthy: pale, sweat-sheened, sucking in air convulsively, his lower lip trembling. Vessels had burst in his right eye, and his stance was skewed by his wound. It made the Seeker look like a typical possessed at the start of transformation. Yet he remained focused and intent on the remaining enemies.
   Not waiting for the metal figures to close in, Tristan, moving quickly though with a slight limp, advanced to meet them. Briefly glancing back to where Tralin was fussing over Bethany, the witch reasoned: the Templar wouldnât be wasting so much time on a corpse. So her attention centered on the fight unfolding before her. When the two slow, seemingly inexorable figures were just five paces away, the Seeker gripped his blade with his bare left hand and carefully, so as not to sever the tendons, drew it from its improvised âsheath.â The blade was stained along its length with a barely noticeable crimson trace of fresh blood.
   As if continuing an unbroken chain of demonstrations of hidden power, a movement appeared at the edge of Morriganâs vision, making her jerk her head nervously, searching for the source of the illusion. She couldnât pinpoint exactly what had moved or where. But each time, she managed to make out individual fragments of the sensation more clearly. Now, it seemed something had slid in from outside, converging on Tristan from different sides. Like a grey carpet of rats, surging toward his feet from a multitude of cracks in a cave the moment a torch sputters out. A rustling, vague movement, and fear, merging with the darkness in unison.
   No devastating attack or miraculous magic followed the manâs action. The possessed suits of armor continued forward and, closing in, delivered a simple blow. A gauntleted fist whistled past Tristanâs headâheâd managed to duck, and droplets of sweat from his face splattered onto the steel fingers⌠The following kick from the second figure, descending from above, resonated in the ears like the strike of a bell, its long, fading hum vibrating in the empty core of the plate. But it also missed, as Tristan skillfully slipped aside, still not even attempting to counterattack. Morrigan didnât understand the manâs plan or tactics as he again and again evaded blows, each of which promised him certain death. From the witchâs perspective, this dance with luck couldnât last forever, and the potential payoff remained beyond her comprehension.
   Yet something was changing. The blows of the initially indifferent figures grew sharper, more hurried. Their precise, almost mechanical movements blurred ever so slightly. As if the demons inhabiting the metal were rushing to achieve some goal. It seemed unlikely to Morrigan that theyâd been suddenly overcome by rage simply because Tristan kept slipping from the jaws of death. He was now openly gasping for air and⌠Then the witch remembered the Seekerâs words about every demon in such an inanimate shell craving to twist free and escape, even back beyond the Veil. But that meant the man, frantically dodging the hail of blows, was somehow damaging his foes simply by being near themâŚ
   Choking back anger at her own blindness, Morrigan almost missed the moment when one suit of armor froze mid-motion, then the other. Beginning to tilt under the not-inconsiderable weight of the metal, the figures clanged heavily together and, with a sickly crash, collapsed onto the floor in pieces. Among the wreckage, only Tristan remained standing, but he didnât look victorious for long. After two breaths, the man swayed to the side and crashed to the floor, matching his vanquished foes.