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Giving offline exams after over 2 years !!!! My hands are shaking and i am so under prepared. I am so going to fail!!!

By chance if i pass.

"By chance if i pass. " there nothing more i have to passsssss.

I feel so ugly ...

I will be turning 20 next week , for a normal girl it would be exciting . Finding dresses , planning party & most importantly feel beautiful .

I said normal girl . More like normal size , I on the other hand am fat . FAT !!!!

The worst part is , my family wont spare a day of reminding me that i am ugly and need to reduce . Even called me ugly to my face .

When i was young it was all about getting good marks , my dad literally said "we wont say a word about your weight if u score good ". But now that i am scoring good , it is all about if u just reduce weight .

I am academically very successful , a beautiful relationship ,i am in all extra circulars , i even had the highest post a student can get in a council , the general secretary (I am in India , so its GS). I literally scored 99%.

Well I'm 19 years old , will turn 20 soon , l live with my parents , grandparents , my brother and my dog .

I have always been the average with everything kinda person , mostly to satisfy my family and my teachers , studying something i used to love and now I'm not sure , from being extremely extrovert to being self conscious and a victim of body dysmorphia .

I have major body image issues , that have more like taken over my life . I probably need help but i am not sure how i am supposed to ask for it . My parents surely wont budge . My boyfriend will give his own advice , honestly i dont want to tell him , because i have already multiple time and i kinda feel embarrassed now ...

Hey peeps !! Joining tumbler to share my stories , more like a diary. More like get things off my back and just get things clear . More like a self discovery page actually .