living with trauma and anxiety means always existing on the edge of things. my first Second Life account was made in 2004 but I have no lasting SL friendships older than about a year. sometimes I see reminders of people or things from years ago and I'm sad or nostalgic but any personal connection I feel to people and things that pass or change in SL is almost entirely parasocial.Â
being on the edge of things is lonely sometimes, but my brain insists that it's the least painful option. after so many years I don't think that it will ever change.












