And today's mood is brought to you by loneliness and anguish because I let people get close even tho I am incredibly detached. This past year has taught me it is much easier to be genuine and happy if you don't get too close w people. Sounds unreasonable but it is true. I dont like people getting in my space. This isnt about some sappy love its about friends and family also. Just so fucking over it. I hate relationships and I always forget this. I hate having someone's brain and heart attached to my own. I am too obsessive that I would rather just cut it off but I know it will devastate that person and idk if it is even fair to me. I'm just a jumbled twisted mess rn. I hate attachment and I HATE exclusivity. I fucking hate it. I feel like I am on a leash.