merlin

. For context the Dragonborn Sorcerer Dark Urge is my fave, especially redeemed durge.

Here are some of my personal headcanons of him.

1. I don't think he would date anyone in the main group, because well, frankly he doesn't think he deserves love for everything he's done, even after he gets cured.

2. Jaheira basically adopts him after Act 3. IDC that he's a grown ass man, he gets a happy loving family, his siblings love him, though the younger ones will probably never know all of what he's done. He only tells Rion everything and how he feels about everything and its a cute sibling moment okayyyy

3. Durge visits all of the companions as much as he can, because they've become his family too. He meets Gale, Gale's mom, Tara and Withers for tea as often as he can. He often visits The Owlbear and Shadowheart on the farm and helps out where he can. He and Astarion often meet at night in Baldur's Gate to chat. He has even visited Lae'zel once in the astral plane, though mostly they keep up through holograms. He enjoys taking visits to Moonrise to visit Halsin and the locals. He also often sends supplies to Karlach and Wyll, to make their fight easier. He and Minsc go fishing sometimes, but mostly he listens to Minsc's stories of the past. The only one he doesn't hear much from is Minthara.

4. Durge put down his weapons for good. He avoids fights as much as he can, though being an ex-Bhaalspawn and ex-Bhaal's chosen, sometimes fighting is necessary. He mostly meditates and sits calmly, trying to make peace with himself and healing. He often also builds little grave monuments to his victims, because he remembers them all.

5. Durge still practices sorcery, but for only good reasons.

6. He knows what Withers is. And he told him he knows, and understands that Withers can't say anything, but that he knows. Also Withers becomes like a dad aswell to him.

7. Durge still has visions and nightmares of all his victims, but he's trying to make amends in ways he can, though he knows that there's not much he can do. He understands that it was his nature and he couldn't help it, but he still doesn't forgive himself.

8. In classic modern kids movie fashion, Durge has a panic attack in the moonrise towers cultist basement thing when they meet Kressa Bonedaughter, because well what he went through is tragic