Life Story

I decided to deleting my social medias to get rid of my digital footprints as much as possible. I deactivated my twitter, askfm, medium, since I no longer use them. Still keeping facebook and instagram (and also, tumblr) tho with privacy enhancement. It is just me trying to protect my identity (?)

Btw, It’s been 2 months since I became personal assistant to CEO. It feels crazy, as if I were work in a big4 consulting but I don’t. But they both share that high level of intensity and pressure (at least I guess so, because everything had to be done as instant as possible) 

Sometimes I wonder is it a good opportunity to become CEO’s assistant? Like, my whole life is all about serving him, providing food for him and his guests, ensuring his room is in a proper temperature and that all things inside work properly. Collecting all the data he ask (which i don’t generate/analyze/process). Retouching his presentation, etc. 

That was too much for me, but I kinda felt that none of those expand my knowledge efficiently. I hope you understand my point. It was like, you’ve been given so many job to do but it was not you who generate and process the data. You were just a collector/messenger. Hence, you don’t know the formula/calculation/procedure to produce the data. I dont even know what should I write to describe my job description to be put on linkedin. LOL. 

I must be honest, I did learn something new. I learnt how to read Financial Report, I understood key issues in my Company, also I knew how to handle situation when I was yelled in front of many people because of something trivial. That happened so many times. Sometimes I felt down and even questioned myself, “was it that bad?”

This is my very first dashboard. I once used Google Data Studio to visualize my data, but I find that Tableau is a better choice for me. As an analyst, data visualization skill becomes an important skill to have along with data analysis skill (sourcing, cleansing, story telling, etc).

Here's the link. Check it out.

1. Movie Marathon

Beberapa di antaranya adalah Money Heist, Sherlock Holmes, The King Eternal Monarch, dan The Adventure of Merlin. Merlin ini sebenernya series BBC tahun 2008-2012 ada 5 season @ 13 episode. Dalam 3 hari, udah hampir kelar 3 season karena emang menurutku ceritanya bagus. Latar cerita mirip GoT, tentang kerajaan-kerajaan gitu, diwarnai dengan kaum-kaum lain (selain manusia tentunya) seperti Witch, Druids, Goblin, Sidhe, dll. Yang kusuka dari Merlin adalah nilai-nilai persahabatannya dan legowo when you did something great but the credit goes to the other person. Film ini berhasil membuatku menitikkan air mata beberapa kali. Hahaha

2. Journal

I create another tumblr (LOL) where I put summaries/opinions of what I have read. I think this one is necessary to make myself stick to the habits I set to achieve my goals.

I really wish I can finish to read Transport Geography and Maritime Economics. Actually, I want to have higher education to get such fundamental, deeper, and wider (?) knowledge. But, there's no certainty about scholarships provided by company where i work.

3. Build Design Portofolio

I also create another ig account (LOL) as a showcase for my designs.

Suatu waktu temen kantor di FKS nawarin, “Nel, mau durian gak? Ini ada banyak” dan aku bilang, “ngga, aku ngga makan durian”. Di hari yang berbeda, temen kos nawarin, “wan, lu mau ga pancake durian? Dari medan ni.. nelayan” Lalu kujawab, “wah pasti enak tuh bang buat yang suka durian, tapi aku ga bisa makan durian, makasih bang.” Sampai suatu saat seseorang nanya kenapa aku menolak makan durian yang sangat mereka cintai ini. Jawabanku adalah, “karena dulu waktu aku TK, pertama kalinya aku makan durian, aku langsung muntah. Aku masih ingat sekali kejadian itu. Sejak saat itu, aku ngga mau makan durian lagi. Itulah durian pertama dan terakhir yang kumakan.”

Tiba-tiba aku ngerti sesuatu. Ga peduli seenak apa Durian itu, ga peduli seberapa excellent olahan dan presentasi kulinernya, kalau aku ‘alergi’ sama durian, ya sampai kapanpun durian itu akan aku tolak. Bahkan ngga hanya durian murni. Semua jenis makanan yang bercampur durian, pasti ngga akan kumakan. Sama juga dengan kehidupanku dengan Tuhan. Sering kali aku bilang, “Tuhan, aku ada untuk menyembah-Mu. Cuma satu hal yang Kau ga bisa lakukan Tuhan: menyembah diri-Mu sendiri. Biar itu jadi bagianku. Aku mau menyembah-Mu”. Tapi kemudian suara hatiku bilang, 

“Nel, sama kaya kau alergi sama durian, dan durian itu kau tolak, gitu juga Tuhan. Tuhan ‘alergi’ (ngga suka) sama kemunafikan. Selama kau masih hidup dalam kemunafikan, Tuhan tolak penyembahanmu. Bukan tentang seberapa bagusnya lagu yang kau nyanyikan. Karena bukan itu yang dilihat Tuhan. Tuhan lihat hati.”

Nada terbaik ga akan bisa menyentuh hati-Nya. Melodi terindah juga ga akan bisa mencuri perhatian-Nya.

Suara terbaik adalah suara yang keluar dari hati kita yang dipecahkan. Harmoni termanis adalah yang lahir dari hidup yang diletakkan di mezbah bakaran.

Mari berhenti berpura-pura bahwa kita ini merasa sudah bisa memberikan segalanya.

Mari berhenti menaikkan lagu-lagu.

Naikkanlah penyembahan. Karena sesungguhnya penyembahan itu adalah hidup sehari-hari yang mengejar Pribadi-Nya dan melakukan firman-Nya.

Rancangan-Mu indah

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