well well well, look who finally decided to study

Greetings, internet traveller. Welcome to my hellhole

I'm Neeks (she/her), and this is my study blog. My main blog is @puffy-bread-is-meh

I'm a struggling third year Computer Engineering major (with a specialisation in AI-ML) and also doing a minor in Business Development (which is pretty useless because I am not learning anything), along with honours in Cybersecurity.

Despite the drawing of me above, I am in fact not a child. Though maybe I am in spirit (i haven't updated my brain software since 2020)

(I really debated putting the chibi on here cuz it's kinda cringe and I haven't drawn anything in like 6 years, but also there's only so much you can draw on your phone without a stylus. So yeah it is what it is)

Anyways, In this blog you shall find many tales of hardship, such as rising at dawn at the elderly age of 20 and attempting to focus for more than 1800 seconds. These will probably be in the form of long, possibly incomprehensible word dumps, because life is hard and chaotic.

My posts will also sometimes include discussions of my mental and physical health because that's something I struggle with. I'll probably add them under the tag #neeksvents from now on. Normal posts would be on #neeksposts

*Regretting my life choices*

Y'all it's been so long since I've done one of these

Anyways a lot has happened. I've given like 3 interviews (even though I thought I'd get no interviews this sem) and got a decent internship for the summer. I'm not applying for other better options cuz this one is very near to where I live so I won't have to relocate to another city and cry etc etc

Also somehow finished all my practical exams. All went well except ML (which was just bad luck but eh)

But my 6th sem is basically over now. My end sems would start from 4th may and then after that I'd pretty much be a final year student.

---warning: placements panic+ rambling incoming---

So like any other loser cs student I was like yeah I need to lock in now (which is the very last minute) cuz I have placements from next sem and the job market is cooked and the companies that come to my campus don't care about the skills I have so it's all misaligned and the ones that are aligned only recruit like 1 student out of 300 applicants (who all have almost the same set of skills as me btw cuz it's 2026 and everyone is a carbon copy replica of every other person and I order to stand out you'd have to do the equivalent of lifting a mountain with your bare hands or something)

I can't do masters abroad even though I wanted to, cuz again, job market is cooked and I don't wanna work at McDonald's in some Western European country cuz no one would hire me yk. My seniors told me you'd have an advantage if you have atleast 3-4 years of work experience, so it would be easier to get jobs after masters. So that's my plan, I have to join the rat race and drown in placement hell.

(also I won't do masters in my country because the only good institutes here require you to have a really high national rank to get in their program, and that's another entrance exam rat race, and I will cry if I'll have to focus on 2 rat races instead of 1)

(this is a lie because I'm still going to prep for GATE, the entrance exam to do a MTech. In my country. Not because I wanna do MTech here but because many PSUs that pay well and govt organisations in defence security and space tech and stuff consider your GATE rank, and I wanna apply to those cuz private jobs are cooked and startup jobs feel like you're literally being burned alive slowly)

Anyways what I mean to say is, my focus these days is leetcoding (from scratch again cuz i am really bad at this I don't even wanna talk about it. Like you will laugh) technical interview prep, making atleast 2 decent projects with skills that'll actually help me get hired thru either on campus or off campus placements and uh system design stuff AND GATE prep. All while managing my 9-5 on site summer internship. Hurray

Woah this idea is so cool I wonder if someone already made something like this

*finds similar implementations*

Ooh these are nice but they're not doing exactly what I want to do

*looks up research done on it*

Okay so there's plenty of research done on it but they're all using primitive pipelines and not the latest technology that would make it soo much better. I am definitely the only one who came up with this idea and I will have the honour to be the first one to ever-

*looks up the project on YouTube*