not here🥀

- some thoughts I’ve had

If everything is really fine, I’ll try to go on at least one date

I swear I’ll try to make mystakes

I’ll try to live, I’ll try to learn,

I’ll try to feel and try to cope

I’ll try to let the people know

That I exist and that I’m hurt

And it’s been scary for a while,

And I am lost, and I am tired

But if everything is really fine,

point is, when people like you and want to spend time with you, they will make time

see them studying with another person when they told you they can't be productive when trying to work if there are other people around? yeah, they meant they don't want to sped time with you

see them meeting in the hallways with all of their friends and talking but only saying hi to you? yeah, they meant they don't want to sped time with you

see them not answering messages and barely saying something? yeah, they meant they don't want to sped time with you