…minamoto-senpai.
the lecture he receives is far more expected than the concern bleeding into akane’s tone. akane aoi isn’t one to worry about him; if teru has accidentally caught the affections of the student body, the boy’s the outlier that stands to the side with a scowl, a signature roll of the eyes, the question of why hangs over his head. it’s almost endearing to know he cares at least a bit in spite of his harsh attitude.
… not that teru much deserves the softness. bandaged hands curl as the sunrise settles across the room, breathing in the silence through shallow intakes. he isn’t quite sure he’s felt this sore in years, perhaps in his entire life. each life saved from dangerous supernaturals holds a part of his heart, but the ones he brings down that have committed no crimes yet are blown to the wind. they don’t matter; supernaturals are presences that offer nothing to those that reside in the near shore, only serving to be nuisances that he has to remove before it’s too late.
yet, here one is at his bedside, full of life and emotions he didn’t see coming.
teru blinks once, twice, a few more before he manages to get his vision to straighten out enough to get a clear image of akane.
( how do you answer both of those questions, spoken in a voice raw with anger, with a no? teru minamoto may be a liar, one that dances around the truth and jumps through hoops to avoid answering some questions directly, but akane’s rare instance of worry makes him… )
“ i’m usually not this weak, aoi. i’m sorry, ” he apologizes, sinking back into the bed and pillow. teru keeps eye contact with akane, a small lilt at the edge of his lips to brush off the ugly honesty he’ll hand over (even if he’s certain the other knows exactly how he’ll answer). “ if i was at my best, even if the supernatural is as powerful as it seems… i would have given my life to defeat it without hesitation. ”
family duty over everything else. its how he was brought up and even as the bile in his stomach reminds him that kou feels the same and the unabashed rage he felt hearing it out of his younger brother’s mouth, teru will speak it freely. he’s strong, the one his siblings look up to, an exorcist with the years of practice at his hand and the unwavering will to purge the near shore of those that lurk out of sight.
“ … i won’t ask you to do the same. ”
it’s courtesy. akane’s a supernatural, but there’s that hard block of how the red rose on his cheeks and how the sun hits him that brings such a distinctly human feeling to his vice president that teru can’t find it in him to go about this like any other day. the bracelet on his wrist remains still, sliding only when teru reaches over to give akane a pat on the head.
“ thank you for getting me out of there, aoi. ”
Weak.
Akane understands the idea infused in Teru’s words, but not its execution. Here he is yelling to a boy a year older than him, surrounded by the morning mist and swathed in layers of bandages. The words flow out and provide a layer of protection, filling in the gashes and wounds opened up prior. They help a boy who is weak: an exorcist who has failed his family’s principles, a president who has failed to protect the student body, a teenager struck and suffered by the hands of a supernatural.
That is its execution. Akane hears the words of spirits, who deem him ever so weak, wraps his head around the notion, and fails halfway through. Teru is weak and yet he isn’t. The boy wrapped in bandages looks vulnerable, assailable, as though electricity never binds him and blisters never grip the hilt of his sword. His words track with honesty, harsh as the blood spilt in a quiet, unyielding voice. And though that strange voice with that unusual sight makes Teru look weak, it manages to make him look as strong as he has seemed before.
( The Minamotos hold outrageous standards for their children. Akane saw it with Teru first, then his younger brother far later. They’re insufferable and self-sacrificial, like their death will be worth all the lives they’ll save and take away. Akane gets it—he does, he tells himself, he really does—but he doesn’t. )
“Are you always like this? I bet you’ve never listened to anything I’ve said in council meetings,” Akane snarks, red still tinging his sight and words. It’s not an approval of Teru’s apology, he knows; it’s a lie of his own, something he could never say if the other was on his feet. “Your own life isn’t equivalent to some bastard supernatural’s! If you keep it up, then I’ll be the one who ends up taking your life.”
It’s out before he can really reflect on it. Maybe one day, he’ll be right. Maybe one day, he won’t be anything near human, but a mere representation of the present, another heartless ghost as supernatural as they come. Maybe he will be, but now…
Now, it isn’t worth thinking on. The sun takes its flight with ease, and its rays rise to meet the beads on Teru’s wrist, then his hand as it…
As…
Hold on.
“…What are you doing?” Akane shrinks for a second, but it’s not enough as Teru succeeds. A blank stare and another shade of red fills his face, as all he can do is look up towards the other’s wrist and take cover from the sun. His energy focuses towards the peculiarity of his actions and he tries—and fails—to decipher it all. It’s all… a lot, somehow, for one action, so much so that he hardly registers the words following it.
“I…” The words are absent from his mind, but he finds them in time. “It’s nothing. I was just doing what I had to.”
( And, well, anyone would know that wasn’t true. )







