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what was your lgbtqiap+ awakening?

mine was that one episode of my babysitter’s a vampire where ethan dressed up as one of the cheerleaders.

for my transgender awakening, my sisters were watching a one direction music video and i YEARNED to look like Harry Styles for some reason. I then realized that I only wanted to look like Harry Styles cuz Harry Styles was a boy.

yeah

my genderqueer awakening was hedwig and the angry inch and im so serious. after watching the movie for the first time i knew that there had to be so much more to me than just being a girl:)

i guess i have to thank musicals for my being gay bru

for my trans awakening Um that was probably likkkeee hunter from the owl house 🤔 but i really dont know i kidn of just slowly faded from cis girl to genderqueer to trans guy to genderqueer trans guy lmao

my first ever lgbtq awakening was before i even knew what being queer was 😭😭 baby ozzy found out girls could marry girls and was like oh HELL yeah 🔥🔥🔥🔥 and identified as a lesbian for up until i was an early tween. as i got older i realized i wasnt cis, so i identified as many nonbinary umbrella identities for years, but was living in denial of being a trans man. eventually it got to a point where the tv was glowing so bright that all the blankets i laid over it over the years were doing nothing. so i took a deep breath and threw them off, changed my name, cut my hair, and accepted myself. i later on found out i was gay/mlm because of a will graham cosplay video. and then found out i was aroace spec for a reason i cant remember, but i had been asexual for years before that, like since i first identified as something other than cis. uhhhh and then after that all the labels i collected werent huge dramatic awakenings...more like seeing a label and going "ohhhh so thats what this feeling is" and then using the label from then on :3

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First I'll give my own personal answers:

I never really had any big revelation or awakening when it came to my gender. I kinda just always felt like I didn't really have much of one, but still had a fairly strong connection to manhood, hence why I consider myself an agender man.

It's pretty much the same with me being demisexual and demiromantic, the idea of being romantic and/or sexual with someone who I don't have a super deep bond with has always just been icky to me.

Figuring out I was finsexual took me a while longer though. Before I had really been exposed to the fact that "hey, anybody can present however they want regardless of their gender!" I kinda just assumed I only liked women, eventually had a bisexual (?) panic when I became attracted to a fem presenting man, thought for a little while I was pansexual because "Oh, well I don't actually care about my partner/s gender or sex, I just like feminine traits", then I eventually came accross the term finsexual and realised that fit.

As for our collective identities, we also didn't have much of a sudden realisation we were queer, more just a realisation that it was actually normal and not weird. Being plural made it rather difficult to come to an agreement on collective labels so we have gone through quite a lot, but here is how we came to our current ones:

For our gender we identify as genderfluid and also transmasc. Genderfluid is fairly self explanatory - having varying headmates with varying genders makes it hard to pinpoint a collective one. The reason we decided to start considering ourselves transmasc is because collectively we would like to make ourselves more androgynous and one of the ways we intend to do that is by (hopefully) starting andronising (I think that's the word?) HRT and maybe getting breast reduction surgery at some point. Plus with how much our extended family loves to misgender us, we've collectively formed an aversion to presenting fem around them, even if it's a fem person in front because god knows they'll use that as an excuse to misgender us going forward. So long story short: We collectively wish to be androgynous, but leaning more masculine.

Sexuality is more straight forward - aroaceflux because various headmates have different orientations between aroace and allo, and pan because while individuals have their own preferences, we collectively we love people for who they are, not their gender.

Also we're collectively very, very polyamorous.

Anyways, uhh, that was a lot. Oops.

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In fact, the more I think about it, the more I realise that it's only ever online that I've seen people doing the whole "YOU CAN'T BE A SYSTEM WITHOUT DID!!!"

Like we have asked multiple specialists that we've seen irl their opinion and they all basically said that was bullshit and sounds like it'a just people online grasping for a reason to cause division, so... *shrugs*

Anyways, the conclusion we've come to is that our plurality is/was caused by a mix of trauma and us being neurodivergent, so I think we may start using traumagenic and neurogenic together or simply just saying we're mixed origins

We also are medically recognised as having a potential disassociative disorder, but the past few specialists we've seen have come to the conclusion that our plurality is most likely unrelated to that

So uhh, sysmeds can yell at us all they want, but this is literally what we've been told by multiple specialists who work with people with DID and we're more inclined to believe them over random people on the internet who don't even know us

We were alternating between alter and headmate for a while, but I think we're gonna stop using alter since it has certain implications that don't really fit with how our system functions