fifi's blog.

Chat Noir in New York:

Ever said: nothing could be worse than this? Oooh, yes, it can, and it will. I'm getting in touch with people I talked to but didn't follow up with. Giving away emergency commissions for $12 dollars. Flat colors. 2 characters are fine. Paypal. I'll do NSFW too. If you want something a lot more elaborate I can do it but please keep it an illustration. You can check my tumblr for what I'm capable of or just ask, please. My final goal is to get a job/finally make a business work and my life back.

I am mentally struggling and honestly want to end it everyday but I know I feel this way because of my situation. I'm tired of fighting. I want to feel better. I want to be myself again. I hate that my empathy and will to help others sank me. I hate that I am the one who lost everything and others are just calmly sleeping with no worries whatsoever. A summary: - Mom got her surgery and she is getting absolutely better. That's great and thanks to many of you who contributed. - On the other hand, my dad had a brain embolism twice. His partner (not my mom), helped him wonderfully... so she could arrange everything to keep all his inheritance. He passed away on February and in trying to help him with all his medical expenses (my sister went no-contact with him since about 2 years ago and her husband hates me so she can't talk to me), I am pretty much homeless right now. Living with a friend on her couch with my cats. - I am fighting his will's resolution, mainly because it was done when he wasn't fully aware of what he was doing. I never expected him to give me anything but the way he was abused to give away his stuff is unbearable to me. He wasn't the greatest father but deserved respect. - So yeah. Homeless. In such a quick and swift way. Only now was I able to get a tablet and my computer back. I sold everything I had to help. - This is the reason I disappeared so suddenly and left everything hanging, I went to his state to be near him. - And to end on a high note, the business I talked about constantly? Tanked and pretty much thanks to Trump being president which is hilarious since I am NOT in the USA but Japan depends on it a lot and the stakeholders got super nervous and stopped negotiations citing economic uncertainty and struggles. It was a huge, life-changing opportunity and it haunts me every damn second how close we were. - I'm in debt with everyone I know. I've lost friendships trying to help my dad and mom. I'm actively looking out for a job too since May but nothing has come up.

i put too much thought into the backing cards for my new charms

He was my companion for almost 12 years, and they were great, noisy, fluffy, and funny. I'm at peace with his departure, I always was, but it still hurts to make this sort of decision. Luckily I still have my friends and my other two cats to keep me company.

Thank you so much for the support and help. We still have to pay about 500 bucks so if you can share this will help a ton.

NEW UPDATE ON BENJAMÍN

Benjamín has to stay a few more days because his pneumonia got worse (damn these cats and their ability to aggravate the situation)

I've been taking care of his pneumonia since June, and it's been so difficult to recover. Now that he had to get hospitalized because Lily stepped on him, caused him to have a lung' failure and he needs direct oxygen to breathe.

My man is more active today, he tried to run away and he meowed at me. He wants to go back home but as long as he needs oxygen he has to stay hospitalized.

I'm still begging for donations as I'm currently recovering from my cold and unable to work (my bestie is forcing me to take a break because he wants me to focus on Benjamín and myself)

Sharings and donations are very welcomed!

Protective Mephisto. ♥

“Ne t'inquiète pas Prax, je vais détruire cet imbécile de monstre pour te sauver !” (Don’t worry Prax, I will destroy this dumb monster to save you !)

“Une minute, mais si j'attaque cette bête, je risque de blesser Praxina…” (Wait a minute, if I attack this beast, I may hurt Praxina…)

I've been feeling pretty down lately, so let me share something that made me happy the other day.

I asked some friends to let me choose a Touken Danshi for their OCs and this is the result! It was really fun to look for a sword that could match or play a nice dynamic with each OC. I ship them all honestly hahahaha.

I really want to draw more of these >:3c

Imma list and tag each of them:

🌸Tomoegata Naginata and Yomi ( @vivis-heckin-art )

🌸Heshikiri Hasebe and Julia ( @tanaisokay )

🌸Shokudaikiri Mitsutada and Hana ( @ncrcisos )

🌸Chatannakiri and Kaede ( @bonjourxrenae )

🌸Mikazuki Munechika and Nur ( @lia404 )

🌸Kyougoku Masamune and Saya (my baby girl)

🌸Kasen and Izuminokami Kanesada and Hana (my other baby girl)

Once I have the energy to draw more of them I'll do it! It made me so happy that my friends allowed me to do this in the first place, even knowing some of them were clueless about Touken Ranbu, but letting me play with their OCs and chat about how their dynamic would play was something I was extremely grateful. So, again, thank you so much for pampering me this way🥹💖

It is the end of the Heisei era today.

Yugi and friends are also born in the Heisei era which is impressive isn’t it! I really want to say thank you 🙏😃

Also nice to meet you~! Reiwa!! 😳

https://www.instagram.com/p/Bw38kDsH5Dw/

(NOTE 1: In the image:

Yami Yugi: Nice to meet you! Reiwa!

Kaiba: I give my thanks to you ⭐ Heisei!