This World Is Too Much With Us

Everyone is happier without me

Everything is falling apart and it’s all my fault

I’m very much not excited for my birthday this year. I very much wish I didn’t exist this year.

Laying in bed on the verge of tears bc my boyfriend doesn't want to have sex with me anymore and he says he does it just hasn't "felt right" and I know that feeling I had that feeling and it wasn't that it didn't feel right it was that I didn't want to have sex with him anymore but it took me 2 years to figure that out and now here I am in the same spot but opposite and I don't want him to feel stuck bc one day he's going to feel stuck and like he made the wrong choice bc I'm the wrong choice I'm wrong at everything I'm just so fucking wrong

Always crying

I wanna masturbate to relieve stress but thinking about it is making me anxious idk what's going on with me I just wanna be ok

I thought being back would make things go back to normal but maybe this is normal sadness is normal alone is normal and i am not meant to be happy and healthy and around ppl who love me

Do y'all ever feel………..