Noël Avalon

Hey! I wanted a space to rant a bit about the imagery of the song and why it was chosen. 

So the lyrics were originally written not to be final, the only lyrics we kept were "I forgave you before you were sorry" and "I don't care how it hurts". The original lyrics were okay, but not great, the point of them was honestly a vent song, just to get the feelings onto paper so they don't drive me crazy by sitting in my head. (Always have to get them out before they evolve into something else).

But anyway...

I found this painting at goodwill (the one featured on the album art) and it inspired a deep dive into swans, swan dives, devotion, unwavering loyalty for better and especially for worse, etc. I discovered 'morute' and 'gloomy coquette' (I'm chronically on pinterest i know) and loved that imagery for the song. We were going to make a music video (and still are going to but we had to delay it) and agreed upon this theme. 

We loved this theme because it combines friendly, romantic, cute, etc, overtones with a dark undertone. 

For example "Swan Dive" was chosen because swans are symbols of love and generally light imagery, but a Swan Dive is something dark coming out of it. Same thing goes for "Black Cherry lungs" because "Cherry" is a cutesy word, but it is actually meant to represent a vape flavor and smoke which is considered 'darker' imagery in a way. 

The song is basically an internal monologue of attempting to romanticize a toxic situation in order to stay due to fear of losing the person, with moments of extreme clarity, such as the chorus, and then the ultimate realization that even if you know things are awful, you're still going to stay ("I don't care how it hurts" ending the song was meant to drive that point home).

Anyway! This lowkey backtracks the whole point made with our first song released 'Who Are You/' which the point of that is leaving a bad situation, and we still stand by that message, you are so worthy of amazing things and deserve to be treated as so :). This song can almost be seen as the thought process before 'Who Are You?'.