𝑁𝑎𝑡𝑡𝑦

𝙷𝚊𝚙𝚙𝚒𝚗𝚎𝚜𝚜 𝚒𝚜𝚗'𝚝 𝚏𝚘𝚛 𝚝𝚑𝚘𝚜𝚎 𝚠𝚑𝚘 𝚏𝚎𝚎𝚕 𝚕𝚒𝚔𝚎 𝚝𝚑𝚎𝚢 𝚍𝚎𝚜𝚎𝚛𝚟𝚎 𝚒𝚝.

𝙷𝚊𝚙𝚙𝚒𝚗𝚎𝚜𝚜 𝚒𝚜 𝚏𝚘𝚛 𝚝𝚑𝚘𝚜𝚎 𝚠𝚑𝚘 𝚕𝚘𝚗𝚐 𝚏𝚘𝚛 𝚒𝚝. 𝚃𝚑𝚘𝚜𝚎 𝚠𝚑𝚘 𝚕𝚘𝚗𝚐 𝚏𝚘𝚛 𝚝𝚑𝚊𝚝 𝚜𝚞𝚗𝚔𝚎𝚗 𝚏𝚎𝚎𝚕𝚒𝚗𝚐 𝚝𝚘 𝚐𝚘 𝚊𝚠𝚊𝚢.

𝚃𝚑𝚘𝚜𝚎 𝚠𝚑𝚘 𝚕𝚘𝚗𝚐 𝚝𝚘 𝚜𝚎𝚎, 𝚢𝚎𝚝, 𝚊𝚗𝚘𝚝𝚑𝚎𝚛 𝚕𝚒𝚐𝚑𝚝 𝚘𝚏 𝚍𝚊𝚢. 𝙰𝚗𝚍 𝚙𝚛𝚊𝚢 𝚝𝚑𝚊𝚝 𝚒𝚝 𝚜𝚝𝚊𝚢𝚜 𝚝𝚑𝚊𝚝 𝚠𝚊𝚢.

𝙽𝚘, 𝚑𝚊𝚙𝚙𝚒𝚗𝚎𝚜𝚜 𝚒𝚜𝚗'𝚝 𝚏𝚘𝚛 𝚝𝚑𝚎 𝚜𝚎𝚕𝚏𝚒𝚜𝚑 𝚊𝚗𝚍 𝚝𝚑𝚎 𝚌𝚛𝚞𝚎𝚕.

𝙷𝚊𝚙𝚙𝚒𝚗𝚎𝚜𝚜 𝚒𝚜 𝚏𝚘𝚛 𝚝𝚑𝚘𝚜𝚎 𝚠𝚑𝚘 𝚠𝚊𝚗𝚝 𝚝𝚘 𝚜𝚎𝚎 𝚜𝚘𝚖𝚎𝚘𝚗𝚎 𝚛𝚞𝚕𝚎.

𝚈𝚎𝚜, 𝚛𝚞𝚕𝚎 𝚝𝚑𝚎𝚒𝚛 𝚠𝚘𝚛𝚕𝚍 𝚒𝚗 𝚝𝚑𝚎𝚒𝚛 𝚑𝚎𝚊𝚛𝚝.

𝙱𝚎𝚌𝚊𝚞𝚜𝚎 𝚝𝚑𝚊𝚝'𝚜 𝚠𝚑𝚊𝚝 𝚠𝚎 𝚊𝚛𝚎, 𝚛𝚒𝚐𝚑𝚝?

𝚃𝚑𝚎 𝚛𝚞𝚕𝚎𝚛 𝚘𝚏 𝚘𝚞𝚛 𝚑𝚎𝚊𝚛𝚝?

𝙸𝚜𝚗'𝚝 𝚝𝚑𝚊𝚝 𝚠𝚑𝚎𝚛𝚎 𝚒𝚝 𝚜𝚝𝚊𝚛𝚝𝚜? 𝚃𝚑𝚎 𝚑𝚎𝚊𝚛𝚝?

𝚈𝚘𝚞𝚛 𝚑𝚎𝚊𝚛𝚝:

𝙾𝚑. 𝙽𝚘. 𝙽𝚘. 𝙽𝚘

𝚆𝚑𝚎𝚛𝚎 𝚍𝚒𝚍 𝚒𝚝 𝚐𝚘? 𝚃𝚑𝚒𝚜 𝚒𝚜𝚗'𝚝 𝚠𝚑𝚊𝚝 𝙸 𝚌𝚑𝚘𝚜𝚎, 𝚢𝚎𝚝, . .

𝙸 𝚏𝚎𝚎𝚕 𝚕𝚒𝚔𝚎 𝙸'𝚖 𝚋𝚎𝚒𝚗𝚐 𝚍𝚒𝚜𝚙𝚘𝚜𝚎𝚍 𝚘𝚏-...

𝚆𝚑𝚢 𝚍𝚘 𝙸 𝚌𝚛𝚢? 𝙼𝚢 𝚕𝚞𝚗𝚐𝚜 𝚊𝚛𝚎 𝚊𝚒𝚛 𝚝𝚒𝚐𝚑𝚝, 𝚊𝚗𝚍 𝙸 𝚌𝚊𝚗'𝚝 𝚜𝚎𝚎 𝚝𝚑𝚊𝚝 𝚕𝚒𝚐𝚑𝚝.

𝚆𝚑𝚢? . .

𝙸𝚝'𝚜 𝚝𝚘𝚘 𝚖𝚞𝚌𝚑 𝚏𝚘𝚛 𝚖𝚎 𝚝𝚘 𝚑𝚊𝚗𝚍𝚕𝚎.

𝙸'𝚟𝚎 𝚋𝚕𝚘𝚠𝚗 𝚘𝚞𝚝 𝚝𝚑𝚎 𝚌𝚊𝚗𝚍𝚕𝚎.

𝙽𝚘𝚠 𝚒𝚝'𝚜 𝚝𝚒𝚖𝚎 𝚏𝚘𝚛 𝚖𝚎 𝚝𝚘 𝚍𝚒𝚜𝚖𝚊𝚗𝚝𝚕𝚎. . .

𝙱𝚎𝚌𝚊𝚞𝚜𝚎 𝙸 𝚏𝚎𝚎𝚕 𝚊𝚜 𝚒𝚏 𝙸'𝚖 𝚏𝚊𝚕𝚕𝚒𝚗𝚐 𝚊𝚙𝚊𝚛𝚝.

𝙾𝚑 𝚐𝚘𝚍, 𝚠𝚑𝚊𝚝 𝚊𝚖 𝙸 𝚍𝚘𝚒𝚗𝚐 𝚠𝚛𝚘𝚗𝚐?

TO KNOW THAT HE'S DOING

SO SO MUCH BETTER THAN I AM

BUT AT THE SAME TIME-

IM SO DAMN GLAD...

BECAUSE- HES PERFECT

IN EVERY FREAKING WAY.

Dude. I'm still in love? possibly. maybe yes. but god

it makes me cry and so sick to my stomach to know that he doesn't need me anymore to fulfill his dreams and I'm just- like- stuck. and alone. EVEN THO ITS MY FREAKING FAULT HAHA...

that's what i get for thinking my mental state was gonna CHASE HIM AWAY instead of just being a better person.

anyways currently- fighting the temptation to smoke- and overdose on medication, and freaking starve myself like a hopeless IDIOT.

bro this hole is getting too big and i cant handle it 🤩🤩🤩

And there wouldn't be a reason why We would even have to say goodbye

If the world was ending, You'd come over right?