nath

i like to think about it but also the antithesis of it: the poem HAS to be build by the one who feels, the blood is just blood until someone turn it into poetry

And sometimes, an unstable childhood makes calm moments that should feel safe feel like a waiting game for the other shoe to drop. I hope some day I can find peace within the calm.

i think that percy and annabeth's relationship is so healing for both of them. like, our girl has severe abandonment issues but managed to pull the guy whose fatal flaw is unwavering loyalty. and our boy has severe self-esteem issues but managed to pull the girl who consistently chooses him. i love these two so much.

Accepting life is the only way to really love it and know it. I’m talking to those who are stuck on inconsistencies of detail and have secret obsession with calamity, avoiding it and thus creating it through tension. Just because you feel bad doesn’t mean that you or life are bad. You have to really know that. I accept things for at least three minutes a day now and I’m feeling a lot better.

when noah kahan said "i hope this pain's just passing through" and "someday i'm gonna be somebody people want" and when he said "i'm still angry at my parents for what their parents did to them" and "i'm in the business of losing your interest and i turn a profit each time that we speak" and "i'm terrified that i might never have met me" and "i saw the end it looked just like the middle" and when he said "now the pain's different it still exists it just escapes different"

being involved in any conversation w my family makes me feel lightheaded and my ears start ringing and i can taste blood in my mouth does this happen to anyone else