natashamarrie

For the past week, I’ve been replaying a moment in my head over and over before I go to sleep. A regretful moment.. maybe, but I’m my feelings choose not to make it regretful. Such a dangerous situation, but my conscience is telling me to live dangerously for once. Playing by the rules and codes is consistent and all but that’s not what makes a story so exciting. What’s exciting is, making eye contact with you from a distance and looking away. Or the temptations of grabbing you for the night, and spilling our darkest confessions. lDo I continue with this moment with you, or let it be a memory that stays on repeat? You’re an interesting person.. but maybe it’s just best to play by the rules just one more time. 

As of this point right now, I’ve learn to overcome the organization of my life. Picking priorities is one of the toughest challenges I go through constantly. Whether my obligations are for school, work, health, family, and seeing my friends. So no, boys don’t stress me out, relationships don't stress me out. What rattles my head the most is deciding what I’m going to eat next, or keeping a tab on my dad to make sure he’s staying active and healthy. Or even double checking if I’m getting just enough hours for the week between both of my jobs, or even reminding myself that I have an exam a week from today. Oh, I must not forget to check in on my friends to see if they need a shopping buddy or even just having an extra presence around. Did I mention netflix yet? oh yeah, I would kill for life to be on pause for four hours so I can catch up on my shows. Balancing life isn’t that easy, but at the end of the day when I unwind and relax, I feel good about myself that I accomplished something out of that list. Close my eyes, wake up and then I start my routine all over. 

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Happy New Years!

what's the point of having a mother if all she does is talk shit about you all the time behind your back.

I want it to be Fall already

Having feelings can make anyone soo fragile. Is it safe to like you at this very moment? Should I even second guess the past relationship you've had? Should that even alter my infatuation over you? Eh I really don't know. I'm all about always moving forward and somehow you happened to stumble upon my road. You're interesting and I'm just scared you might use me as a rebound. Someone toying with my emotions is the last thing I should be worrying about right now.

you don't know if the feeling is mutual with someone you like. 

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I can't find your silver lining

everything about this day is starting to piss me off