Ellesse’

Reblog this If: You’re ashamed of your weight Youve been called fat before You have thought of killing yourself You have self harmed You are trying to lose 10+ pounds

I’m very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very tired.

haha lol

Small satisfactions that my weight loss has given me in the past week: 🖤Even my face has changed. It is still round, it will always be, but it’s not chubby anymore. My dimples are more visible. I have an actual jawline and I can slightly see my cheekbones and a bit of contour. I’m also even paler than before, if possible, wich fits my aesthetic. 🖤I can feel my ribs and my hipbones. When I run an hand on my bones, I feel like I actually love my body. 🖤When I go shopping, employers look at me and say “you’re so tiny” with that little, satisfying envy. 🖤All the adults I know are all like “okay, you look much better now… but please stop. Don’t lose any more weight.” 🖤There’s this boy I like, well, he’s really really thin. And all of our friends make jokes about the fact that we’re the same size and that so maybe we should be together. 🖤My best friends always asks me if I ate, and it makes me feel important. 🖤My grandma has learnt to cook small portions for “Emma’s tiny stomach.” 🖤Last night I was out with one of my friends and she made A LOT of comments about how perfect my legs were. I remember that, two years ago, she was the small one, but now, when there was no place in the car, I was the one to sit on her lap. 🖤When I saw a girl from my class the other day, she asked me a billion questions about my weight loss, and she gave me that one particular concerned look as I just took a bite of cereal bread for lunch, while she was eathing a huge slice of chocolate cake. 🖤At a fete, a random boy patted my shoulder and told me I was cute and tried to hand me a card with his phone number. And he wasn’t making fun of me. When I said “no, thanks” with a little smile, he looked disappointed. 🖤I haven’t cried in the dressing rooms a single time. The only times I had to leave clothes I like, it was because they didn’t have sizes small enough. Because they didn’t carry an XS or because it was still a little loose. When there are one sizes, I still say “well this isn’t gonna fit”, but for the opposite reason. 🖤I was able to buy a bralette and other cute bras instead of having to get those contenitive cups for old women, the only ones who had C/D cups. 🖤Two days ago, I had an exam. When I found out I had passed it, I was with a friend of mine who always used to be the smaller one. I was really happy and I hugged her, and she lifted me effortlessly. I was pretty surprised by it. 🖤With certain types of tops, I can avoid wearing a bra, and my boobs don’t bounce uncomfortably, neither they look loose. The last time I wore a sundress without a bra, my friend didn’t even believe I wasn’t wearing one. 🖤I still don’t have a very defined thig gap (in the higher point of the thigh it is barely noticeable, just some millimeters) but I don’t have a chub rub either. Sometimes when I walk I have to stop because I think to myself “how the fuck am I walking? My thighs aren’t touching wtf, stop being clumsly and awkward” and then I remember. My thighs aren’t touching, because that’s what they do now. 🖤Even my teachers have commented my weight loss at the exam, and one of them joked that “studying had consumed me”

using this for motivitation 

reblogged it on the wrong acc fUCK

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I’ve noticed a huuuuuge difference in my thigh gap progress bc of this move🍓🍓🍓

do things from love, not for love

We need to find her so I could give her my stimulus check.

I could really watch this all day

quarantine sexual frustration hits different