TechnicallyAnAdult🤷🏼‍♀️

Cause I spaced and forgot I’d already set him up with the first friend.

Only one of the two knows what I’ve done, and she doesn’t care.

But the other one has no idea he’s texting more than one girl.

And he’s so oblivious, I’m not sure he realizes that both girls want to date him.

They both text me about him.

But you know that you don’t want a certain piece of that food item (I.e. the bun).

But you also don’t want to eat the item sans the piece of it you don’t want, because that would make it not the thing you want anymore. (Because without a bun, it’s not the same thing anymore)

So you just don’t eat anything, because you can’t make your brain happy.

Mentally prepping for the call made me forget to eat.

Then the adderall kicked in and made me not want to eat.

Then the phone call made me anxious and emotional, so I went back to bed for a nap.

I didn’t know anyone here before I moved.

I have so many things my brain needs to process that my head is just constantly full of noise and I can’t focus on anything.

I can’t even sleep normally.

It’s been over two weeks since I slept through the night and woke up feeling even remotely rested.

Yeah.

I’m having an existential crisis.

Something that can affect my livelihood is happening and I have no control over it.

I need to talk to someone about it so it doesn’t drive me crazy.

But all my close friends are at work or on a trip right now.

And the one person I want to call, I’m afraid to call.

Why can’t I just pick up the phone and dial their number?

It shouldn’t be so hard.

Finally decided to take my adderall today and within an hour called the vet without a second thought.

Yeah.

I mean you.

This is your daily reminder that just because someone doesn’t text you back doesn’t mean they hate you.

They probably just spaced out or got busy and forgot to reply.

Don’t believe the lies your RSD tells you.

Like, why do I have to feel my emotions so deeply.

Other people have crushes and they can be chill about it, but I have a crush and they become my new hyper fixation.

Like, I’m supposed to be an adult. Shouldn’t crushes stop being such an issue when you are an adult?

I can’t get my crush out of my head and I’m constantly checking my phone to see if he’s texted me back.

I’ve tried everything I can think of to get him out of my head, but he’s still there.

Like, I’m craving a super long hug with a specific person. But I don’t know if it’s socially acceptable to literally walk up to him and say, “hey, I’d like a hug, but I need it to last a solid minute”.

Hello

I need help.

How much eye contact is socially acceptable?

I rarely make eye contact because I’m afraid I’ll hold it too long and it’ll be weird. But looking around or at the ground when you talk to someone isn’t any less awkward.