you think you're smart enough to know the signs of abuse and or have only a single idea for what it is when the reality is that it's extremely complex! emotional abuse is real and just as damaging and traumatic as physical.

abusers will see your weakness and kind-heartedness and exploit that shit until you're broken and vulnerable so they can hurt you more, make you scared to cut contact, etc etc. and when you do stand up for yourself and escape, they will sometimes try to flip everything on you, as a way to make you come back to them(darvo)

(NOTE: this is my personal experience. I am not currently diagnosed.)

HATING being told I was "as good as everyone else." i SEETHED hearing that. I didn't want to be "as good as-" I wanted to be BETTER.

hating HATING everyone who did better than me- they must've cheated. It's not fair.

if someone criticises me, they didn't get the full picture. they'd LOVE me if they did.

constantly feeling like an outsider but ONLY liking people I could see as the same as me. everyone else is a piece of shit.

constantly trying to present myself publicly with a "confident" posture and use "fancy" words to seem more intelligent

exaggerating my self hatred for sympathy and compliments, getting pissed when people don't compliment me for that

// fanbrush, ANGST, vent art, prob very ooc (sorry! i'm projecting! smiles)

Be the kind of system that feels right to your system. Regardless of what random shit heads on the internet think, it is your system. Your way of moving through the world.

If that means intergration, you do that.

If that means feeling the extremely valid rough feelings that come with being a system, you do that.

If that means making the best out of your situation, you do that.

I am so tired of seeing people say “bEiNg a SyStEm iSn’T sOmEtHiNg yOu ShOuLd EnJoY”

No shit Sherlock, we know the disorder is extremely draining. We know it’s not “only having friends in your head” that doesn’t give you the right to tell other systems they can’t try to make the best out of their situation. Some days are gonna be hard. Sometimes the only people you got are the one “in your head”

So to the systems that are best friends with their head mates, I love that for you.

To the systems that feel like the only family they have is their head mates, I love that for you.

To the systems that bicker with their head mates like siblings, I love that for you

To the systems that fall in love with their head mates, I love that for you.

Having DID does NOT mean living in a constant state of sorrow because people view it as “romanticizing” the disorder. We are well aware of the horrors that come with this way of navigating the world. Just because we don’t want to spend our lives “eternally doomed” doesn’t make us bad people.

Idk about y’all but being sad about having DID or being a system is only helpful for so long. We don’t want to spend our entire lives mourning. We don’t want to spend every waking moment wishing things were different. For us, that would mean our abusers would win. That would mean everything they said we wouldn’t be able to do will remain what ifs. Idk of being happy out of spite is a motivator for everyone so I will just say this.

Be happy for you. Y’all deserve it. Yes you’ll have ups and downs. But y’all are worthy and deserving of peace just like any other physical body. Having DID isn’t a death sentence. It is just another way of navigating the world. Just like with any other neurodivergence.

Stop sentencing people to a life of torment just because you feel that they are “too happy” to have DID. Ever heard of masking? Yeah maybe you should take that into consideration as well.