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mentions of ed & sh

You were always open to your husband about your mental health problems. You told him about your teenage years and the scars you carried because of it the way your mindset had changed ever since but Nanami never judged you for your scars nor your relationship with food. You told him this in college way back when you were both "friends". He kissed the scars that followed up your arms and even the ones on your right thigh that nobody but you knew about somehow he knew. He did it not in a sexual way but in way of love. A type of love you never thought you would deserve or even get in this lifetime.

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It started small you’d realize after a while your late 20’s made your body change your thighs were softer and rubbed together when u walked the plush softness of your tummy that you were reminded of it anytime you sat down. You would nitpick at yourself in the mirror the way your scars faded some light some a few shades shade darker than you skin even the stretch marks on your lower ass that you’d sworn wasn’t there a few months ago. All this made you feel as if you were trapped in a foreign skin; it felt disgusting to be yourself and no matter how much Kento said he loved and adored you somehow you convinced yourself he was lying and only stuck with you this long because he didn’t want the trouble that comes with divorce.

“Why wouldn’t he be fed up with you?” you told yourself. It was no shock that Nanami Kento was a good looking man. Even though he didn’t fight curses any longer his strong figure stayed in shape. His arms that would hold you and spread your thighs while your hands grasp at his golden locks all while his hazel eyes looked up at you every now and again to catch your expressions talking you through it all with the deep husk of his voice you loved. Even outside the bedroom he treated you with so much care, no matter the hour he came home he would come to you cupping your face tenderly in his large arms kissing you softly and asking about your work day, he’d spoil you both with affection physically and emotionally. What woman wouldn’t want him?

The thing is almost every women did. You’d hear whispers when going out with him sometimes people said it loud enough as if they wanted you to hear them

“He’s so out of her league”

“It’s like charity work”

“What bet did he lose?”

Whenever he heard people he’d shut them down right away defending you his beautiful wife he never left room for people to insult you and always made it a priority to let people know not to disrespect you.

At dinners when kento took you out you’d scan the menu it would feel as if the calories were floating around your meal. He didn’t know the track you kept on your phone and how you’d have to take more steps in the morning to cancel out everything. You couldn’t stomach to eat the food it felt like guilt and shame one bite made you feel oily and disgusting.

| Notes

4 pizza slices- 1k calories (do extra steps since you couldn’t control yourself)

diet coke - 0 calories

bag of chips- 160 calories

“Babe are you alright? You haven’t touched anything” Nanami questioned you with a worried expression. Normally you’d try his food and even beg him to switch with you, which he did. Sometimes you’d both order dessert after to treat your sweet tooth, he’d love the smile on your face you had when tasting new treats and offering him a bite from your spoon even though he had his own

“m’fine ken im just not feeling well is all” you replied with a smile

You couldn’t fully get into until you saw the numbers dropping it felt like an addiction watching the numbers drop you were almost at your goal but yet the plush of your thighs never went away it sickened you. With the weight loss naturally people complimented you on your figure saying how lucky it must be to be so fit, what they didn’t know was the feeling of constantly being angry due to hunger or how you’d feel dizzy at random times on work making the words on your computer blur rather so they didn’t know how you hovered over the toilet with the sink running making sure every last drop was out.

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It had been a long day of work rather so all Nanami wanted to do was come home to his wife loving her (you) and pleasing you in all the ways you loved. But when his afforts to pleasure you came you’d push him away.

“You look so beautiful tonight my love let me just show you how much i love you hm?” he murmured into your skin peppering you with kisses but you slightly pushed him off

“Not tonight ken…i have a headache” truth is you’d love to be under him more than anything but the thought of being fully undressed under him while he saw every part of you made you shiver. He saw you before yes, but with your insecurities rising again the idea seemed foreign.

Kento the ever so gentleman would never be angry if you didn’t do anything with him but he started noticing changes in your behavior. He felt how you’d gotten smaller, when you would slightly flinch when he touched you, how you’d cover the bathroom mirror when you showered or brushed your teeth. When he asked you about it you’d blame it on the steam when in reality it was that you couldn’t stand looking at yourself anymore.

He often thought about these and overtime it grew more alarming his suspicions were made clear when he got a call from one of your few friends Shoko who was a doctor at the local hospital.

“It’s y/n she fainted at work I need you to come in” her voices echoed through the phone. He immediately dropped everything not even explaining to his boss why he had to go something happened to you and that was more important than any job.

When he arrived, you were already sleeping when he saw you his heart broke you were so thin, yet he didn’t notice enough. He blamed it on work rather so trusting the promise you both made that anytime it got bad again you’d tell him. At your bedside he held your arms the same arm with the scars he kissed all those years ago mumbling how sorry he was for letting you feel like you weren't beautiful, god he wished he told you more he wished he questioned you more when you stopped carrying lunches to work and insisted you were going with coworkers for lunch every detail he should have noticed came crashing down on him he almost lost you and almost losing you is what made him notice all the signs.

“her blood pressure is low and it seems like she’s lost a lot of weight… a unhealthy amount that it’s almost fatal” Shoko told him. Nanami felt his heart tighten glancing at you on the hospital bed seeing you asleep looking so peaceful yet you were here struggling with thoughts of insecurity, he wished he could take all the pain you felt and take it on himself. In his eyes nothing could make you anything less than beautiful from now on he promised himself to keep an extra eye on you.

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After a few weeks you were discharged the hospital assigned therapy sessions and one of them your husband was invited to come along. He listened to how you never truly felt comfortable in your own skin how you knew he’d love you no matter what but yet thoughts lingered, it pained him to hear but yet he helped you through out all of it. On days during recovery when simple meals felt like a binge and guilt washed over you he’d be there, times when your reflection felt like something foreign he was there slowly but surely he helped you to feel some sort of normalcy onto the road to recovery.

husband!nanami x black!fem!reader

You’d spend the last hour washing and detangling your hair in the shower. Though Nanami knew how much care you took of your curls he was always interested in how u got them defined so he wanted to watch (or maybe help you a little)

With you hair parted in for sections taking out the lower part you section it into a even smaller part getting ready to finger curl it when your loving husband interrupts you

“is this how you get all pretty for me?” he cooed kissing your cheek softly “show me how you do it love”

“who says it’s for you hmm?” you said teasing him lightly

you grabbed the moisturizer bottle and squeezed the product in your rubbing it first before applying it into your hair then parting the section for a third time and twirling the hair with your finger to get a more defined curl.

“andddd that’s it! I only have to repeat it for 4 more hours” you sighed defeatly

After seeing you do it he insisted on trying to do your hair he loved the way your curls shaped your face and how the dark spirals matched your warm skin tone whenever he saw you doing your hair he wondered if his daughter would have the same beautiful coils.

“are you sure ken? you don’t have to y’know” you weren’t sure he could do it most of the time you let other people do your hair they’d give up. But they weren’t him

“Of course how else would I know how to do our daughter’s hair when the time comes?” he reassured with a tenderness in his tone

Sitting behind you he grabbed a strand and repeat the process he just watched you do. Squeezing the moisturizer in his hands and rubbing it into your hair gently,then he took the detangling brush combing out any extra knots that you might have missed and finally curling the strand using his finger

“you did so good kenn!!” you kissed his cheeks for his first time the curl almost looked better than the one you did yourself but you’d never tell him that

“I hope I can practice more you look so beautiful with your natural curls.” he said returning a kiss to your cheeks "Its one of the things i adore most about you"

And for the rest of the night both you and nanami finger coiled your hair making the process take two hours instead of four. You couldn’t be happier having a husband like him.

slight nsfw mdni

husband!nanami - who loves when you experiment with new hairstyles. May it be your natural coils that he always insists on you teaching him how to style for when you both decide to have children so he can learn how to do his little girls hair 𑣲.

husband!nanami - who whenever you both go out whether it be the supermarket or a fancy dinner insist he takes a photo of you. You’d always blush covering for face saying “kennn stop you do this every time!” he’d always respond telling you “I just want to remember how lucky I am love” even as your husband he still made you feel nervous and all blushy around him.

husband!nanami- who after a long day of work couldn’t resist the thought of you bouncing on his cock the way your gummy walls clench onto him all while whimpering in his ear “ahh- kenn t’s too much!” while you felt the warmth of his cock against your core and only after a few minutes you’d become undone right in his arms hearing him praise you for doing so well for him. :<

a/n this is lwk embarrassing bye this is my second time writing smut since like 2020

boyfriend!crowe - who shows love in words of affirmation and quality time unlike most men in college sex is one of the things he doesn’t really care about rather so he’d prefer to spend time with you talking about where you’d both be 10 years from now or when you ask him if he’d “still love you as a grandma even with wrinkled skin”, crowe being crowe would love you regardless.

boyfriend!crowe - - who remembers little details about you for example a bakery you like; whenever he passes he always remembers to get your favorite pastries just to see your face light up whenever he hands it to you. If he sees a keychain of a character that you wouldn’t stop talking about for weeks (but he still listened) he’d buy it for you only to see the excitement and the biggggg hug you’ll give him while saying “you’re the best boyfriend ever how’d i get so lucky hmmm?”

boyfriend!crowe -- who whenever you’re worried about stress academically always offers to come over to help you and put your mind at ease. He hates seeing his girl upset the sight of your puffy red eyes over the mountains of papers pull a strain on his heart. He always offers to help you take a break and takes you to the bakery you love or maybe a walk to both your and his favorite spot to get some fresh air to relax your nerves before you continue studying.

boyfriend!crowe - who when introducing you to his friends always made sure you were comfortable knowing that you were shy. He always put your comfort at his priority