Nami Natsuko

And I was met with ABSOLUTE SILENCE from the birds.

Then I ran down to check on them because I was like “they’re not screaming, wtf are they okay???” and I started to get worried.  But they were totally fine and awake.  Just confused.  Apparently birds don’t know what to do if you scream in the morning before they do.

But then I realized the horrible truth.

I had become one of them.

I am one of them now.

So im gonna start from the bginning here. eridan hates the landwellers because theyre dumping trash in the ocean where all the other sewdwellers like him live and if the landwellers keep dumping garbage in the ocean seadwellers are going to have to leave the ocean. He is ill admit a casteist asshole but literally all the highbloods are but only eridan gets shit for it, which isnt fair like seriously??? but for fucks sake the garbage is ruining what was more than likely at one point his fucking home and its probably getting so bad he had no option but to move into the shipwreck he lived in before sgrub, so i dont blame him for holding a grudge against the landwellers really.

And then the thing with quadrants that brought fandom eridan to be the horror he is. Eridan was so desperate for a quadrantmate because on alternia you would literally be culled if you and a quadrantmate couldnt supply genetic material for the drones to take to the mother grub, and he didnt want to die. And the point will probably get brought up of ‘but even after the game started he still tried to get a quadrantmate!!1!’ well no shit what do they expect??? flirting became such a normal for him on alternia that he would of obviously needed time to get out of the habit. And when someone would show they were uncomfortable with his flirting he stepped off after the initial conversation. He gave up on quadrants because he didnt have to worry about dying if he didnt have a matesprit or kismesis annymore. he wasnt a fuckboy that just wanted anyone and everyone to sleep with him if thats who youre looking for go to cronus because cronus was made based off of fandom eridan.

During the game. i can go on for a long time about what happened during the game. eridan felt somewhat abandoned during the game. His moirail ditched him because she didnt need him to feed her lusus anymore and his kismesis had blocked him on trollian because he was ‘too clingy and annoying’ which is bullshit, because later, said kismesis forced tavros to be prettymuch the same way eridan had been. vriska wanted tavros to bend to her every whim and when eridan had been a decent kismesis she left him. i get the difference in her pursuits of the two but eridan was a good kismesis! and then he asked anyone to come hang out with him on LOWAA and they all told him no. He asked politely he was like “hey does anyone wanna come hang out on LOWAA with me?” and they all shot him down, leaving him alone so hes bound to have issues cause of his friends abandoning him. And also now is a reminder that Eridan is pretty heavily coded as mentally ill, so imagine what that would have done to the poor guy.

As for the magic situation here? Eridan believed in magic at one point. Like genuinely and wholeheartedly believed in magic and wizards. And then his friends ridiculed him for it and told him how magic was bullshit, but then he decides to give up on magic and call it science instead, and he just gets made fun of again. Only Gamzee didnt ridicule him, because Gamzee himself was made fun of by everyone for believing in miracles. Honestly I think Eridan and Gamzee could have been friends but Eridan, due to being bullied so much for believing in magic, did the same to Gamzee for believing in miracles. So my point is that Eridan gave up on something dearly important to him because he was laughed at for it. Literally all Eridan really wanted was to be accepted by his ‘friends.’

oh and let’s not forget that Eridan received death threats from future Karkat for something he didnt even know he would do. So you can probably imagine what it would be like having your best friend messaging you from the future, which you didnt know, threatening your death for something you didnt know you did. The death threats were really uncalled for. And I cant even begin to imagine what was going through Eridan’s head before he died. He felt so much regret over all of it, and he doesnt get another chance. He doesnt get to try and prove himself. He “doesnt deserve” to be brought back, according to the other trolls and half the fandom. Speaking of death, Eridan didnt kill Feferi out of jealousy like everyone thinks he did. Sollux challenged him to a duel. Sollux lost fair and square. Feferi gets pissed that Sollux lost the duel and comes at Eridan with a trident. So what does Eridan do? He defends himself. Feferi was going to kill him, so he killed her before she could get the chance. Then Kanaya comes after him with a CHAINSAW so he does the same thing, ‘killing’ Kanaya. Notice how Karkat was there too and he didnt do anything to Karkat? It was because Karkat didnt attack him. He was defending himself, because they were trying to kill him. And later when Kanaya is back and comes after him again as well as Vriska and Gamzee, he could have very well defended himself before Kanaya had the chance to take the science wand and break it, but he didnt. And I think it was because he felt bad about what he had done. After he had absconded he had probably been realizing what exactly he had just done to two of his friends, and feeling guilty as shit about it, so he didnt take the chance to defend himself when Kanaya burst in. He probably realized what future Karkat had been threatening him about, and thought he deserved whatever he was going to get.

After his death, when he’s Erisolsprite, he expresses that he’s sorry for what he did, and he feels shitty because of it. And people wonder why Erisolsprite doesnt Erisolsplode, but its because Eridan and Sollux both hate eachother so much they wont put themselves out of their own misery, because they want the other to keep suffering. And I feel like Eridan and Sollux too probably dont want to explode their sprite, because they both feel bad about things theyve done, and feel like they deserve to suffer. Eridan expressed that he felt bad and that he wished he could make it up, and that he hated himself because of it. On the other hand, Vriska only said she felt bad for killing Tavors, not for abusing him his whole life, not for breaking his spine and rendering his legs useless, not for building his house up who knows how high and using stairs instead of ramps thus forcing Tavros to drag himself up countless flights of stairs WHILE having to fight imps as well, she only felt bad for killing him. And even then, after she brought him back as a sprite, she abused him even more as well as Jake. When Eridan was a sprite and trying to apologize to Feferi, he didnt tell her he hated her for trying to kill him or anything, he told her he was sorry. He told her he was sorry for everything.

He had a reason for everything he did. And while it doesnt excuse it, it had reason. And he at least said he was sorry and that he felt bad for what he did, UNLIKE VRISKA. Yet he gets shit from the fandom, and tons of people absolutely love Vriska. It’s not fair that Eridan didnt/probably wont get a redemption arc, and that the fandom hates him.

Weekly sketch post

大海原X鲛吉

i have been waiting to draw ocean dad i love him.. so much

Silly angel and demon au thing, prompt from @sugarcoated-wishes

what is heaven had like office jobs? dumb idea, but i played with it psht

Didn’t Get the Memo

Working in the Heaven district office was almost like an office job. Clock in at nine, do some paperwork on sin and vow recordings, call a few clients, break for lunch and go home. It helped pass the time, and Seven was alright with that. Besides- if he didn’t have guardian angel status, he’d just be sitting around, waiting for the years to pass.

At least he felt like he had a purpose doing this.

-

Yoosung felt kind of bad for him. Every angel knew that they couldn’t see themselves in the mirror, and even comprehending what oneself looked like was mind boggling. Yoosung could barely remember his hair color.

But this was getting ridiculous.

He perked up from his desk, watching as Seven plopped down in his seat and started up his computer. He could see the tips of his horns poking out over the cubicle divider. Didn’t he feel those? Wasn’t there a pressure on his head? Yoosung honestly couldn’t wrap his mind around it. How did he not know that he had fallen?

Perhaps it was just that no one cared. People didn’t tend to talk to Seven regularly, perhaps only the occasional hello, but nothing else than that. Maybe that might have been why he couldn’t tell the different. No one treated him differently, maybe just moving a little bit extra out of his way when he went around the office, but nothing other than that.

After a decade had passed, Yoosung decided that it was enough, and during his lunch break- he approached the demon.

“Hello, Seven. I’m Yoosung. I work in Communications.” It was hard to greet the demon so casually, the sight of him, horns, tattered wings, and sharp eyes was enough to chill his soul. But he had to do this.

Seven raised a brow, surprised that he was approached so casually and out of nowhere. He held a hand out, and Yoosung hesitated in shaking it. “Nice to meet you, Yoosung. I work in Miracles.”

After the breaking of their silence, Yoosung felt himself get more comfortable, and he looked with more fondness at Seven. “Do- Do you want to grab lunch real quick, take a little break? We can chat a little…” He suggests softly, his wings tucking in as shyness flooded him.

“You want to get lunch with me?” Seven looked more shocked than anything, and he began shuffling in his seat. He was usually so calm, going with the flow, minding his own business- but interacting with Yoosung was pulling him in a direction he hadn’t anticipated. “I- yeah- yeah I would love to get lunch with you. Do you want to go now?”

When he shoots up from his seat, determination fueling his motions, his serpentine tail whips back and forth in a manner similar to a dog. Yoosung almost flinched- but he swallowed the lump in his throat and smiled genuinely. There was something about the demon’s excitement, his desire to be included, that really resonated with Yoosung. “Sure- we can go now.”

They ate in jovial silence, breaking it only to talk of work and about past lives, wondering what would have happened if they had met once before. As their conversation wore on- Yoosung just couldn’t seem to gain the courage to tell him the truth, that he wasn’t an angel anymore. Perhaps, for now, that was okay. One could live in blissful ignorance if only shortly, right?

Plus- they had thousands of years to go over it, he knew it would come up in its own time.

In the meantime though, he relished in the feeling of Seven holding his hand, his claws pointed but very delicate. Of course, Seven didn’t see it, just the silky smoothness like human hands would, but that made it somewhat more real to Yoosung.

And that was okay for now.