Oh Mang

Sorry to the few followers and people that are reading my tumblr posts. I'm just really sorry that you are reading about me going through a break up. I understand that things heal overtime. Maybe. But, for now I'm just hurting badly, and I don't know what to do. One day I know someone will make fun of me for this, but I don't care. I'm hurting now, and I'm just trying to find a way to get over it.

Update: we broke up. It was an LDR and it was already stressing him. I still really like him, but I refuse to push him to do something he doesn't want to do. No matter how badly I want to fix it, it won't happen. It's so hard to accept, but I want him to be happy more than anything. Now all I'm hoping for is a miracle to happen. It's been 3 days, and I'm still sad about it. Miss his voice and everything, but I won't give in to temptations. I honestly just want him to be happy.

I escaped a relationship that I felt neglected in, and I'm already trapped in another and I don't want to lay down in bed every night again crying my eyes out until I fall asleep just because I can't get his attention when I need it the most.

Honestly, I just really love old people and it breaks my heart into millions of pieces when they give so much love, but never receives it back. Just saw a photo of an old man eating with the one grandchild out of six and it almost made me cry. If my parents weren't so strict about letting me go out, I would definitely take the time to go out and love a senior with as much as I can to show them they are still significant and still loved.

For once I want to feel the psychical pleasure of kissing, holding hands, and having someone to hold at night. Literally, just because I'm single doesn't mean I'ma be going from guy to guy. There are girls out there that want to genuinely go on a date with you, you just don't know who.

I hate catching feels for the wrong person.

I'm more fucked up at night than i am in the day light

Love me hard and fuck me good.