musings

Helloooo gusto ko lang mag-post ngayong engineer na ako hahahahaha akalain mo yun.

It’s because you refuse to talk about it. Yes, I’m not sure. I feel all kinds of emotions and my heart feels heavy.

They said crying your heart out is better but it bothers me how much crying I’ve been doing lately.

Iniisip ko rin naman bakit ako moody pagdating sa’yo. A minute ago sobrang daldal ko then seconds later biglang maiiksi nalang replies and medyo uninterested na. It’s just that when you start to feel the other person doesn’t have the same energy as you do, you get hurt. Although nakita ko naman yung effort nung napansin mong inis ako. Sorry. Hindi talaga ako matured. But I try :)

Ang hirap diba kapag ikaw na yung nangangailangan ng payo? Alam mo naman kung anong dapat gawin pero syempre sagabal yung nararamdaman mo.

Iba sa chat, iba rin sa personal.

Unexpected bonus from Father God. Ipinagdasal ko lang na makapasa sa lahat ng subjects pero higit pa dun ang binigay niya. I can’t say I have done my very best at everything but I know I’ve tried to do my part. And yet again ‘di ulit ako nagsimba kahit may time. Haaaays. I always pray & I think more than the physical presence at the church, what matters most is our spiritual faith.

I should’ve never said that. So now I’ll beat myself up for being a stupid person.