~ Coexist ~

So for those following me you’ve probably seen my post already about me trying to save up to move. I will be moving in with @omsparkles out in Oregon. I currently live in Missouri. Things have gone from bad to worse. Lets start from the beginning. My name is Pax, I’m a disabled, mentally ill, trans man that as of right now am living in an abusive household. My mother continues to mentally abuse me,refuses to let me get treatment to start T, I cannot get therapy at all while i am here, and i am constantly on the verge of suicide because of her. Most nights she prefers getting drunk and screaming and smashing things in the house, and I am terrified for my life around her. I desperately need out.

I figured I could save it all on my own. I got a job and everything. But because I suffer from autonomic dysfunction, and extreme anemia, and other illnesses, I am now only allowed to work 4 hours or else I risk fainting or having a heart attack while on duty. And because my work has also cut back everyone’s hours due to us getting other people from a closing store, i’m barely making enough money to feed myself. I am desperate. I need out. I am still taking commissions, but they’re going to take a while for me to finish due to how terrible my health is right now, and me trying to y’know… not killing myself…

I have a little over $600 saved up right now, and will continue to try and keep working my current job, but I really need help. I’ll need to save up at least $1,000 or so. If you can donate ANYTHING or commission me, that would help me sooooooo much! you can donate at [email protected] I’m not sure how to add a donate button as of right now, but I’m trying to figure something out. I’m terrified here and I just need some help, please.

My plan so far is to either take a GreyHound bus or a plane to fly out to Omi’s, and mail what else i can’t pack to her home, like my desktop, extra clothes, ect.

I will also need to put down my dog before I move. He is 15 years old now, extremely sick, and would not make the move. He becomes extremely depressed when I’m away and literally no one can take him (he’s a huge black lab that’s over 100 pounds). I plan to cremate him and bring that with me. He’s my best friend and this is the most heart breaking thing I’ll have to do, but there’s no other option at this point.

from what i can budget off of the CHEAPEST of everything, and what i can find online. greyhound/airplane: $200 - $400 luggage: depending, could be $50+ (not certain) putting dog down and cremation: $300 or more mailing left over stuff: my computer is pretty heavy, so if i have to mail that, that could easily be $50+. so I might be looking at about $100 for it all. food: (I’ll need to feed myself for a while until I can get a job while I’m out there) $100-200 so all around I’ll need a little over 1,000. like I said, I have more than half already saved and will STILL be working to save up money. But i honestly need out ASAP. If anyone is good at budgeting or knows more about moving PLEASE message me!

Really good pictures taken in really inconvenient places.

Sniper: Lookie here, doc. Perfect angle.

Medic: How’d you manage to get up there?

Sniper: Used the Trekky’s sentry. 

Medic: And how do you intend to get down?

Sniper: … Ah, piss. 

This was goin’ to be added to that post of smaller things I’ve been workin’ on, but I’m a lazy bastard and would probably forget where I put it. More SFM crap, I suppose. This would be most of my loadout, minus the Dread Riding Hood. Can’t smile in a selfie when your face is covered, now can ya?