I wish it went differently but I understand why. It could have been great. It was awesome getting to know you. Take care.

I need to do better. I worked hard to get where I am. Battled a lot of wars and demons in my own head. To achieve and have all the things I have. To earn the privilege to live a comfortable life. I think I deserved the right to be selfish in certain aspects of life but I need to do better.

Sometimes I catch myself thinking of you and babyg. How after a certain point I wanted to take care of you and g forever. She isn’t mine and she will never be but I wanted you and her to be mine forever. Even if it didn’t work out, that chapter of our life was great.

If we don’t speak again, please know that I loved you. It might not been perfect but it was me and everything I had to offer.

I met you in the last place I would least expect to meet somebody and I like you. I’m down to see what happens next with you.

I miss you from time to time. I don’t know how you’re doing but I hope you’re doing well. I been good and living my life but sometimes I look back and think I fucked up. You are special in so many ways. There are things about you I won’t even try to look for in someone else because it won’t be found. I’m thankful for the experience of you but I wish it had continued until the end of time.

I won’t forget the night with you in Vancouver. Waking up in the middle of the night, laying next to each other and talking about everything and nothing. Looking down at people and guessing their stories. Looking into buildings and guessing what the business was; especially the guy who was still in his office so late. Looking back on it, it was a night I haven’t felt with someone in a long time. I’m sorry the ways things panned out. I know our relationship didn’t go according to the way you felt and for that, I’m really sorry. I’m sorry for not wanting to be the person you need. It’s just something I can’t give to you right now. I’m sorry for everything. But I’m not sorry for being honest and straightforward with my intentions. Giving me an ultimatum was not the answer. I wanted to enjoy your company without worrying about whether you are my person or not because it will come in time, if you allow for time. But you couldn’t and that’s okay. We all have different visions of how we want things to play out. It just wasn’t our time. I take the responsibility on making you feel the way that you do so please stop beating yourself up for my fear of being broken. It’s something I need to work on but I can’t just yet. I know you won’t reach out but I’m here if you need anything. I’m sorry I wasn’t ready for you. Please take care of yourself and I will try to remember to take my greens.

I’m sorry I can’t be the person that you want me to be. I knew feelings would come into play but I’ve done a good job of burying my feelings for the last year. I wish you could have done the same. I’m just looking for a good time and if a good time turns into a long time, that’s cool too but it can’t be you. I wish you knew this was only going to be a good time because I did. You were my first milf so I won’t forget you lol.