Nix's tuff blog or smth idk

i honestly cannot understand why people have to push the fact they have a crush on me so obviously. I know i once told them i am pretty oblivious to stuff, but no need to compare us to an anime love series. Dude i thought you were an aromantic??? I sometimes just wish that i didn't have any friends at school or so on so i would just have my online friends who are much nicer to me. I honestly want to kill myself, but I'm regretting those thoughts. Since i was supposed to get better. I really am dumb and a coward. I back out the moment someone stsrts showing me that they like me. I am trying to be a good person, but still hope Vekke kills himself. I know he wasn't even close to me and it wasn't even that bad of bullying and it was like 1-3 years ago? But i really thought he liked me, maybe thats why he never strangled me and always told me i was retarded and should film killing myself behind the Kiltatie 10 Tokmanni building. I really thought this was his way of showing me he liked me. But now i just regret failing. I liked him for TWO WHOLE YEARS just because my past friends normalized aggression and being mean as a sign of showing love(e.g. strangling) and really i just thought i was overreacting. Yea... Drawing him getting tortured by me and vise versa was a sign of totally love!! Never having a crush after that really.. Even though my feelings just dont go away. I'm just always nervous whenever someone tries to get close to me romantically irl that it happens again. But eh... Im just overreacting i should have gotten over this months ago. I just still feel the same emptiness i felt when i liked him. Kill yourself, Vekke.

A pretty bad body map I made of my oc Roro who i use when i wanna shitpost sumtimes (This is my first time making a body map plz dont slime me out)

Ong this faggot is annoying me!?!? Like stfu mean man your ass is pissing me off. Lolololll imagine being more annoying than the attic people and being less scary than the thing i see in the sauna 😂😂😂 STOP FUCKING MOVING THE DOORS, IM GOING TO STRANGLE YOU THE NEXT TIME I WAKE UP AND SEE YOU STANDING OVER ME WHILE IM IN SLEEP PARALYSIS. I HATE YOU YOURE SUCH A CUCK AND IF YOU MOVR THOSE DOORS..YOURE DOING IT AGAIN??? ONG YOURE GONNA GET IT NOW STOP IT IM GOING TO KILL MYSELF SO YOU WONT HAVE ME TO TORTURE ANYMORE GET AWAY I DONT LIKE YOU YOU KIKE. Hahsshshshxhzhz