Corrupted souls

I might make a new blog in the near future with newer muses. I'm dropping all threads that are not in my queue for this week.

My mental state hasn't been in a good place since finding out some personal life matters, also i had a triggered episode on friday night and ever since then I've been in a very bad mood. I don't deserve to talk to anyone right now and i feel like i should just delete this blog. But i won't. I'm just going to step away for a little bit.

He wasn’t expecting her to text him back or even show up at his door. Not with everything that was currently going on and every promise he made. Still, this isn’t something he wanted to share with her dad or his parents. The only person who would get it was Wisteria. He almost expected she was still pissed at him, but when he gets the message, he practically bolts to his door and opens it, pulling her in quickly. “I-I wasn’t…I wasn’t expecting that you’d come…I’m sorry, please don’t tell your dad I just…” He’s rambling now. “You’re the only one that gets what I’m feeling, you’re my best friend, I didn’t even…I didn’t even…I wasn’t even home when she fell…”

She didn’t know exactly what happened, didn’t know that things happened to make her lose her memories. The one thing that does make sense is Demitri. There’s plenty of pictures of them together on her phone, along with other people, but most of the pictures seem to be of her and him so it makes sense when she finds out he’s her brother, her twin. “Did I wear them or?” She blinks a few times, looking up to her brother. “What happened? I don’t…think I can really adjust until I know why I don’t remember everything. I know I fell down the stairs, but why did I leave in the first place? I-It seems like everything is good.”

‘ Say what you mean out loud ’

With the doors locked and the only place where she felt herself. Wisteria glanced at her sweat-drenched self. Having not stopped for the past two hours. It was as if this was the only way to get out her emotions. Having been known recently for holding everything in until exploding. This was one of those moments. She’d held back the tears, held back the anger, held back everything over the past week. But, now everything was relinquished. Tear stained cheeks as she spun around in that of a pirouette.

‘ Your laughter haunts me ‘

Memories of a boy’s laughter hit her ears as the lyrics went on. It was all her fault in the end. When wasn’t it? She felt as if the world around her was spinning and revolving for everyone but herself. A year ago it was her own fault for every one of her close friends along with cousin’s getting stuck in the past. Now it was as if the universe just didn’t want her to be happy. Having a falling out with her first crush and then now having a falling out with one of her best friends that she loved with all her heart. Tears started to fall once more. Bad luck ran through her veins that was the only explanation for everything. Losing her footing, falling towards the ground. Not catching herself in time, all she felt was cracking and then warmth flooded over her ankle.

“FUCK!”

‘ Can you tell me where we went wrong? ‘

Fists clenching together Steria bit her bottom lip. Maybe taking the good luck charm would have been a better idea instead of turning Taichi down. But, it was too late for that now. Everything was crumbling around her. Hitting the floor beneath her, she broke out into yet another fit of tears. Not caring if someone would unlock that glass door any minute and witness the pathetic state of an idol.

“See, I knew you’d want to come and I wasn’t about to do that. Listen to me. I wanted to go to your father and ask for his permission myself, coming from an honest and open perspective. Without his daughter there. Not to beg or try to be manipulative, but to be forthright and vulnerable in my intentions.” What has happened here? He’s grown up a bit. “I’m not going to leave. I’m going back to school, so I’ll be here in the house since I moved back. Hopefully once I’m done with school, I’ll start working as a partner at my mom’s company. I think….I think we’re going about this wrong, Wisteria. I get what your dad is saying. He’s trying to protect you and I really sat back and thought about it. If it were my dad, he’d do everything in his power to keep my mom from getting hurt and that includes, and I’m sure, letting her do her thing for awhile.” He sighs heavily. “I’m going to be here, and whatever you want to do with that, you can do. But we’re not together, and despite my feelings for you, I’m going to live my life like a normal twenty-two year old should. My feelings are never going to change, so when you’re ready for that again, I’ll let you come to me. I’m not going to hurt your dad and go behind his back, I respect him enough to respect his wishes and one of them is not letting you get hurt or involved in things that you shouldn’t be.”