gleam & resonate

What am I missing from therapy and treatment? I am motivated to change but SOMETHING is missing and I can’t figure out what it is.

I’m so fucking tired of eating disorder “treatment”. The treatment is literally “just eat”. I kid you not. No one has helped me with how to get myself to eat or get over any fears. I’ve literally been told to just eat and to just make recovery oriented decisions and it’s so defeating. It makes me feel like every struggle I’ve ever had was just me making a bad choice in the end instead of suffering from an incredibly powerful illness. I’m tired of it. This isn’t enough for me to feel better or helped at all. It’s all just a bunch of bullshit.