Christmas Grief
Christmas...
it used to be my favorite time of year, cooking and baking and wrapping and singing.. all the things i waited and looked forward to.
until this year. this was the first year without her.
without hearing her sing and dance
without her banana pudding and her sly remarks
no more christmas cards hand picked with careful thought, as personalized as you can get at your local CVS
no this year is different
this year brings sweet bitter memories, realization of how the times have changed, and the unsettling, stomach turning feeling of knowing ill never get another Christmas with the wonderful woman i once knew. she made me who i am, helped me even when i didnt realize i needed helping.
So to another christmas, only this year, ill be asking Santa for you this Christmas
and itll be the only wish he cannot fulfill
