I'm his anchor and he's my wave..!

This is my handsome doofus of a boyfriend! 😍😍

Raven and Blake

Okay so let's start with the biggest update so that this all makes sense..! Our little boys, Edward and Alphonse, are actually girls! Now renamed Raven and Blake. 😍 Now to explain how I know this; Raven, formally Edward, dropped a clutch of sixteen eggs. All slugs but very shocked to see those eggs from my 'boy' regardless. :)

I love you with all my heart Ben! You make me life brighter and more liveable!😘😘

Now that I've finally caught up with the deployment notes I thought I'd put up a pic of me and B 😋

I got a call from you! I missed your voice so much and waking up to it was something heavenly.. I can't wait till you come home so I can squeeze the life out of you!!

You gave me the bad news (that your deployment had been extended) and my heart broke; not just for me, but for you! Your boys are missing their Daddy and I'm missing my future husband. I love you Ben. I miss you so f*cking much!

Monty seems a lot happier today - no strikes and lots of cuddles. I love our family. I went to jump with Dad and DS; he's still chubby. I love that little boy with everything I am. KP (from previous status) stayed last night and is surprisingly a butt hugger in bed. She's handling the break up well on the outside.

K sent me out a beautiful snake charm for my phone. I love it so much - she's such a wonderful human being. I dumped K (different K xD) - I called her about her OH's dad's status and apparently hadn't even told her so I ended up racing down to comfort her. We ended up going down Envy, which by the way was my first ever night club experience, met D and he invited us back to R's house party which ended upload with us all crashed out and chilled around the front room.

Mum invited me to go to her contact with M (and Carla’s boys). I tried my hand at fishing and failed rather elegantly. I did catch a baby flat fish called Frank though. I invited J to spend time and as you can probably guess - he let me down, for her, but then what did I think was going to happen?

There was an extra log here but this one has to go to my NSFW page ;) 😘❤

Monty is being an asshole... So is Ezio... But Ezio is going through terrible twos - Monty however isn't and that means he has no excuse for biting me. I can't wait for him to get out of this phase. I've missed talking to you; I missed how you never get boring and can always find a topic. I have realised I am very boring. I don't know why I'm keeping these notes or if I'll ever show you them but it always gives me somewhere to release and I guess I like that. We miss and love you so much.

Last night we had a breath-taking storm - about 300 flashes in one hour! You’ll probably find it online easy enough but it was amazing and all I could imagine is how much better it would’ve been with your arms wrapped around my waist, your chin nuzzled into mine next to my collarbone and your heartbeat pacing alongside mine. What a perfect night that would’ve been.

I got my tattoo done today. It's so pretty and I weirdly enjoyed every second of the pain. I can't wait for you to see it! Although no putting any blades near it - not sure who loses out more; me or you. He (J) let me down again as expected. I'm not even sure why I get surprised anymore.

I got a new sleep tracker and tested it out - I've now heard the chokes and bike practice so let me just say I am so sorry. I also found one of your hoodies that still smells of you. I'm so happy right now! Oh, I booked my tattoo - Very excited kitty! You came online! We spoke a bit and yet again my heart raced. You give me visions of such a beautiful future. I'm such a lucky lady!