ephemerality of the mundane

Finished Earthshock and I have thoughtsss like that ending is stuck in my brain rn. Adric really lived the way he died. He could never let go. His just wouldn't admit he was wrong. And the thing is, I don't hate or dislike him for it bc I know exactly why he acted the way he did. He was a gifted and skilled teen boy constantly proving himself to everyone e.g. his brother, the other kids, the Deciders. He had no one to nuture that, until the Doctor showed up. But by then the line between criticism and judgement was blurred so Adric did what he felt he had to do: compete with him. Try to one him up. That's prolly why he would 'sell out' to the villains. The very few times he felt like his genius was recognised. That anyone really *saw* him. This has prolly already been said but Adric's death is just chilling in a way like no other. Amy, Rory, Clara, River and Bill are dead physically but live on in a way, but Adric is gone. No new timeline, no transfers, no extra TARDISes, no showrunner retconning him back for a special. He's gone. And they make sure to rub that in too. No dramatic score just the explosion, a brief motif and silence. That shattered badge in the silent credits is haunting. Something he worked so hard for destroyed so easily. The parallels to Ten are so scary too. Like they both didn't know when to stop until it was too late. The Alzurian Victorious.

had a friend who used to make new ones up on the spot. The only one that stuck with me was 'good golly jelly beans'. If something catastrophic happens I go for 'that's not ideal.'

hey kitten. daddy needs to talk to you. your kink blog is great, but you are not highlighting the words correctly. kitten. stop highlighting. this is shit. did you seriously highlight that period. kitten.

no one knows if watching a new tv show is possible