Little pansexual diary

I was watching boy Erased. And Iam... I Feel like space. Emptily, but replete equally.

I dont know why, but i looking for my friends and i detection, if u are have a lots of friends, probably they arent your really friends. Just they feel like friends. I know what about I talking.

Coming out is a probably the hardest thing who i ever did. When I coming out with my sexual orientation I dont know why, but i looking for my friends and i detection, if u are have a lots of friends, probably they arent your really friends. Just they feel like friends.

I know what about I talking.

In 2015 I told to my Bff about my orientation. She says: 'Its okay. Be Who you are. I like u'. She was the first person, whom i said. But she, my best friend, she betrayed me and told it everybody.

I feels like Simon from Love, Simon at this moment, but I'll not talk about this movie. I will talk about Boy erased and compare with my life with this movie.

I look forward to BE, since i found article where wrote about this movie for the first time.

And its complied my everything anticipating Who i have. I love this movie. BE is on second place in my 'top gay movie list, Who everybody must watch before dead.'

I would like my mum loves me like Garrard mum. I would like my mum be like his mum. She is loving protective and brave woman. My mum is just woman, Who bear me.

It is what it is. Thats all.

But my dad is just his dad. Loving, fair and virility man. But he is little bit homophobic same. If i talk him who Iam, probably he dispatch me to the some senatorium. And i cant be there.

I dont know, if I will talk him about my pansexuality.