Poetry

Don’t be an extreme taker.

Don’t be in a relationship

Throw yourself into a sea of faces

Make memories to distort the facts

Using vices to fill the empty spaces

See the demons this attracts

Hanging on by a thread

I don’t know if there is any going back

I don’t know where this will head

But I can see what it lacks

Mirror mirror on the wall

Show me who I truly am

Please don’t try and stall

Highlight the broken pieces of me

Still bruised battered and sore

Find every tiny crack

Break it wide as a door

Lose yourself today

Fuel the anxieties of tomorrow

Don’t worry about me

Yet loving you when you are another's isn't right. Preached to the masses that it's wrong, sinful, and a betrayal. I always thought with time it would subside. It was teenage infatuation, and worse, meaningless. However it stayed. Lingering in the nights so far away. In the music that filled my lungs with air. The smiles in others. My heart had broke, but I still had love stitching my heart back together with the string from you.

Strong and brave

Stalking prey

Finding early graves

I'm no lioness

No roar to hear

Crippled by ghosts

Anxiety and fear

Head this warning

To all those alike

The sky is storming

And tears fall like

A lioness' roar

Loud and unending

Cower from it

The pain that's pending

I will die in pain

And all I wish

Is that I wasn't dependant

On medicine to make me normal

Make me happy

As

Whiskey and coke is sliding down your throat

Then

Burning in your chest waking the hearts buried past

While

You begin letting your mind wander

And

Tears start forming in your eyes

How

Her voice playing tricks inside your head

Muscles tightening

Hips bucking

Ending all too soon

Not soon enough

Smiles forming slowly

All muscles relax

This is peace

And who I'll be

But honestly I wonder most

What changes I'll make

In someone else

And if they will remember

Who they were

As your past sits in the next seat

Whispering thoughts you've never shared

Wondering when all is lost in despair

You are fighting the next breath of hope

You've just learned how to barely cope

These chains won't hold you forever

Minute by minute, each breathe

And it feels like my mind is playing tricks on me

My heart beat is racing towards a finish line

And I seem to be running out of lost time

My mind is a now medicated mystery

And my heart is numb to all I see

I hear whispers of your name

And it is driving me insane

How do I try to remember

And begin to surrender

Missing memories

If only you had lived.

Cut down before you began,

7 weeks in.

Now you would have been 6 weeks

While I held you in my arms

You were meant for other things

Just to fit in the cracks of