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Fuck I just want to go camping I kept my shit together bc that's the only thing I cared about doing

Proving to myself and my family that I'm not a shutin lowlife with no fucking friends

It's so hurtful seeing my fuckass sister with her fuckass friends THAT SHE ONLY HAS BC OF ME go out and do the fuckass shit I beg everyone in my life to do

I'm so fucking tiered I give up , ppl don't get how important that camping trip was for me this year I believed I could get what I wanted for once

I've been planning and begging for that trip since last summer, it's so stupid crying over something so fucking childish

But I've been preparing for months studying maps searching recipes with dried ingredients, updating my gear for a longer trip

Ik it's stupid wasting so much of my time over something ppl keep telling me "we'll see" but that was the one and only thing that kept me going

I'm tired I don't have the energy anymore to try to organize yet another trip from scratch and beg the 2 ppl still down to come and renegotiate everything

Bruh I just wanted a lighter for my cigarette, "yeah it makes sense Moldova is close to china" THAT'S MONGOLIA YOU DEEPSHIT