lonia

on wanting what you cannot have

Their first date not date

I like the idea of Nobara freaking out on what to wear to their, is it a date???!

sun-kissed

- i didn’t count “memetic smiles” because otherwise there would have been way too much data for yuuji. i counted by panel and searching for fully drawn smiles, not =D smiles like yuuji often does in the background.

- i counted “fushiguro, it’s okay” and “so start by saving me, itadori” as smiles

(i know they’re not actually smiling in those panels, but look at their eyes and tell me i can’t count that)

- if a smile was ambiguous in the manga and present in the anime, i counted it

(contains spoilers for jjk, though they’re either light or implied)

Only in my darkest moments can I see the light I think I’m prone to getting blinded when its bright Well, this December, I’ll remember Want you to see it when I do Ooh God knows I do

I’m alright if you’re alright And I’m okay if you’re okay It’s this state, in this state I’m living in It’s just a little bit It’s just a little bit lonely in this home its always Colder on your own My darling I I let the seasons change my mind

Only in my darkest moments I wanna see you with your head wide open Empty on the ground, gone without a sound Just another white elm growing at the end of town Well, this December, I’ll remember Want you to see it when I do Ooh God knows I do 

given that my current itafushi brainrot is focused on the fanfic i’m writing that also doubles as a songfic for this december, you could say i’m attached to the idea that the two are connected. i think that the lyrics of the song really encapsulate the feelings the two have for each other. (apparently it’s actually about seasonal depression or something? but this is kind of cooler)

i’m alright if you’re alright / and i’m okay if you’re okay

every time i hear this i can only think of the parting words that itadori and fushiguro always leave each other with: i’ll kill you if you die. more accurately, i feel as if represents the feelings they have towards self-sacrifice and preventing the other from being in pain. for itadori and fushiguro, if the other can be saved, then it’s okay. it doesn’t matter how much pain they have to go through as long as the other one is safe. always, always they’re thinking of the other one’s feelings and how to avoid causing them what they view as unnecessary guilt and pain. this moment in chapter 63, i feel, perfectly exemplifies this dynamic:

both of them will always choose shouldering their burdens on their own and keeping secrets from the other over allowing the other to be hurt. it doesn’t matter, as long as the other is okay. 

only in my darkest moments can i see the light / i think i’m prone to getting blinded when it’s bright

this one’s easy. fushiguro is associated heavily with darkness and shadow, not just with his appearance and his abilities but also with his tendency to bottle up his emotions and hide his true feelings. he doesn’t share what he’s going through with anyone, he doesn’t let his emotions show on his face or in what he says, he’s the more introspective and passive of the two. on the contrary yuuji has lighter hair, acts more extroverted and open with his thoughts and feelings, doesn’t seem to think twice about his actions and tries to create active and positive change, and is shown to be undeniably a good person to the point where others remark it as strange that he’s a jujutsu sorcerer. but it’s not as simple as that. 

in this amazing analysis by @linkspooky, we can see that as time goes on, fushiguro and itadori integrate aspects of each other into themselves. fushiguro becomes more active and compassionate; itadori becomes more passive and ruthless. i think that the lyrics here could show the yin/yang aspect of itadori and fushiguro’s relationship, showing how in the depths of darkness the true aspect of light is revealed – and vice versa. 

it’s just a little bit lonely in this home / it’s always colder when you’re alone

itadori is the person that has come the closest to fushiguro. their relationship is one of mutual trust. after tsumiki was cursed, fushiguro closed himself off to avoid being hurt again, but we can see over the course of his development that he has accepted that itadori is just as important to him. 

he’s not alone anymore. 

only in my darkest moments / i wanna see you with your head wide open / empty on the ground, gone without a sound / just another white elm growing at the end of town

enough said

in conclusion, itafushi brainrot

Megumi approaches Yuuji to bring him back “home” at a time, when Yuuji (understandably) going through a crisis whether he deserves to live after all. Instead of saving people, he lost control to Sukuna, who used his body to kill many. Who’s to say it won’t happen again. 

So he tells Megumi not to act like it’s not a big deal and not to sweep it under the rug. It ties back to the moment at the end of the Death Painting Arc, when both Yuuji and Megumi realizes separately all the bad things they set in motion with Yuuji consuming Sukuna’s finger, but they decide to keep these things to themselves, as an attempt to protect each other’s feelings. Because Megumi knows Yuuji wouldn’t take well realizing that by choosing to save everyone, things were set in motion whereby others got hurt and killed. While Yuuji knows that Megumi feels responsible for the acts of those he saves. This leads to them being divided in the Shibuya arc.

fushiguro megumi’s birthday: december 22

itadori yuuji’s birthday: march 20

gege? 😃 why is megumi’s birthday the winter solstice and yuuji’s the spring equinox?

winter solstice associations: rebirth of the sun, darkness and cold giving way to light and warmth; marks the end as well as the beginning of winter, as the days only get longer from this point forward

spring equinox associations: rebirth of the earth, new beginnings and the dawn; marks one of two points in the year where the night and day are exactly the same length, being the midpoint between two “worlds” (night and day, winter and summer, death and life)

in buddhism, the spring equinox is especially significant, celebrated as higan (the same veneration is given to the autumnal equinox). the date signifies crossing between two “shores”, the shore of our world and of suffering, and the shore of enlightenment

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