Sincerely, hopelessness

Hey, I hope your soul beems with happiness today. I hope you get everything you ever wished for and more. Much love

I just want you to know,

I don't think you actually love me.

It’s not fair. It’s not fair how much space you take up in my heart. It’s not fair that after everything, I still feel empty when I’m not near you. It’s not fair that it takes a simple smile to make me forget how angry I feel. It’s not fair that you can take advantage of me at the drop of a hat and I’d still crawl into your bed. It’s not fair that my body still trembles when your fingers caress my skin and it’s not fair how easily my breathing stops at the sound of your voice. It’s not fair how you’ve taken my innocent heart and crushed it inside your fist. And it’s not fair that I’m still as irrevocably in love with you as I was from the very first moment.

I hope you look back and regret everything you put me through. I hope it eats you up at night when you can't sleep. I hope it lingers over your shoulder and follows you around wherever you go. I hope a moment doesn't go by that you're not haunted by it.

"Not all men"

"I can't just sit around and pretend like you never happened."

Part of me wonders when you think of me the most,