~mylifeisbleeding~

of course i'm not okay.

beautiful people get it better, that's just the way it is

please dont ask if i'm ok, i might do something stupid like open up to you and i'm getting really tired of getting close to people and watching them leave me like i'm nothing

i don't understand how you can smile all day long but then cry yourself to sleep at night. How pictures never change but the people in them do. How your best friend can become your worst enemy or how strange it is that your worst enemy can become your best friend. How forever turns into a few short months that you'd do almost anything to get back. How you can let go of something you once said you couldn't live without. How even though you know something is best for you, it just hurts the same. How the people who once wanted to spend every second with you, think a few minutes of their time is just too much to spare. How people make promises despite knowing how common it is for promises to be broken. How people can erase you from their lives just because it's easier than working things out.

Today's society is pathetic. Every decision you make, you get judged for it. People committing suicide because of being bullied. Teenagers being depressed because they feel like no one cares. Using drugs, smoking, cutting to make themselves feel better when they just feel like breaking down. Grades going down because they feel they don't have a future. Scared, because there's no one that will listen.

People mess up. At the time they wont notice or even care of what you feel and what you do for them. They will walk all over you and shove your face into the ground. Once they realize what they've done its up to you to choose if they deserve the same or not. But what good will it do to you if you do the same. one thing we have to always remember is that you need to have the strength to forgive and become a stronger person no matter how hard it is. You will thank yourself later while you watch how other people were affected with the same situation and choose to do the same to the person. Life is what you put into it. Make sure you do good in this life. You only get one.

I blame me

I'm not fine, I promise

I just can't sleep. Too many voices trying to talk to me

Eugh