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POV: You go surprise Husband!Skepta after one of his sets in Ibiza and this man is FERAL because he missed you 😋 like he’s so touchy during the car ride back to the hotel once you guys arrive, he’s ready to EAT
the riddim
a skepta fic
summary ~ you miss ur dj/grime legend husband. maybe his set in ibiza is the right place to reunite.
includes ~ smut // obsessed husband skepta // wife reader
a/n ~ i loveeeee this request !
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The bass from the final track was still vibrating through the walls of the VIP section when you slipped backstage. The Ibiza night air was warm and salty, the club pulsing with energy, but all you could focus on was finding him.
Skepta had just finished one of the most electric sets of the summer. The crowd had been screaming his name, but you knew the second he stepped off stage he’d be looking for you, even if he didn’t know you were here.
You’d flown in as a surprise. He’d been on the road for three weeks straight, and the last facetime call had ended with him murmuring, “I miss my wife… I need you here.” So you made it happen.
Security let you through when they saw your pass and recognized your face. You waited near the green room, heart racing.
The door opened.
Skepta stepped out still buzzing with adrenaline, black durag on, sweat glistening on his skin, wearing an all-black outfit that clung to his tall, athletic frame. The second his eyes landed on you, everything stopped.
“Baby…” His voice cracked.
He crossed the distance in three strides and pulled you into his arms, lifting you clean off the ground. His face buried in your neck as he held you so tight it almost hurt.
“You’re really here,” he whispered against your skin, voice thick with emotion. “My wife… fuck, I missed you so much.”
You wrapped your arms around his neck, legs around his waist, breathing him in — that familiar mix of cologne, sweat, and him.
“I missed you too,” you murmured, kissing the side of his head. “Couldn’t stay away any longer.”
He pulled back just enough to kiss you, deep, hungry, and full of three weeks of longing. His hands gripped your ass possessively as he held you up, tongue sliding against yours like he was trying to memorize your taste.
The security team politely looked away as he carried you down the hallway, still kissing you like the world outside didn’t exist.
The car ride back to the private villa was torture.
Skepta kept you on his lap in the back seat of the blacked-out SUV, tinted windows hiding everything. His hands were everywhere, sliding up your thighs under your dress, gripping your waist, cupping your face as he kissed you slow and deep.
“Three weeks,” he groaned against your mouth, voice rough. “Three fucking weeks without my wife. Without this body. Without this pussy.”
His hand slipped between your thighs, fingers brushing over your already soaked panties. You gasped softly.
“Baby… we’re in the car,” you whispered, even as you rocked against his hand.
“Don’t care,” he murmured, kissing down your neck. “Need to feel you. Been dreaming about this every night.”
He pushed your panties to the side and slid two thick fingers inside you, curling them just right. You bit your lip to stay quiet, but a soft moan still escaped. He groaned at how wet you were, pumping his fingers slowly while his thumb circled your clit.
“Look at you,” he whispered against your ear. “Soaking my fingers in the back of the car like my nasty little wife. Missed this tight pussy so much.”
You rode his fingers quietly, hips rolling as the driver navigated the dark roads. Skepta kissed you through it, swallowing every whimper, his free hand squeezing your ass.
By the time the car pulled up to the private villa, you were trembling on the edge. Skepta pulled his fingers out, brought them to his mouth, and sucked them clean while staring into your eyes.
The driver hadn’t even fully stopped before Skepta opened the door, lifted you out, and carried you straight inside like you weighed nothing.
The second the villa door closed, he was feral.
He pressed you against the nearest wall, kissing you like a man possessed. His hands roamed your body greedily, squeezing your breasts, gripping your ass, sliding under your dress to rip your panties down your legs.
“Need you,” he growled against your mouth. “Need to taste my wife.”
He dropped to his knees right there in the entryway, pushed your dress up to your waist, and buried his face between your thighs.
There was nothing gentle about it.
He devoured you, tongue fucking deep inside you, sucking hard on your clit, groaning like your taste was the only thing that could satisfy him after weeks apart. His strong hands gripped your ass, holding you against his mouth as he ate you like a starving man.
“Fuck— Joseph!” you moaned, fingers gripping his durag.
He moaned against your pussy, the vibration making your knees weak. He sucked your clit harder, two thick fingers plunging inside you and curling relentlessly. You came fast and hard, thighs shaking as you cried out, gushing on his tongue.
He didn’t stop.
He kept licking you through it, slower now, savoring every drop until you were whimpering and pushing at his head.
Only then did he stand up, lifting you again and carrying you to the bedroom. He laid you on the massive bed and stripped quickly, revealing his tall, toned body and his thick, hard dick.
He crawled over you, eyes dark with lust and love.
“Missed you so fucking much,” he whispered, kissing you deeply as he rubbed and tapped his dick against your soaked folds. “Missed my beautiful wife. Missed this pussy.”
He pushed inside you slowly, savoring every inch. Both of you moaned at the feeling. He was thick and long, stretching you perfectly after weeks apart.
Once he was fully seated, he stayed there, forehead pressed to yours.
“I love you,” he breathed. “So much.”
Then he started moving.
His strokes were deep and passionate at first, long rolls of his hips that had you gasping. But the weeks of missing each other quickly turned it into something more urgent. He fucked you harder, deeper, gripping your thighs as he drove into you.
“Fuck, baby,” he groaned. “You’re squeezing me so tight. This pussy missed me too, didn’t it?”
“Yes— God, yes,” you moaned, nails digging into his back.
He hooked one of your legs over his shoulder, folding you deeper as he pounded into you. The sound of skin slapping skin filled the room, mixed with your moans and his low groans.
He leaned down and kissed you messily, then moved to your neck, sucking marks into your brown skin like he wanted everyone to know you were his.
“You’re mine,” he growled against your throat. “My beautiful wife. My everything.”
You came again hard, crying out his name as your walls pulsed around him. He groaned loudly, hips stuttering as he followed right after, burying himself deep and filling you with thick, hot pulses of cum.
He stayed inside you for a long time afterward, holding you close, kissing your face and whispering how much he loved you.
When he finally pulled out, he immediately pulled you into his arms, wrapping his tall frame around you. His hand stroked your back as you both caught your breath.
“Best surprise ever,” he murmured against your hair, voice full of love and satisfaction. “Don’t ever stay away from me that long again.”
You smiled, nuzzling into his chest. “Never.”
He kissed the top of your head, then your lips, slow and full of devotion.
In the quiet luxury of the Ibiza villa, with the ocean waves in the distance, the two of you held each other close.
your husband and kids come to see you on tour ♥︎ .𖥔 ݁ ⠀
──── notes: bad era!michael jackson x childhoodbsf!popstar!reader ╱ see 𝒂𝒖 𝒊𝒏𝒕𝒓𝒐. girldad!michael ⋆ all fluff.
Tonight, your twin baby girls were seeing you perform live for the first time. At only two years old, almost three, they’d never attended one of your concerts before, and Michael had been so excited for when they would grow old enough. Your son Brandon—named after Michael’s deceased brother—was seven now, and he’d been to watch both you and Michael live a few times already, but this was the first night where all your three children would stand together with your husband to admire their mother do what she did best.
At the top of the staircase in the centre of the stage, you appeared in a breathtaking blush-pink gown, the skirt billowing around you like a cloud. Your curls were bouncy and voluminous, and diamonds glittered at your ears and throat, throwing sparks into the crowd whenever you turned. Gliding across the stage, you waved at the screaming crowd and the cameras, and the hem of your dress swept behind you akin to a royal train as you moved from one end of the arena to the other. Married to the world's biggest superstar and existing as a phenomenon in your own right, it made sense you were viewed as royalty. You floated beneath the lights like a modern fairytale princess, radiant and divine; and despite the chaos ahead, you felt completely at home before those eighty thousand adoring fans.
Michael and your children were standing in a VIP suite off the side, an elevated private box that allowed for security and comfort. But your babies were of course much too small to see over the railing while standing, so Michael took turns in holding each of them up; including your son, although he was just about tall enough to stand with a good view. All three had the most adorable pink earmuffs resting over their ears, thick foam cushions pressed gently against the sides of their heads. The protective headset was a bit too large for the little girls, which only made the sight even cuter.
One of your girls, Tiana, was bubbly and confident, bouncing excitedly to the music whenever Michael lowered her to the floor, while your other girl Sophia was more on the shy side. She preferred to be in her daddy's arms as she watched you, already feeling a little overwhelmed from the noise even with the earmuffs. And because she was naturally shy, she typically babbled a lot more than Tiana did, formatively seeming the younger of the two.
"There's mama, look at her go, sweetheart," Michael whispered in little Sophie's ear, rocking her in his arms so she could feel as comfortable as possible.
"Mama," she repeated, trying to point in your direction with her chubby finger.
"Yeah, tha's right, isn't she beautiful? Like a magical painting, huh?"
A small smile spread across her sweet cheeks, and she started to giggle. "Daddy," she babbled, turning to Michael and splaying her small hands all over his face.
Michael chuckled in glee. "You go 'n tell your mama how pretty she is when she gets offstage, okay? Say pretty mama."
"Pwetty... mama," Sophia sounded out slowly. "Pretty mama."
"Exactly, baby." Michael kissed her forehead, then turned his attention back to you.
Tiana and Brandon were dancing together, holding hands, before Tiana decided she needed to see you again. She spun around suddenly with a frown.
"Daddy. I wanna see mommy."
"Alright," Michael chuckled, setting Sophia down, where she immediately rushed to be by Brandon's side. She wouldn't dance or jump up and down like her sister had been doing, but she was enjoying the music, swaying a little while her brother held her hand.
Tiana rushed over to Michael. "Alright, come on up, angel."
The girl squealed excitedly as her father hoisted her up into his arms, settling her so that she was angled with perfect view of the stage.
"There you go, there's your mama..." Michael hummed into her ear, bouncing her up and down lightly because it always made her giggle.
"Daddy," she beamed, pointing at the stage just as Sophia had done. "Mommy princess."
Michael's heart melted to hear her say that. He adored that your children viewed you in the same precious way he did, and he couldn't believe how much time had passed since that day he had been nineteen, daydreaming alone about what your children might look like in the far future. All these years later, and they were absolutely beautiful—of course they were.
"Yeah, honey, mommy's our very own princess. You like her dress, baby?"
Tiana nodded eagerly. You had in fact chosen to wear this particular dress on purpose tonight, because it did make you look like a Disney princess, and you knew your girls would love it. They'd be transfixed no matter what you wore, but a princess dress was ideal in their presence.
While you sung your more sexual songs, dancing provocatively, Michael sat the kids down on the floor and played with them, distracting them well enough that they surprisingly didn’t complain at being shielded from the princess onstage.
When the concert was over, the four waited for you backstage, their pretty smiles lighting up as soon as they saw you emerge from the wings. You were breathless, worn out from two hours of non-stop performance, smoothing down your second outfit of the night—a glittery teal mini dress with bright pink jewels and pink heels to match.
After catching your breath and downing a glass of ice cold water that someone handed to you, you headed straight for your loved ones.
“Hii, my babies!” you beamed, crouching down and outstretching your arms for them to run into. The three of them rushed forward, squealing as they did, and you tried your best to envelop them all in your hold. Michael watched beside you all, smiling at the beautiful scene before him.
“Did you all enjoy the show?” you asked softly, stroking through Tiana’s thick hair.
“Yes, mommy,” the girls said in unison, while your son nodded his head.
You picked up Sophia, resting her secure in your arms before standing, the other two jumping at your feet.
“Hi sweet girl, it wasn’t too noisy, no?” you whispered in her ear, while she tucked her head into your neck.
“No,” she murmured, shaking her head against your skin.
“That’s good, baby. You had fun?” You smiled, relieved that she hadn’t been too overwhelmed. You squeezed her cheek lightly and kissed her forehead as you rocked her.
Sophia made a sweet noise to signal yes. “Momma pretty. Like princess.”
You gasped, heart melting at her adorable pout paired with her words. “You’re a princess, baby,” you exclaimed, poking her chest playfully. “You’re mama’s princess.”
She giggled happily, and even more so when her daddy walked over, wrapping an arm around your shoulder with several quick kisses to your cheek.
“Hey honey,” Michael said warmly. “Y’were perfect out there.”
“Hi baby,” you hummed, kissing him softly. “Were they alright in the suite?”
“Yeah, everythin’ was fine,” he smiled, maneuvring Sophia into his arms. She babbled against him, yawning into her tiny hands.
“They had a great time watching their pretty mama.”
You grinned bashfully, always melting at your husband’s compliments. “Did you tell Sophie to call me a pretty princess?”
“She would’ve said that anyway,” Michael chuckled. “And Tiana called you a princess too.”
You pouted, feeling overcome with emotion, while Tiana tugged at your leg from down below. Then you leaned forward into Michael’s shoulder to pull him into a hug, a tear shedding onto the fabric of his suit, unable to contain your emotions after so much exertion onstage.
“Wait, I don’t know why I’m crying. Think I’m getting my period,” you laughed through the tears, quickly wiping them into Michael’s neck so that none of the kids saw, but Sophia was already furrowing her brows, trying to work out if her mommy was upset.
“’s okay, angel,” Michael whispered with a soft laugh. He held your waist close, his daughter still held safely. “I love you, pretty baby.”
“I love you,” you said through sniffles, and now Tiana was of course anxiously asking if you were alright. So you pulled away from Michael and Sophia, bringing your other daughter up into your arms and holding Brandon’s hand.
“I can’t believe how blessed we are,” you sighed, patting over your makeup that was now smudged.
Michael hummed in agreement, with another tender kiss to your forehead. “I know. This is all I ever wanted.”
tysm to the anon who requested this! i’d actually never considered this scenario before and when u suggested it i suddenly had a very vivid scene in my mind. hope u love!!<3
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PAGE SIX, NY POST ╱ FEB 15, 1988
❛JACKSON FINALLY SNAPS?❜
𝑶𝒖𝒓 𝑲𝒊𝒏𝒈 𝒂𝒏𝒅 𝑸𝒖𝒆𝒆𝒏 𝒐𝒇 𝑷𝒐𝒑 celebrated their seventh wedding anniversary last week, away from the eyes of the press in a remote location undisclosed. We saw them home again last night for a charity gala, although it appears they regret returning to the bright lights and busy bustle of Los Angeles celebrity culture, where the pair were given a too-warm welcome, and Mr. Jackson didn’t react very kindly. The usually polite and reserved star threw such qualities aside in a moment that told exactly how he felt about the disruption of his wife’s safety.
(𝟏𝟖+) ──── notes: bad era!michael jackson x popstar!reader ╱ see 𝒂𝒖 𝒊𝒏𝒕𝒓𝒐. fluff & smut ⋆ public sexual assault ⋆ mikey as a protective, adoring husband ⋆ oral fem receiving ⋆ fingering ⋆ breeding kink ⋆ penetrative sex ⋆ creampie ⋆ sleepy cockwarming where michael is a soft lil angel
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The flashing lights were blinding, seeming to hit you much harder now that you had been apart from the chaos for a week. The click of the cameras snapped into your eardrums, the scent of cigarette smoke filling your nostrils as you made your way through the swamped street. Michael was tugging you as close as he could, gripping your jewel-clad hand, before deciding to instead rest his arm around your waist securely.
Shouts of your name and your husband's were hurled at you from men you couldn't even see the faces of, but you were used to this. Sure, a week of pure tranquil bliss had meant that a return to such invasive chaos had shocked your system, but it was a system well-attuned to that chaos all the same.
The part you disliked was having to somehow angle yourself toward every camera in order for each one of the paparazzi to get what they wanted. Whenever you and Michael were anywhere other than a dedicated public appearance, you refused to glance at even one camera—because you'd die on the hill that they had not a single right to follow you around outside of events, given that there were more than enough public appearances for them to catch you at. But on nights like these, you understood it was best to be graceful, to give them a show-stopping smile, to display your sexy elegance with confidence, no matter how tired you felt inside.
Tonight you were consumed by exhaustion due to jet lag, but primarily, your body was engaged with a bone-deep enervation; an urgency to be away from the excessive, overwhelming buzz of media attention, and instead to be where you belonged—at home with your husband, in the master bedroom of your LA mansion.
Los Angeles could be real hell out amongst the ruthless men behind the cameras, but in your home with Michael, the outside world never mattered. Last week, staying in an exclusive 1,400-acre private island in Saint Vincent, you caught a glimpse of what life could be if that indoor bliss could meet an outdoor normality, a silence that would give the two of you complete serenity. Since you were teens, it seemed there was nowhere on earth that you wouldn't be recognised—although you knew that assumption was hyperbolic. You and Michael never had an inflated ego that assumed you were the greatest stars on earth; rather, it was just difficult to believe that there was a location in which you wouldn't be spotted, because everywhere you went you risked getting mobbed.
So, that was why you'd both chosen the island of Mustique as your destination to take a well-deserved break, while Michael’s mother Katherine took care of your three children at Hayvenhurst for the duration. You always scheduled your careers around each other’s so that you could take turns looking after the kids if you couldn’t both be with them at once, refusing to rely primarily on a nanny, but sometimes you’d leave them to Katherine or other family members when you really craved a vacation.
You'd stayed in a private oceanfront cottage, tucked away among lush tropical gardens draped in bougainvillea, right beside the edge of a small crescent beach. Unbelievably, your exact location was cut off from absolutely everybody. It had been just the two of you, and for once it felt like you were semi-reliving your honeymoon in '81. You spent your stay swimming, messing around, singing, skinny-dipping, making sweet love at all hours of the day... Never had you both felt such freedom before. Unfortunately Michael couldn’t be out too long in direct sunlight, due to his lupus and vitiligo, so the hottest hours of the day were spent with him ploughing you into the mattress—or sometimes in the shade of a tree—before you’d enjoy evening walks and night swims later on. It was all so serene.
But tonight you were back to reality, and the extent of it swarmed around you the moment you'd stepped off your private jet, before the gala had even started.
Now, while you dealt with the exhausted ache running through your limbs and your bloodstream—the ache that told you how desperately you needed to catch up on sleep—another kind of ache ran deeper, pressing at you more insistently. Earlier, sitting by each other's sides at the ceremony, Michael's hand had traced circles up and down your inner thigh beneath the table, and with a few whispered lines back and forth you'd clarified together that tonight you wished to make love until the break of dawn. The kids would still be at Hayvenhurst until tomorrow morning, so you had all the privileges of an empty house. And you’d probably doze off after the first two rounds, because even one earth-shattering orgasm from Michael could send you to sleep as quickly as a lullaby could to a newborn, but the arousal coursing through your veins proved that at least the intention to go at it all night was accurate.
That was all you could think about as you stepped through the crowd, pressed against your lover's side, stiletto heels hitting the sidewalk. You were wearing a metallic olive-gold mini dress, and Michael had intentionally coordinated, where he sported a black suit embroidered with a thin pattern the same shade as your olive. His classic aviators sat on the bridge of his nose, shielding his pretty eyes from the crowd, saving the seraphic sight for only one lady later that night.
Michael was smiling at everybody—a smile much more genuine than yours, although you knew he hated this as much as you did. His approach when it came to addressing paparazzi was that as long as they weren't pushing and shoving, hurling abuse, or getting too close, he had no particular issue. He understood that it was their job, and while he'd rather his public life not have to be this way, reality ensured that unfortunately, there was no other option. Since childhood, you had both lived this anarchic, tumultuous lifestyle together, but it never felt any less oppressive. Michael was just better at staying calm. Moreover, he believed that one had to go through distress and bother to truly experience gratitude for the good; and upon knowing exactly what he would be getting up to with his girl after arriving home, he identified tonight as a great example of that philosophy.
Except, all of that optimism dissipated very suddenly, when a moment occurred that woke up the primal instincts belonging to the man with the soft demeanour and the sweet smile. Because just as you had almost been sure to declare yourself done with the seemingly-never-ending street of paparazzi, you felt a sudden, aggressive squeeze on your behind, followed by a sharp smack.
Immediately, you felt dizzy, the assault shocking your sensory apparatus and inducing a feeling of nausea. It had been a long time since something like this had happened to you—whereby it used to happen a lot in the early days of your career, a young woman constantly the object of disgusting men loving to take advantage—and sustaining that safety streak since had been largely thanks to Michael, who never let go of you wherever you went. When you went out alone, he always made sure you had not only your bodyguard close by, but his too.
A man shouted from somewhere behind you, his tone playful, but in the deliberately dominant, hostile manner that demanded the subjected woman to turn and give him what he wanted. "Hey, honey, why aren't you lookin' at us? We all know you ain’t shy!"
You half-wanted to turn, but you truly thought you were about to throw up, and that the sight of his sneering face might actually trigger regurgitation. At the assault and at the sound of his voice, you grabbed Michael's hand tighter. He felt the squeeze just as he'd registered what the man behind you had said, and immediately he bit the inside of his cheek, jaw flaring. Men often did call out at you that way, and he hated that he had to let it slide for the sake of his positive image. His hold on your waist tightened, and he considered retorting, but the reason he didn't lash out instantly was that he had no idea what the man had done to you physically.
"Almost there now, baby," he leaned over to whisper in your ear, pressing a kiss to your cheek. The press were still shouting the same repetitive intrusive questions that they'd started with upon your exit from the event, therefore it was no wonder that amidst the noise Michael hadn't noticed the vile action that had taken place just moments prior.
Beneath the chaos, you heard a sweet lady's voice—unfamiliar, but it was a nice break from the masculine aggression surrounding you. "Hey, are you okay?! I saw that man touch your—"
And then you heard a teenage girl beside her ask the same thing—although you hadn't a clue how they'd managed to get past all those domineering men.
You faked a smile to respond to their concern, unable to do anything other than conceal your anxiety, because Michael always kept you so protected that in a moment like this you felt incredibly submissive and unable to fight back with anything—not even words. You couldn't fault your husband for being so protective, but it just meant that naturally your nervous system couldn't deal very well with the shock whenever something did happen.
And now, Michael heard exactly what the lady said, as well as what the young girl had reiterated beside her. His heart skipped a beat.
"What are they talkin' about, angel?"
His words were muffled beside you—not in reality, but through your perception, because all you could focus on was how you were still somehow not in sight of Bill's limo yet, and the man who'd groped you was coming closer again.
"Honey," Michael said, his tone raised louder, arm still settled as an anchor around your waist, slender fingers continuing to ground you as much as they could in such an awful moment as this.
You looked at him, and a tear threatened to spill. But even without the liquid's exit from your orbs, Michael knew something was seriously wrong. The emotion hidden behind his aviators was threatening to be veiled no more.
"Did he touch you?" he asked into your ear, anger already lacing through his words because he could already surmise that his assumption was correct.
You bit your lip and nodded, taking a deep breath before looking ahead again, and smiling for a few more photos. God, you hated these people.
Michael kissed your cheek, then cupped your jaw to bring your attention back to him, and again he murmured in your ear. "Which one, baby?"
"I don't know, Mikey, I didn't turn back."
More shouts filled the limited space around you; from ahead, from the sides, and behind. "Sweetheart, we need one more! Give us your best!"
You were no longer in the mood for even the slightest fake smile. You were an object for their own economic and authoritative benefit, where they lived on the assumption that you'd always give them whatever they asked. It bothered you extremely that you had to play into it, and there had been enough obligation on your part for one night. So, now you looked only at Michael, and in your peripheral you finally caught sight of the limo you'd soon take refuge in.
As you focused on your husband, you noticed he was looking around, his expression largely unclear with the obscurity of his eyes, but he looked like he meant business. You realised that he must have been looking for the man who'd assaulted you, while Bill was tapping him on the shoulder incessantly, trying to get his attention about something. In all the disarray, you'd forgotten Michael's bodyguard was even there. All you’d been thinking about was his vehicle you yearned to be whisked away in.
But Michael waved him off. Surely he wouldn’t be able to find the exact man given the fact that neither of you had seen who it was, but what he did encounter was a sleazy guy in a suit, sneering at the two of you as he snapped more pictures. Indeed, it had been him—so very amused by how he'd managed to irk Michael to the point that he'd turned to face his camera head-on, achieving the most valuable shot of them all.
Yet, the man couldn't have predicted what came next of the calm-mannered celebrity before him.
"Hey, what the fuck do you think you're doin'?" Michael shouted, jaw held even tighter than the hold he had on you. "It was you, huh?"
You took another deep, shaky breath. Michael hardly ever got like this, and when you were the focus point of such anger, it was hard to provoke him to snap out of it. For a man that dealt with so much suffering constantly, in all areas of life, it was a surprise that his only weakness was you. The world had never even seen Michael Jackson so much as curse.
"Aw, what was me, Jacko?"
That really got him. Immediately Michael lunged, taking the bait even though he always knew that was exactly what they wanted.
"Michael," Bill warned gravely, taking sharp hold of his wrist to bring him back to earth. Luckily, he'd intervened before the man had been on the receiving end of Michael's fist, or before the camera had been smashed into pieces.
"Don't touch my wife ever again, I swear." Michael's voice had dropped several tones, now partially removed from his soft-spoken nature as he snapped at the man before him, ditching the sweet cadence for one of more assertion and depth. "She's not a piece of meat."
"Sure looks like it, though, right?" The guy continued to snarl, trying to provoke him even more, but while Michael opened his mouth to give in yet again, Bill thrusted him forward with a necessary force.
"You really can't be doing that, you know, Mike," he murmured into his ear.
"Michael," you gasped, rubbing your thumb over his knuckles to try to ground yourself. "I was fine, baby, you didn't need to say anything."
He shook his head. "No, I did need to. Can't let 'em think they can walk all over us, angel. C'mon, we're here now."
Finally, you'd reached the shiny black stretch limousine. Bill opened the door for the two of you, and you both slid into the backseat, Michael ushering for you to go first. Bill then checked on you to make sure you were alright, and ensured to investigate the situation tomorrow.
"Baby, why aren't the windows dimmed?" you asked as you settled into your seat. The cameras were now closing in on the car, housing every inch of the reflective space, and you felt suffocated, still reeling from the effects of what had happened. Not only had you been sexually assaulted, but Michael would be getting even more abuse than usual now, due to his 'inappropriate' response. You tried not to think about it, to calm down instead.
"I don't know, honey," Michael replied softly, his gentle tone having returned so seamlessly. "But we'll pass 'em all soon. C'mere—on my lap, angel."
Without needing to be told twice, you scooted over to your husband, sitting sideways on him, and eagerly snuggling into his warm chest. The beautiful, intimately familiar scent of Bal à Versailles wreathed through your senses, the notes of patchouli, incense and sandalwood intwining with vanilla-musk acting as a literal sedative for your overwhelm and anxiety.
"Hey, mama," Michael whispered, wrapping his arms tight around your waist and rocking you gently in his hold as you clung to him. "You're okay now, beautiful. Safe w'me..."
"Thank you, my love." You kissed a sliver of skin where the suit jacket slightly revealed his chest. "I hate how they treat me like a fucking object."
"I know," he murmured, smothering little kisses all over your face. "There was no way I was gonna let 'm get away with that. You tell me if anything ever happens again, alright? If anyone touches you in any way, talk to me about it, baby."
"Mhm," you hummed into his chest, not wanting to think about the possibility of that sort of thing happening again, even though you knew you were the prime prey for those disgusting men adjacent to the industry, or within it.
"Pretty dove," Michael muttered against the crown of your head, now holding up your chin with two fingers. Then he returned to kissing your warm forehead, warm from the heat of the gala and the stress of the attack. He remembered that you'd both intended to have a night of lovemaking, but now he expected that you were no longer interested, given that you'd just been through sexual violation.
"Y'not in the mood no more, princess? When we get back, we can just go to sleep. Whatever y' want..." He smiled reassuringly, making certain that you understood he didn't at all expect sex from you tonight.
But you were still interested in the plans you'd made. The only way to take your mind off the revolting invasiveness was to replace the memory of that man's touch with the contemporary presence of your own man's sweet, adoring touch instead.
"No, I need a distraction, honey. Need you..." you whispered quietly, and enveloped your fingers in his. As if on instinct, Michael brought your hand up to his lips and warmed the knuckles with his kiss.
"Alright mama, y'just tell me how y'want it. Always want my girl comfortable."
"I'm never uncomfortable with you, Mikey," you smiled, curling up into him even closer. "I love you," you spoke against the fabric of his suit, "I don't know what I'd do without you."
"We couldn't ever live without each other," Michael said sincerely, with a small smile as he kissed your nose now. His lips couldn't seem to leave you alone, and you hadn't even made it into the house yet, let alone the bedroom.
The car suddenly dragged over a speed bump, and it triggered your body to knock against him a little. Michael's hand instantly moved to cradle your head, with his arm tightening its grip on you, smoothing his free hand over your bare thigh beneath your mini dress.
"I need to forget about that disgusting freak's hand," you sighed.
Michael rubbed with a little more pressure over your ass and your thigh, up and down to soothe. The environment in the limo was placid, gentle-natured, a sharp distinction from what had just passed.
"This okay?" Michael whispered, referring to the reassuring movement of his fingers on your leg as he rested his head against yours. "No one touches my wife and gets away with it. Such a goddess, baby... Those shitheads can't keep their hands to themselves..."
"Mm, can't wait to be home, Mikey..." You shuffled a little on his lap, heart fluttering at how protective he was over you. He'd been this way since you were both blossoming into adolescence and a guy at school had taken you out for your first date. Michael did not play when it came to you. That was evident even in the way he elicited curse words solely when in defence of you.
Bored of being unable to see his face in the position you were in, you now moved to straddle his hips. Without asking, you pushed his dark sunglasses up onto his head, because even though he did look so sexy in the aviators, you disliked how they covered his beautiful eyes. "Angel face, lemme see you..."
Michael chuckled, his cheeks flushing a little as you pecked his nose, leaning forward to give him a butterfly kiss between your lashes and his. He made a soft noise of appreciation, an adorable sound that made you giggle, and within seconds you'd entered a makeout session, rocking your hips against his in the backseat.
While your tongues wrestled, you felt his bulge harden beneath his slacks, which only provoked you to writhe over him further. The sweet sound of your moans harmonised together against the wet smack of your mouths, and Michael's minty breath was seriously addictive.
But in your arousal-induced desperation, you'd forgotten all about Bill in the driver's seat.
"Hey, you two be careful back there," he said, startling both of you into finally dragging your faces from each other. "And don't go any further than that, please. For my sake."
You laughed against each other's lips. It was safe to say that unfortunately for Bill, he had seen way too much intimacy from you and Michael. The problem was that you were so obsessed with each other that you often forgot there were other people nearby. That was what always happened every time you performed onstage together too, although sexual chemistry in that context was often encouraged.
You turned your head back to respond with a grin. "We'll be good."
Then you were cupping Michael's cheek and kissing him again, but softly and more PG-friendly this time, after Bill's humorous reminder. Michael's grip around your waist was so tight, ensuring you didn't fall off his lap at any other speed bumps.
You leaned forward to rest your chin on his shoulder, no longer facing him but loving the feel of how his head now rested in the crook of your neck.
"My pretty baby... honeypie..." He whispered syrupy words over your chest, into your cocoa-scented skin. Your hands tangled in his shoulder-length curls, scratching lightly at his scalp, careful with his scarring in mind.
"Sweet angel..." you sighed into the air. "Can't wait to be home..."
Michael only continued to kiss at your neck and collarbone, toying with the hem of your dress where your cleavage was appealingly displayed.
Bill rolled his eyes with a knowing sigh.
"Mikey, he can see us, y'know," you giggled.
"I know, and I'll wait," Michael groaned. "But I just wanna have y' all to myself, mama—right now... Y' curves are killin' me..."
You kissed the top of his head and beamed at his words, stomach fluttering at how he loved on you, but you refused to tease any further until you were home.
"Y'sure you're okay for sex, darlin'?" Michael asked quietly. "I don't wanna press y' or anythin'."
"No, Mikey, don't worry, I told you—I just need to forget about what happened."
"Yeah, well, I'm not gonna forget about it. Tomorrow mornin' 'm gettin' my entourage to go over those tapes and the pictures, and we're findin' out the name of the man who did that to you. It won't be hard, considerin' they took about a million photos out there.”
"Thank you, baby," you sighed into his curls, but shuffling on his lap accidentally, and therefore eliciting a groan from his throat.
"You alright there?" you laughed, subtly rocking again—even though you knew you shouldn't.
"I'm great, honey." Michael smirked against your chest, biting his lip, before starting to kiss and suck up and down your neck again. "Gonna take such good care of my lady... soon as we get into our bedroom…”
You hummed airily.
"How'd y'want it, mama? 's your night, tell me..."
In truth, it was always your night where Michael was concerned. Everything he did was with you in mind.
You laughed in his ear. "Can't decide if I want it hard 'n fast or slow 'n deep."
"Well, how about we mix the two together, huh?" He gripped your asscheek with one hand, the other still tight on your waist.
You gasped, reaching your arm down immediately to smack his hand away. "Michael!" Bill's comment really hadn't deterred him at all.
He gently pushed your head backward so that you were now facing him as he looked up at you. "Dollface!" he teased.
You rolled your eyes, unable to do anything but smile. And then swiftly, Michael repositioned you back to resting sideways across his lap, curled into him. You yelped happily, purring against his chest, wrapping your arms around his neck like a koala. "Mikey..."
His hands continued to caress all over you, doting on every inch of your body that he could reach. One hand tugged softly at where your dress kept riding up your thighs. You felt so safe in his arms, he your anchor.
Finally, Bill pulled up at your mansion. "Alright, we're here now, lovebirds."
"Yay," you giggled against Michael, trying to prevent a yawn from slipping out, because then he'd instruct you to sleep instead. You only half-managed to prevent it, but he didn't notice, too busy angling your figure, preparing to bring you inside in a bridal carry.
It always felt heavenly when he carried you, for it was so easy to get lost in his touch, that touch which inherently possessed the safety he provided just for you.
"Thanks, Bill! G’night!" Michael called back as he headed to the front door, swaying your pretty body in his arms while you smiled.
"Yeah, bye, Bill!" you sung too, trying to crane your neck to see him, but you were nestled perfectly into Michael's chest.
You had almost forgotten entirely about what happened earlier, but of course the weight of the assault still lingered in your mind, and you knew that tonight Michael would do his utmost to truly distract you. He also wouldn't stop at mere distraction—he had to ensure you felt entirely comfortable, that you wouldn't be going to sleep that night with any anxiety.
Entering the door and into the lounge, Michael set you down on the floor, watching as you bent over for him, pretending to look for a piece of jewellery. You laughed, syrupy sweet, arching your back as you hiked your dress up to your hips, revealing a lace black thong.
Michael stood there stunned, lip between his teeth, wondering if he should just take you then and there. He loved to have sex while standing, and you looked so fucking pretty in your tight mini that had you half-naked now.
"Come get me, baby," you grinned, slowly pulling down the straps from your shoulders so that they hung loosely. "Don't just stop and stare."
Michael didn't wait a moment more to step forward. He stood behind you, his aching cock pressed up against your ass through his slacks, hands squeezing the supple skin of your lower curves.
"Want me to come get ya, huh?"
"Mmhmm," you whined, even more in the mood now. You reached one hand back to stroke his clothed shaft, gripping sensually. "Mikey, you're so hard for me..."
"Yeah, can you blame me, sweetheart?"
"Nope," you laughed, knowing exactly how sexy you were—especially in that dress. The colour complimented you so much, and the tightness of the fabric accentuated every perfect feature of your body.
You spun around, and Michael hooked his arms beneath your thighs, picking you up again so that your arms and legs wrapped around his strong physique. You didn't even get a chance to look at each other properly before your lips collided, amalgamating into a messy smash of saliva, tongues dancing. You whined in his mouth as he groaned into yours, now rushing up the staircase with you held tightly against the warmth of him.
You kicked your heels off while in his arms, the sound a loud clatter against the marble, and it was a good thing none of his entourage were here tonight, like they were whenever you stayed in hotels. It was always a loud night between the two of you, and during your vacation you hadn't had anyone to disturb. Now life was back to normal, and when your husband would continue the Bad world tour next week, unfortunately working for Michael Jackson meant hearing every devoted noise of passion as he made love to his wife each night they had the privilege of being together. Your careers and lives as parents meant that sometimes weeks or months would go by where you couldn't achieve a perfect night, so when you did get an opportunity, you used the hell out of it.
The master bedroom sprawled across nearly half a floor, more private penthouse than sleeping quarters. Cream-coloured marble gleamed beneath pools of warm lamplight, combining with the gold accents scattered through the room. A massive platform bed dominated the centre, draped in ivory silk sheets and crowned by a towering padded headboard upholstered in champagne suede. Floor-to-ceiling windows wrapped around one side of the suite, exposing a glittering ocean of stars beyond.
Michael dropped you onto the bed with desperate force, though still with a gentleness somehow. You turned on all fours and arched your back for him, displaying the divine curves of your ass, olive-gold material decorating your torso and ending at your hips. You moaned softly as you arched, intending to tease.
"Aw, honey... You wan' it like this, yeah?" Michael asked, assuming you were initiating backshots.
You shook your head. "No, I'm just teasing ya, Mikey... Want you on top of me."
So you crawled up to the top of the huge bed, tugging down your panties, the soaked fabric almost fully clinging to your puffy folds. With a smirk, you threw the panties in his direction, where he now kneeled in front of you, and immediately they went in the pocket of his slacks.
"Such a perv, baby," you teased, spreading your legs wide and reaching down to rub your aching clit. Your breasts were literally spilling out of your tiny dress, the material virtually useless now, but you knew Michael enjoyed it when you looked as slutty as possible. He had countless polaroids and tapes of you half-naked, cleavage accentuated, head thrown back in pleasure—in some ways it aroused him more than seeing you fully nude.
Michael shook his head with a chuckle, in disbelief at how lucky he was to have you. And then before you knew it, he was settled between your legs, arms hooked around your thighs as he gazed at his pretty prize.
"Aw, mama..." he moaned, prodding at your entrance with his thumb, before beginning to rub it up and down your dripping slit. "Perfect pussy, baby. All for me, no one else..."
"Need your mouth, handsome," you sighed, one hand moving to wreathe your fingers through his thick hair as you shut your eyes, ready to embrace the pleasure.
"Be patient, angel," Michael whispered against your skin, before pressing his tongue flat against your cunt, dragging it upward in one clean swipe.
"Oh—"
"Yeah, I know, baby love, I know…” He continued to lap at your centre, smothering your pussy in his licks and kisses as he moaned and grunted.
“Michael—fingers, please—fuck, oh—” you gasped and moaned as you writhed over the sheets, the wetness of his tongue providing you the most perfect sensation.
The wet squelching sounds that filled the large room were filthy, while he ate you like a man starved. And then he slipped in two fingers, slowly, and your eyes clamped shut, toes curling as he hit your spot with ease. Onstage you’d watch from the sidelines as he would make thrusting motions with his fingers, and you knew it was how he felt the music, but it never failed to make you insanely horny. And what made things even better was that you knew how much those sort of movements had girls all over the world going crazy, while really their idol only had eyes for you. It was only you who would experience the talent of those beautiful hands.
“Yeah, like this, mama?” Michael murmured against your clit as he sucked the sensitive nerves into his passionate mouth, doing so while continuing to hit your spot with every thrust of his two digits.
“Mhm, just like that, baby…” you sighed, gripping the strands of his curls but again being careful not to do so over where he’d been scarred. “Oh, I love you, honey…”
“I love y’ too, baby girl… my beautiful wife,” he said into your folds, licking side to side against the soft flesh, fingers plunging into your walls. Michael was so incredibly talented in the bedroom—no man could possibly compare. Every little action of his was perfection. Oh, how grateful you were to have the privilege of calling him your husband.
It wasn’t long before you reached your first orgasm, followed by Michael kissing all over your thighs, continuing to press suctioned licks to your cunt as you came down from your high. Michael adored foreplay—he’d happily live in it forever, but at the same time he yearned to be inside you, to feel your tight walls squeeze and overwhelm his thick cock that was pulsing with need. He had incredible stamina, so you could go all night whenever you wished.
After viewing the beautiful sight of your man shedding his clothes, he pushed into you so slowly, caging your body with his to make you feel his utmost protection. One hand cradled your face, the warmth adding to the stimulation of down below, and the other hand kneaded your breast that he pulled out of your dress as he began to thrust.
“Baby, you’re so big—” you whined, always finding it difficult to initially adjust to the stretch of his girth, and the fat head of his cock pressing insistently within you.
“I know, pretty angel, but you’re takin’ me so well, like y’always do,” Michael whispered, rubbing one thumb over your cheek and his other over your extremely sensitive nipple, making you cry out. “Yeah, that feels good, sweet girl?”
“So good, baby…”
Michael’s pretty curls were splayed everywhere now, sexy strands dipping into his eyes and adorning the side of his face. You cupped his cheek too, staring into his eyes as he delivered the most passionate, achingly slow thrusts.
“Wanna give it to y’ slow 'n deep tonight, mama, is that okay? Need t’ make love to my baby all night… Don’t wanna stop ‘til the sun comes up…”
“Mhm, yes Mikey, don’t stop—this is perfect, baby…” You locked your legs around his torso, attempting to provoke his cock to nudge deeper into your womb.
“Don’t stop ‘til you get enough,” he laughed, and you smacked his arm playfully, a giggle protruding from your throat with another moan.
“Oh, you’d never get enough.”
“No way,” he shook his head with a grin, before leaning his head onto yours, gazing deeply into your eyes. “Y’so beautiful, my angel girl… Love feelin’ y’ squeeze me.”
Each line was punctuated with a deep thrust, the perfect slow strokes sending your eyes rolling into the back of your head each time he delivered another.
“Mm, thank you for tonight, baby,” you murmured, kissing his nose. His hips continued to snap into you, pounding your sweet spot with every slow drag. “Y’take such good care of me.”
“Always, princess,” he hummed under his breath, before speaking with clear sincerity, never letting up the sensual thrust of his hips. “You’re my lady. My precious goddess—you’re the most special thing that exists in my life.”
“Oh, angel…” you cried out, feeling your second orgasm approaching already. “Faster, please, baby…”
So Michael sped up, hitting your core with slightly more aggression now, born of the overwhelming emotions of passion felt within. Accompanying these faster strokes, he continued to talk to you.
“You’re always safe w’me, babydoll. Always in my arms, in our bed at the end of the night…”
You gripped at his shoulders, switching between that and raking your nails along the plane of his upper back.
“Grabbing at me like an animal, honey… Feels that good, huh?”
You nodded, but he didn’t see because his head was pressed against yours.
“Hm? Tell me, pretty baby.”
“Can’t—Mikey, 'm gonna—nnghh—cum—” you whined loudly, literally unable to form a coherent sentence because the pleasure was just too much.
Michael chuckled in your ear, a deep, warm sound, and it almost sent you over the edge. “Love makin’ you cum, mama, wanna do it over and over again… Put all my babies in you…”
“Angelface,” you smiled amidst another throaty moan.
“Don’t call me that,” he giggled shyly, trying to stay in control as his hips thrusted even harder. “You’re the one who came from heaven, honey.”
“Shh, Mikey, maybe we came down together,” you whispered, caressing the soft skin of his cheek. “Whatever helps you to listen to me. Mm—thank you for always taking care of me… Oh, baby, I’m gonna—”
“That’s alright, princess,” Michael cooed in your ear, speeding up his pace to meet what you craved. “I’ll get ya there. Oh, mama, y’so tight, 'm not gonna last much longer…”
And then your climax hit you, overwhelmingly so.
“Michael, oh!”
It was too much all at once—his honeyed voice, each deep thrust of his cock, his hand cradling your face and your breasts… The coil in your abdomen came undone, pleasure coursing through your veins as you shuddered through your orgasm.
“Shhh, that’s it…” Michael talked you through it, pounding you as hard as ever now. He’d ended up giving it to you both slow and fast as he’d intended to earlier, and it was the most perfect feeling. No matter the pace, Michael gave you his all.
“Oh, sweetheart, fuck, 'm gonna cu—oh—”
Another thing about your man was that he was incredibly vocal, exactly as he was onstage. In fact, the performance of his hips mirrored his onstage skill too, so in all respects he was a true performer in the bedroom.
As he writhed through his orgasm, torso pressed to yours, your bloodstream seemed to be infused with ecstasy. Those pretty sounds that spilled from his lips, the sweat from his forehead dripping into your hair, the erratic thrusts as he came down, the feel of his hot seed shooting in messy spurts directly into your womb… Sex with your husband had to be the single most beautiful thing on earth.
You weren’t even on the pill currently, but that didn’t matter, because since the seventies Michael had wanted eighteen children, and while that number was certifiably insane, you would give him as many as your body could handle, once your careers mellowed. He was never forceful about breeding you—he just adored you so much and loved to watch you carry and bear his kids. And of course, he was also insanely enamoured by the feeling and the sight of filling you up with his fertility. He loved to see your pretty cunt dripping with his pearly-white cum.
That same desire was how you’d ended up with three, despite being in the busiest decade of your lives. And if the two of you hadn’t been world-famous popstars, you truly would’ve had an entire football team of kids by now. Three was a tiny number compared to what Michael dreamed of, but it was all you could manage given that you were both in the prime of your careers.
Despite how confident Michael was sexually, he always grew so shy afterward, burying his head into your neck and interlacing his fingers with yours if they weren’t already; all the while refusing to look at you. Although, he couldn’t have been that modest, because his softening cock still filled you to the brim.
You stroked his hair soothingly, breathing in his gorgeous scent as he pressed kisses all over your neck and the side of your face.
When he lifted his head to kiss your earlobe, you squeezed his cheeks in one hand and dragged his face to yours. “Look at me, handsome. Stop hiding away like you’re shy or somethin’. You always do this.”
Michael flushed, grinning bashfully. “Wha’s that perfume you got on, baby?”
“It’s Poison,” you giggled. “By Dior.”
He nodded, taking a deep breath and settling a little downward to lay into your neck and chest, inhaling the rich scent of plum, tuberose and spice clinging to the dress that you were still scarcely clad in, below where your breasts had been dragged out of the fabric by him earlier.
“Suits y’, honey. Just magical…” His voice trailed off as he hummed the words into your skin, his usual post-sex whimsicality breaking through the persona he reserved for the stage and the bedroom. “Y’wanna watch some cartoons?”
“Of course, baby,” you chuckled, kissing his pretty head. His stamina was amazing, but there were often times like tonight where he grew so sleepy and soft after lovemaking, especially when he was worn out to begin with. And you really needed to catch up on sleep—you both did—but if your sweetheart wanted to stay up watching cartoons after giving you two orgasms in a row, you would accompany him happily.
Now he smiled with glee, nipping at your neck and your breasts. “Not done yet though, my love… Still need t’ make love t’ you some more… 'til dawn breaks through these windows…”
Speaking of those floor-to-ceiling windows, if anyone had been looking, they’d have seen pretty much everything. It was lucky you lived in a secluded area in Beverly Hills, but that still didn’t stop you from risking becoming accidental exhibitionists.
“Mikey, I love you, pretty boy…”
You knew how much he cherished being spoken to in that way when he was at his softest, essentially asking to be babied in your arms. Earlier he had been the dominant one, but moments of beautiful vulnerability like these were a huge part of your relationship too. Not only did Michael crave the feeling of being cared for so gently, but you thoroughly believed it was what he deserved.
He suffered through so much, never experiencing any real peace when not with you—and even with you sometimes the outside world made it difficult—so in your quietest alone time you made sure that boy felt so loved. Of course you would stay up until dawn with him to watch cartoons and make love, because you knew that even while he wouldn’t burden you by admitting so, he struggled terribly with sleep and suffered with chronic stress—especially as tour was about to begin again.
“You want me to put on Mickey or somethin’?” you asked him, combing your manicured nails through his mass of curls.
“Yeah,” he hummed. “Uh, the Disney LaserDisc. Mickey and the Beanstalk.”
You laughed quietly, cradling his soft, defined jaw. “You’re asking me to go over there and turn on a Disney cartoon while I’m dressed like a slut? Honey, y’haven’t even pulled out of me yet.”
“You’re not a slut—don’t call yourself that,” Michael murmured against one of your breasts.
“I didn’t say I was one. I said I’m dressed like one,” you corrected playfully, scratching lightly up and down his bare back.
A few moments of silence passed, and you thought Michael might’ve dozed off, but no—he was still wide awake, enjoying the innate peace exuding from your body.
“Michael.”
“Yeah?”
“Are you gonna pull out, or…?”
“I thought y’liked me to stay like this,” he muttered drowsily, so adorable pressed into your chest.
“I do, baby. But you’re asking me to turn on a cartoon and I can’t exactly do that from here.”
“Okay, whatever. Forget Mickey, 'm stayin’ just like this…”
You chuckled, sighing in content. He was all over you, body caging yours; genitalia intwined, cum drilled deep and seeping out onto the sheets in slow drops. You’d love another round, but if your beautiful boy could fall asleep on you right here, completely merged with you, you’d feel more glad than ever. All you could do now was attempt to send him off to sleep, cuddling him so close and whispering sweet words the way he always did to you. That’s what made your marriage work so well, even in the face of the inevitable setbacks—because you each knew when the other needed to be loved on, and you also knew exactly what was necessary to fulfil such a need. The last two hours had been the most admirable example of that dynamic.
hiii! this is my first michael fic within my series. feedback is appreciated, mwah ♥︎
If you don’t like the terms of endearment people use in the stories they write you are more than welcome to write your own… or shut the fuck up. “Mama” has been used as a term of endearment since the 70’s, you know one of the decades Michael Jackson was popular…
How you gonna ask writers to stop using it and then use it in your argument as to why it shouldn’t be used? I’m starting to feel like some of yall are not like us…..
— SUMMARY: After 6 months of being together, Michael decides that tonight’s the perfect time to ask for just one anniversary gift; he wants you to start controlling him in the bedroom.
— WARNINGS: sub!mike, needy!mike, lots of tension, body worship, size kink, angst (if you look through a microscope), dumbification (kinda…?), face sitting, oral (f receiving), mike has a big dick, handjob, choking, unprotected p in v, nipple play, dacryphilia, no use of ‘y/n’, mean!dom reader, use of mommy (kinda), use of ma’am, mike is kinda pussy drunk, timestamps are unimportant, kinda slow burn, gets kinda fluffy at the end, implied aftercare.
— WC: 5.1k (I got carried away…)
— A/N: The winner of this poll. I fs got carried away lmaooo. Like, comment, n reblog! And don’t be shy to flood my asks, i don’t bite..always.
It wasn’t even noticeable at first. Well, not really, until you connected every small instance like one huge puzzle. A particularly suggestive flutter of his eyelashes, a nearly crimson blush on his cheeks whenever you praised him for anything. Then, there was that one time when you called yourself ‘mommy’ as a joke.
You’d just arrived home from your 4-month anniversary dinner date. Your feet were aching; clad in a pair of deep red 8-inch pumps that Michael practically begged you to wear. “I think it’s sexy that you’re taller than me in those heels. Your legs look extra long and beautiful. Please m-, baby? Please, wear them.” That just about undid you.
You’d started regretting letting him sway you like that, though, because you swore that with every step, you could feel a new callous forming on your pinky toe.
“Come help mommy take these things off, baby.” It was said so casually, because it was. Yet, his reaction had you thinking you’d said something offensive. He’d just finished taking off his own loafers, one knee on the floor. He nearly toppled all the way over, and he looked up at you with this almost pained expression. You could’ve sworn you saw tears welling up in his eyes.
“Oh, I’m sorry. I didn’t mean to sound so direct. It’s probably the wine…I’ll take them off mys–” He’d waved off your thought with his left hand, cleared his throat, and mumbled something along the lines of “…seriously driving me insane” under his breath, but it sounded lighthearted enough for you not to question him further. The two of you had your best sex yet that night.
Last week, though? It got to a point where Michael damn near made you lose your mind. You put on a pair of jeans that were slightly too long, and you didn’t have time to get them hemmed, so you asked your boyfriend to cuff the bottoms for you, playfully pretending to press your stiletto onto his chest while he knelt down.
“Yes ma’am,” he responded earnestly. He looked up at you while he said it, eyes glazed over with sparkles and something else you couldn’t quite place. There was a faint, crooked smile playing on his lips. One that read: I’m right where I want to be. He clasped his hands behind his back and bowed his head like he was in the presence of royalty, then continued on with the task.
Really, it was a very quick exchange. Almost even casual; you just so happened to remember every aspect of it because it ruined you and your panties for the next two days.
That’s what’d been on your mind all afternoon. The two of you decided to spend your 6-month anniversary at a beachfront resort. Michael rented the whole thing out nearly two months in advance, your display of subtle dominance on your 4-month anniversary influencing the idea. He had a plan, and all he needed to do was gather up the confidence to act upon it.
You two took a series of photos on the digital camera he gifted you, involving various activities; a photo of you eating the breakfast he cooked the two of you in your suite’s kitchen, one of him almost missing his step on the jetski he was gonna race you on…One of you towering above him as he adjusted the delicate golden anklet he gave you the day prior, the cursive M glinting in the sunlight. He coughed hysterically to cover up the sound of its shudder, internally chastising himself for forgetting to turn off the sound in its settings.
When you two got home, he seemed overly eager about the evening, his attitude rubbing off on you. The both of you were a giggling mess, and you were completely sober. Just high off of the presence of the other.
The two of you had dinner reservations at 6:30pm, so you decided to shower together to ‘save water’ and time. Michael basically did the showering for the both of you though, making sure to do every step like you would. You’ve showered together enough for him to know your whole routine, and it made your heart swell with warmth, and your thighs unnoticeably squeeze together with want. He even rinsed and dried the both of you, making sure you didn’t lift your pretty fingers to do anything but grip onto his shoulders for balance.
It made you insatiable.
While you put on the finishing touches of your makeup, Michael approached you with a pleading look settled onto his face.
“Does this shirt look weird untucked? Should I button it up some more?”
You turned around, your unset makeup almost plastering onto his black button up. He looked delicious. Your mouth actually got watery at the sight right in front of you. You gulped down your lust, and met his eyes.
“Michael, you look beautiful. Leave it untucked and unbuttoned just like that. Wow.”
He ducked his head slightly, a faint blush crawling up his neck, as he let out a nervous chuckle. For a man so gorgeous, you’d think he’d be used to compliments from his own girlfriend by now.
“Y-you sure? Tonight’s important. I wanna look like we belong together. Like I belong with you.”
It took everything in you not to ruin your dinner plans and prove it to him right there, your hands fighting the urge to push him onto the bed and show him just how pretty you thought he was.
You cleared your throat and answered with a joking, “Michael, I’d swear you have a praise kink or something, because there’s no way you don’t see just how tasty you look right now.”
You turned back to the mirror, powdering up your face and putting on the remainder of your lip combo.
You didn’t notice just how badly Michael was holding it together from that point forward.
The two of you played the rest of the night cool, though. Nothing out of the ordinary, save for Michael fighting off his neediness when you ordered for him because you noticed him get shy, and when you wiped enchilada sauce off of his face, calling him your ‘clumsy baby.’ Or, the instance where you almost dragged him to the bathroom when you asked if he wanted dessert, and looked at you all lovesick with a, “Yes, please.”
He aggressively adjusted his black jeans, not so subtly, after you told him to pick up the napkin he (purposely) dropped. He felt like he was drunk. His nerves and his body were on fire. He started to down the bottle of wine he purchased for the two of you, for liquid courage. You quickly followed suit. It did nothing to help either of your states.
On the walk back to your suite, Michael’s demeanor nearly killed your buzz. He looked terrified.
“Mikey, baby. What’s wrong?” you asked, stepping in front of him and tilting his head up by his chin so he’d look you in your eyes. The heels you wore had you standing taller than him, and, unbeknownst to you, that only made it worse.
“It’s nothin, baby.” he responded, but his voice wasn’t matching his actions.
“Michael, come on, it’s me. What’s going o-”
“I said it’s nothin’,” he cut you off sharply. His voice was loud- too loud- and he wouldn’t look you in the eyes. He grabbed ahold of the hand that you had underneath his chin, and rushed the two of you the rest of the way to the hotel.
You were furious. Concerned by his terror-stricken face, mostly. But, his sharpness with you stirred something inside that you thought you’d buried, only fueled by the ache in your feet from nearly running in stilettos.
As you made it to your room, you pushed past his usually taller frame, and sat down onto the nearest plush chair, bending over to undo the straps of your pumps. You heard the door close with a click and looked up to see Michael rushing his way towards you, trying to stop you from removing them yourself. The two of you had your hands tangled in a mess; his fingers trying to gently push yours off, and yours almost aggressively shoving his.
“Enough, Michael.”
He gulped loudly, seeming almost embarrassed to look at you.
That was almost enough to ease the fire on your lips. Almost.
“Look at me while I’m speaking to you. What happened, and why are you acting so weird towards me?” Your voice quivered on the latter half of your question, insecurity starting to creep its way through your tone. Your cleared your throat and waited for him to speak.
He sighed visibly at the beginning of your monologue. The words affecting him in a way you couldn’t understand.
He continued removing your shoes as he answered, needing something to keep his eyes away from yours, due to the vulnerable truth behind his actions.
“I…” he cleared his throat. “I want you to control me.”
That was not what you were expecting. You waited, scared that you’d misinterpreted the intentions behind his words, hoping he’d expand on it further. By this point, both of your shoes were off, and he was still kneeling in front of your legs, both of his hands opting to massage on one of your aching feet. He still wasn’t looking at you.
“Mike…?” you asked. Your voice slightly deepened with a lust you were fighting so hard to control. You ran your fingers through his hair softly, eliciting a soft whine from his throat. You used the hand in his hair to gently guide his face up to yours. He obeyed your silent command as soon as you slightly tugged, actions already proving that he meant what you thought he did. Your stomach did a flip. The alcohol in your system was making you extremely sensitive to your emotions, everything heightened. Apparently, Michael was going through the same.
“I-I mean. Well look at you…Your legs are so long, ‘n you take care of me so good. You’re so good at telling people what to do and I always wish it was me on the other end of that. I- I think about you doing things to me. Things that I can’t control. I sometimes try ‘n push your buttons just so you can finally snap at me, but you’re so patient, even though your energy is kinda scary, and that somehow drives me even crazier.” The alcohol had him saying quite literally every word that came into his brain. He’d managed to fully massage all the tension from your feet during the rambling. He gave them each a quick peck and set them down gently onto the plush carpet beneath you. Then he sat up on his knees, properly. Both of his hands were placed on his lap like he was preparing for prayer.
“Please, baby. I can’t take it anymore. I want you to use me and control me and take everything I have. I want you to be mean to me and I want you to punish me for being rude earlier. Put me in my place, please. Please, pleasepleaseplease. It’s embarrassing, but I really do want this.” He added the last part after he noticed you weren’t responding, embarrassment and alcohol settling into his bones. He started sniffling, his eyes rimming with tears.
You didn’t say a word. Silently, you stood up, gripping Michael by the collar, dragging his frame up with yours, and then crashed your lips into his. He whimpered loudly. The sound shred the last bit of sanity you had left. The two of you tumbled through the doors that led to your room, his socks being kicked off and your shawl strewn onto the floor on the way there.
You turned him around and shoved him onto the bed forcefully. Michael looked up at you like you held the universe up just for him. Your hands made their way to his shirt first. The opened buttons were driving you crazy all day. You started unbuttoning, but grew impatient, opting to just aggressively pull them apart instead, buttons popping off and flying onto the floor in the act.
Michael was a whimpering mess beneath you, and you hadn’t even touched him properly. His hands were at his sides and his body was rigid. He hadn’t even tried touching you.
“Mikey, baby. You know you can touch me, right?”
“I just wanted your permission first ma- ahem. Baby.”
“What was that?” you questioned, catching his slip-up.
“Nothin’,” Mike said, clearly embarrassed. He tried kissing you after to cover it up, but the alcohol in your system made you not care. You pushed his torso back down onto the bed.
“Don’t lie to me, Michael. I can stop all this right now,” you said sternly.
“I..Uhm. It’s just.. sometimes I kinda wanna call you..mommy…?” He phrased it like a question.
That’s how you ended up the position the two of you were in right now. Him with his head propped up on the spare pillows he requested earlier, and your body propped up on his face, straddling it. Michael was going dumb beneath you, fully letting your core and the alcohol in his veins consume him.
“Mmm, Mikey. I didn’t know you had this in you,” you say with surprise laced into your voice. And it’s true. The two of you had sex a few times, but he usually seemed okay with taking over for you. Only now did you realize that it was more of him servicing you than taking control.
“I’ve always had it in me, m- ah baby,” he says, slightly pushing his head further into the pillow so he can speak.
You grab one of his nipples and pinch it harshly.
“Did I say you could stop? Don’t think I forgot about your little attitude earlier.”
That only turns him on further though, his hips jutting into the air immediately at the rough contact.
“N-no. I’m sor- ah- sorry baby. You’re right. I’ve been s-so bad,” his voice melting into a needy whine on the last word.
“Yeah, so bad. I- mmm- s-should teach you a lesson, shouldn’t I?”
“P-please. Please do whatever you want to me. I’ll make it up to y…ou, mmm.”
In one swift movement, you climb off of his face, and settle your soaking core onto his bare chest. You take your right hand and place it onto his neck with no pressure- yet.
“How sorry are you?” you question, his fucked out face only fueling your actions.
“Really sorry. Sorrier than I can even put into words,” he jumbled out. Not good enough. You give him a slight slap on the face, and then grip onto his neck with more fervor. He moans like it’s his first time being touched sexually.
“That’s it? You’re sooo sorry you can’t even say it?” you scoff at him, playing up your anger just to see him fold beneath your grasp. You begin grinding down hard onto his chest, reveling in this.
“N-no! I mean, yes, b-but, fuck keep using me like that please. I just, I have to show you. Let me show you?” he says, still trying to work your pussy between each word.
“Hmm, go ahead then,” you respond almost immediately, intrigued by his request.
He tenderly grabs onto your thighs and lifts your body up off of his chest, and places you next to him, sliding from the bed in the same movement. Then, he eagerly walks to the foot of the bed and sinks onto his knees, beckoning you toward him with two of his fingers, his twinkling eyes never leaving yours.
“Join me, please?” he asks, voice laced with desire.
You seductively crawl toward him, his body looking meek in this position. You can feel your core drip more at the sight of him. He uncrosses your legs for you, making sure to do all of the work. He’s gonna prove to you just how sorry he is for not being a good boy.
He takes one of your legs and starts to press hot, open-mouthed kisses to every inch of it; from the tips of your toes, to the backs of your knees. His eyes never leave yours. He’s waiting for some sign of approval, a praise, anything that tells him he’s making up for it, but you sit there in shock, staring at the submissive man beneath you. You’re almost too scared to move, afraid that any action or sound will break the spell.
Then he starts to speak. “You’re so beautiful. Your body’s like a painting that only Michelangelo himself could’ve imagined. How could I have been so stupid? You deserve everything. I’m gonna give you everything,” he says between kisses.
“This?” he says, kissing your inner thigh, “I don’t even deserve it. I’m lucky to be able to touch you like this. Lucky ta even see you like this.”
He grabs onto your hips, and looks up at you, pleading.
“M gonna make you feel so good. I promise.”
Michael kisses up the soft skin of your stomach, making sure to save what’s beneath it for last. Then, he makes it to your breasts, and drool dribbles out of his mouth as he speaks.
“I don’t even deserve these,” he says, almost to himself with a sigh. He peppers kisses to the undersides of them, teasing his way up to your erect nipples. Then, he takes one into his mouth, suckling like a man starved. You nearly scream from pleasure at the contact, causing Michael to look up with worry, only for him to see your blissed expression. He grabs your other nipple and rolls it between his fingers, still holding eye contact with you.
“F-fuck Michael, that’s it baby. Just like that.”
He switches his ministrations to your next nipple, replacing his mouth with his hand, and his hand with his mouth. He starts whimpering louder and louder with each gasp you take, your arousal fueling his tenfold. You feel high. You try clamping your legs together, but his lanky body is blocking you from doing so, eliciting a whine from your lips. He notices this. He notices everything. He removes the hand from your nipple and immediately starts rubbing languid, deep circles on your clit. You let out a loud moan straight from your diaphragm, internally thanking Michael for renting the whole resort out for the two of you.
Michael’s lips detach from your tit with a pop. “You like this?” he questions genuinely, wanting to be good for you.
“Mike- fuck- yes! L-love it! So good!” You can barely even think properly, your mind only focused on how his long fingers work your clit with ease.
“Mmm,” he responds, not fully satisfied with himself. He doesn’t want you to love it. He wants you to crave it.
He gets up and straddles your waist, fingers still slowly rubbing your clit, searching your neck for its sweet spot with his lips. When you buck your core into his hand at a particular area, he starts licking and biting on it, hungrily inhaling the perfume on your neck in the process.
“You-ngh. You smell so sweet. Did you wear my favorite perfume for me?” he asks, a wave of gratitude crashing onto him.
“Y-yes Mike. Come on- more. I need more. Give me more.” You’re desperate now. You have half a mind not to start fucking yourself on his fingers right there, but he’s one step ahead.
His fingers slide straight into your pussy, and your walls clenched around them immediately, not expecting the intrusion so suddenly. Your back arches up off the bed, lifting both of you in the process.
“M sorry. I’m gonna get you there baby. I promise.” Without another word, he carefully slides back down your frame, and starts suckling at your clit like he’s tasting ice cream for the first time ever, his fingers still curling and pumping in and out of you. Your eyes start to water.
“Ohhhh my- fuuuuuck. Mikeyyy, baby mmm. S-shit. I feel sososo good. So good. You’re so good to me baby. My perfect- ah. My perfect angel. S-so pretty on your knees for me.” You smile at him weakly and squeeze his head in between your thighs forcefully, grinding yourself onto his mouth and nose. The dichotomy is giving him whiplash.
The praise that you give Michael is driving him halfway insane. He moans erotically into your squelching pussy, pumping his fingers into you faster and harsher, squeezing his thighs together for his own relief. The sight of you using him like this is making his brain go numb, the only thing on his mind is making up for his behavior earlier. Making sure you’re feeling good.
Your legs start to shake uncontrollably now, a telltale sign of your orgasm approaching.
This fuels Michael further.
“Please cum on my face. I wanna taste it, ma.”
You almost do it on the spot, but you have other plans. You lightly kick his face from between your legs and his mouth detaches from your pussy loudly. He looks at you confused, his face glistening with your arousal.
“I’m sorry. Did I do something wro-” You interrupt him by slamming your lips onto his, the force of it pushing his torso onto the floor. You moan at the taste of yourself on his mouth, your tongue searching for his in the process. You break the kiss and lean into his ear with a seductive whisper. “I want to fuck you, Michael.”
His entire body goes rigid and he gasps loudly. You palm him through his jeans, feeling his dick straining against the black fabric. He sucks in a sharp breath, wanting so desperately for more friction, while simultaneously wanting to show you he can be good.
“Ohhh, were you this hard all this time, baby?” you coo at him, loving how the condescending tone in your words feels.
“A-ah yes. I just wanted you to feel good,” he replies between choked breaths, seemingly trying not to pass out. He loves how dumb you’re making him feel.
“Aww my good boy, you did so well for me. I think it’s time for us to both feel good together, hmm?” you ask him, eager for his response. He looks so pretty like this, and his whimpers sound even prettier.
“O-only if that’s what you want. Ngh- everything’s your choice. Everything, everything,” he slurs out, already losing his grasp on reality due to the way you’re speaking to him and the way you rub hungrily against his clothed erection.
You unzip his jeans faster than he can even process and pulled them down off his legs along with his boxers, his leaking erection slapping against his abdomen harshly.
“Look at me,” you command him. He obeys without a second thought.
You take your pretty manicured hands and begin to jerk him off slowly, enjoying the way he tries not to grind up into your hands because he’s your good boy.
You speed up your actions faster, faster, faster, until you see Michael nearing his climax. He’s warning you over and over that he’s gonna cum, not wanting to before you do. Not after his behavior today. He didn’t deserve it, and you agree.
“Baby, pleeeeease, ‘m so close. Can’t do it. You have ta first. Iss too good ‘n i can’t hold it,” he whines, tears threatening to fall from his eyes. You kiss them away and go faster, ignoring his cries. The tears only turned you on further.
“F-FUCK! BABY I’M GONN-” You stop moving your hand entirely, and squeeze down on his dick hard.
“Wh-wha..” Michael trails off, not knowing how to speak anymore.
“Thank you,” he says, looking up at you with tear-filled eyes, chest heaving. He knew better than to complain- you touching him at all was enough.
You lean up to give him a quick kiss, before lining his dick up with your entrance and sinking down onto it. The stretch was enough to make your legs shake and almost make you fall over. You can’t take it all at once, opting to go slowly, grinding yourself against it in the meantime.
“Oh my GOD,” Michael cries out, propping himself up on his elbows so he can look at you. You look like an answered prayer.
“Mikey, you’re too big,” you whine out, drawling the last word out on purpose.
“I’m sor-ry,” he sincerely apologizes. It would’ve made you laugh if you weren’t so turned on by his facial expression. You sink the rest of the way down, too impatient to care about the burn. You grip onto his neck for support and start riding him slowly, your thighs burning with pain and pleasure. Michael moans at the feeling of your delicate fingers around his neck again and he loses his filter completely.
“Please choke me again. Hard. Control when I can breathe,” he begs you. You do just that and start bouncing against his length, the begging and whimpering from your boyfriend turning you on more than you’ve ever been.
His eyes start to roll back, and you loosen your grip so that he can gasp for air, his lungs greedily swallowing the oxygen creeping in. He starts rolling his hips up into yours to help, knowing riding isn’t easy for women. Always the gentleman, even when you’re fucking his brains out. He looks into your eyes, grabs your free hand and starts sucking on your fingers, muffling his moans with them from embarrassment. You don’t know whether to be angry that he won’t let you hear them, or turned on from the sight, so you grind and choke him harder.
His eyes fog over and he drools onto his chest, arching his back up to meet all of your grinds. You loosen your grip once again.
“Let me hear your pretty voice, baby,” you drawl at him, removing your fingers from his mouth and using them to play with your nipple. That basically does it for him.
“Baaaaaaby. Oh my god I-I can’t even think. You’re s-so good to me and- YEAH keep touching yourself like that please. You’re so beauti-f-ful. I’m never letting you go. You’re t-too perfect iss driving me crazy. Plea-” you choke him again- “Mmmfuck. Please cum on me. Please use my body to cum.”
“Then fuck me like you want it, Mike,” you order, dragging your fingers down from his neck, using your nails to scratch all the way down to his chest.
“Yes, ma’am.”
He flips you over and pins you beneath him, and begins thrusting into you the exact way he knows you like it, totally focusing on your pleasure.
“I won’t, baby.” He presses a hand onto your stomach for comfort, but what he felt flipped a switch in him. He looked down and saw himself moving inside of your belly.
“Oh my god…” he gasped out, making you look at him with concern. “B-baby. I can see myself inside of you,” he says, genuinely surprised.
“It’s ‘cause you’re so big,” you say, pouting at him. “G-go ahead, baby. Fuck me until m’ cervix is shaped like your dick.” He groans at the filth in your words, doing just as you say. His body begins to shake with pleasure. He feels so good, too good. Like something only his imagination could come up with. He starts drooling again.
The sight above you is getting you so close to your release. You reach your hand down to your clit and started playing with it, making sure to tilt Michael’s face down to watch before you do so. You want to put on a show for him. It is your anniversary, after all.
“M gonna cum for you Mikey. ‘M gonna make a mess of that pretty dick of yours,” you say nastily. You can feel the knot in your stomach start to tighten more and more.
“Y-Yes! Please cum all over me. Please turn me into a mess,” he begs, and that did it. Your entire body locks up and your vision turns blurry.
“Michael FUCK!” you scream- genuinely scream- out in pleasure. You grip onto his shoulders with all the force you can muster, mumbling out praises of “You’re so pretty” and “Did so good” until your lips fall numb. He rides you through the whole thing, legs shaking and forehead dripping with sweat.
“C-can I please cum? It hurts…” You look at him with surprise, not realizing he was still going for you, and it almost does enough for you to want a round two.
“Oh, Michael. You’re so obedient. I didn’t realize you were still going, love. Cum inside me, baby. Fill me up.”
He whimpers and cums on command, his body stilling and his toes curling up in pleasure. His eyes roll so far back into his head that you can’t even see his irises anymore.
“Thank you, thank you, thank y- ahh, thank you. ‘M so so-ahhhgghh, so sorry. I’ll be good forever ‘m sorry my pretty girl.”
His sweaty body collapses onto yours, and you two lay there for a while, his dick still inside of you, fully softened up.
After at least ten minutes of this, Michael speaks.
“So…Can we do this again?” he asks hesitantly.
“Michael,” you start, “I don’t think I can ever go back. Do you know how sexy you are when you’re submissive?” Your thighs start to clench again at the thought of what you two got up to tonight.
“O-oh. Really? It wasn’t too much?” he asks shyly as he rolls off of your body.
“Really. You should’ve said something sooner, angel face. I prefer being dominant,” you reveal, although you’re sure it was obvious.
“I was just shy, is all. But you? I don’t think- no, I know I’ve never seen anything or anyone as sexy as you were tonight. I feel like I died from bliss and met God. Truly, you were heavenly. I didn’t want any of it to end.”
“It doesn’t have to…We still have a whole weekend to spend here,” you offer, wiggling your eyebrows playfully. He blushes a deep red.
“I’m gonna go get our stuff ready for a bath,” you say. “Tidy up the room for when we’re back, yeah?”
“I’ll do anything for you,” Michael says, clearly still pussy drunk. He grabs your hand before you head to the bathroom.
“I love you. I’m not just saying that because of what we did tonight, you know that. But I love you. Thank you for being the best thing that’s ever happened to me. I’ll cherish you for all of my days, and even afterwards, if I can.“ He gives you a brief, yet passionate kiss on the lips. “I’ll be as quick as possible. Happy anniversary, pretty girl.”
“Happy anniversary, Michael,” you say, trying not to cry. You don’t know how you’d gotten so lucky.
— SUMMARY: Michael’s sleeping over at your house for the first time without your family there. You decide to play a game and give him a taste of your favorite lipgloss.
— WARNINGS: sub!mike, fluff, dual loss of virginity, face-fucking, oral, fingering, protected sex, dry humping, premature ejaculation, scent kink (?), reader is a tease, reader is experienced, use of daddy to tease, manipulation (sorta), michael is lowkey a himbo LMAO, dirty talk, pleasure dom reader. jermaine feature.
— WC: 7.7k (let’s all act surprised).
— A/N: Loosely based on this request. Let’s pretend the strawberry shirt he has on in the photo is a pj shirt. Please leave feedback in the comments and don’t forget to like and reblog!
Michael was absolutely buzzing with excitement today. This evening, he’d be sleeping over at his girlfriend’s house for the very first time. The best part? The two of you would be completely alone.
He honestly didn’t know why he was so excited about the alone aspect of it all, though. It’s not like he was brave enough to do anything more than hold your hand.
The two of you had fooled around before, you mostly taking charge, but his brain got so fuzzy around you. Any sense of self or right and wrong would go out the window as soon as he smelled your honey glaze scented lipgloss.
He’d spent the day driving around and shopping with his brother Jermaine, making sure to pick up things you’d mentioned liking the last time the two of you browsed through retail catalogues. The fuzzy white comforter you imagined sprawled at the end of your bed, the cute pajama set he couldn’t wait to see you in, and the stunning golden charm bracelet from your favorite jewelry store, were all carefully strewn across Jermaine’s backseat, a cute enveloped note written to accompany them sitting on top of the pile.
“Mike, this girl’s got you whipped! You droppin’ 3 thousand on a lil’ bracelet?” Jermaine asked with an incredulous laugh after the two settled into his car, driving along the Santa Monica Pier.
“Maine, she’s not just some girl. She’s the love of my life,” he said with a wistful sigh. “Besides, 3 thousand is nothin’. I’d hang the moon and stars for her,” Michael responded earnestly. He’d do a lot for you for no reward at all; just the thought that it was something that convenienced you even a fraction was enough.
“See, this exactly what I mean. Doin’ all that for her and you haven’t even laid down with the girl yet.” The older brother laughed at Michael’s ‘yes man’ attitude toward you, finding the idea of his superstar brother being a total worm for you hilarious.
“We’ve done plenty!” he defended, not enjoying the idea of his older brother seeing him as less experienced for what he’d allowed himself to explore regarding his sex life.
“Like what?” Jermaine questioned, raising a disbelieving eyebrow.
“It doesn’t matter! And I don’t see relationships as transactional anyway. The fact that she even likes me is enough.”
A beat of silence settled over the car as Jermaine drove away from the boardwalk, pulling up the car’s hood as they approached a crowd of teenaged girls dancing to one of their older songs, not wanting to be recognized.
When they finally hit the freeway, Michael spoke.
“What do you do?”
“Whatchu mean?” Jermaine pressed.
“Like, how do you…start? Making love, I mean.” Michael cleared his throat.
“We’ve done stuff before, I wasn’t lyin’ about that. But we haven’t gone all the way. She makes me too nervous, ‘n I’m scared of…I don’t want it to end so fast,” he rambled on, realizing Jermaine wasn’t going to interrupt him and was actually giving this some thought.
“You gotta just let it happen, man. I mean, I usually lay the girl down ‘n start kissin’ up on her, but I don’t see you bein’ the type to…” he trailed off in thought. “Just build up tension. Start givin’ her the eyes, ya know? She’ll get the hint.”
“The eyes? Maine, I can barely get close to her in the moment without goin’ dumb.” Michael wiped his hand across his face, trying to cool himself down before he started blushing.
“Here, how’s this?” Jermaine exited the freeway and began demonstrating what he meant at the red light.
“Take your hand, place it on her shoulder like this, look her up ‘n down from her lips to her eyes, and give her a lil’ smirk. She’ll know.” He accelerated on the gas pedal as the light turned green.
“O-okay. Yeah that seems easy enough,” Michael responded shyly.
“Don’t bring this up to anyone else, Maine. I’ll kill you,” he added, realizing how vulnerable he’d gotten. He’d never hear the end of it from Marlon if this got out.
At exactly half past 5, Michael was ringing at your doorbell, your gifts and his belongings in tow. He told Bill he was spending two nights at your place, reminding him not to be seen by your neighbors during his patrols, and basically flew to your doorstep.
You opened it almost immediately, seeming just about as excited as he was, and plastered your lips onto his in an intimate kiss- too intimate for your front door.
“Hi, my pretty boy. Let’s get you inside, yeah?” you greeted him, noticing the way he flustered up at the nickname.
“Yeah…” he said with a ditzy grin across his face.
“O-oh! I got you these gifts!” he announced with pride. He was carrying them and all of his belongings for the sleepover in one hand, determined to not let you help him carry anything.
You pushed the door wide for him to come in, knowing better than to offer to help him. He seemed to be moving without thinking, just taking steps by pure instinct. As he neared the staircase leading to the upstairs bedrooms, you could see the defeat dawn across his face.
“C’mon, baby. Lemme at least just carry one bag. I’m a big girl.” You took his duffel bag, presumably with his belongings, and led the way, not giving him a second to stop you.
He sighed dramatically and trailed up the steps behind you, his fingers that were straining under the heavier duffel bag feeling relief from the absence of its weight.
As you pushed into your bedroom, the scent of fresh linen and cinnamon wafted into his nostrils, a sudden comfort settling into his bones at the now familiar scent. You shrugged your robe off your shoulders, and Michael realized you were already in your pajamas. He took his duffel bag from your hands, sat down his belongings, and handed you your first gift.
“I’m realizin’ it’s probably too late for this now, but here! I have a feeling you’ll love ‘em.” He was practically vibrating in anticipation.
“I can’t believe you brought me gifts, Mikey. You’re so thoughtful.” You gave him a quick peck and opened the gift box. Inside sat the pj set you fawned over with Michael 2 weeks ago at your kitchen table. It was a red and white gingham two piece set with strawberry pockets on the butt of the mini shorts. The top was a lace-trimmed camisole that stopped just above your hipbone and was see through around the flowy skirt of it. And it was perfect.
“Oh, Michael! I’m putting this on immediately, are you kidding? This is perfect! Thank you so much.” You grabbed him with both hands by the face and littered his burning cheeks in kisses.
“It was nothin’. Here, open the others!” He was eating up your reactions. You jumped up and down at the blanket and tried to pick him up and spin him once you saw the bracelet.
“Hey, let go!” he’d declared in protest with a surprised chuckle at your strength.
“Put it on me, baby,” you told him, breathless, as you let go of his torso.
With a shy smile, he followed your demand mindlessly.
“Do you like it?” he asked, knowing you did. He just wanted to hear you say it.
“I adore it. The first charm I’m gonna buy will be a little ‘M’ just for you. Wouldn’t that be so cute?” you asked him, twisting your wrist around in the warm lighting of your bedroom.
“You’d do that?” he asked you, genuinely surprised by the act of possession.
“Of course! I’d tattoo your name across my chest,” you responded with a quick kiss to his lips as you made your way to your restroom with your new pajama set in hand.
The idea of you tattooing his name on you filled him with a sickening amount of pride.
You stepped back into the room almost as quickly as you left it, and you looked unreal. The cups in the top held your breasts up in just the right way, and the sheer, flowy bottom of it put your torso on full display for him. The shorts were no better. You gave him a twirl, and when his eyes met your backside, he nearly fell at your feet. Your strawberry-adorned ass was sitting prettily in the fabric, the bottom of your soft cheeks on full display for his greedy eyes. You turned back around and sauntered over to him.
“You look perfect,” he complimented you with a dumb smile.
“Hmm, do I?” you teased him as you unzipped his jacket for him.
“Yes, perfect…” he said, losing his train of thought as his eyes fell to the barely-there neckline of your top. He absentmindedly let you pull the jacket off, completely distracted by the view in front of him.
“Get comfortable, baby. I’m gonna go get us popcorn and oj. Then I’ll pick a movie. How’s that sound?” you asked him, knowing he was barely even paying attention.
“Hmm? Yeah, sounds great…” he responded, not able to find more words.
“Michael. Shower. Now.” You turned on your heel and walked with an extra bounce in your step, purposely doing so to make your ass move a bit more as you stepped. He drank it all up and unpacked his stuff in a daze.
He realized he forgot to bring his own body soap, and reveled in the idea of using yours. He couldn’t wait to smell like his girl. It was all he thought about during the 15-minute shower as he lathered up, scrubbed his body, and rinsed off. He brought his own lotion and toothpaste, disgruntled by the idea that he had no excuse to use yours. After he finished moisturizing, he left the room with a small smile, and placed his clothes into your hamper.
He saw you sitting comfortably on the soft carpet at the foot of your bed, your robe on your shoulders and a deck of cards sat in front of you alongside your snacks. You’d brought 2 big slices of homemade pizza, a bottle of tobasco, wet wipes for your hands, and two water bottles, alongside the share-size bowl of popcorn and two glasses of orange juice you’d mentioned. Bambi was in your VCR displaying the main menu, waiting to be played.
He approached you quietly while holding his breath, his mind going crazy at the sight of your legs crossed in front of you. They were making him nervous. He loved your legs.
You looked up at him and a cocky smile spread across your lips.
“You found a matchin’ shirt, huh?” you pressed your index finger to his torso as he sank down next to you, finding the idea of him searching for something to go with your sleep set cute.
“Oh…Yeah, is the matchin’ too much? I just wanted to…” he trailed off, unable to find any excuse that didn’t expose his intentions.
“I love it, baby. We look cute together.” You wrapped your arms around his neck and gave him a kiss on his jaw. A shiver ran down his spine.
“Eat. I just got this out of the oven, so it should still be hot.” You picked up his plate of pizza and handed it to him, watching with a devious glint in your eye as he obeyed your command. He said a quick prayer, blew the slice, and took a hearty bite while looking deep into your eyes.
“Thank you so much. It’s really good,” he said earnestly, covering his food-filled mouth as he spoke.
“Thank you. Now eat up. I’m gonna start the movie and we can play cards while we watch, when we’re done with the pizza.”
You did just as you said and so did he, eagerly at that. You’d think he didn’t have a brain for his own with the way he just did whatever you told him to. He was wrapped tightly around your pinky finger, just how you liked him.
After you beat him for the fourth time at Go Fish, the movie long having ended, you had him help you bring down your empty dishes and soiled wet wipes downstairs to clean and get rid of.
“I have a game I wanna play,” you stated casually as you handed him the soapy pizza pan you just washed. He rinsed and dried it immediately.
“What is it?” he asked with a little too much enthusiasm. He would do anything if it meant being in your presence.
“It’s…not really an official game. Just somethin’ I sorta made up. You’re gonna like it though.” You said the last sentence as an order, not an assumption. His stomach turned with excitement at the sternness in your voice. “Finish rinsing and drying these and I’ll go brush my teeth ‘n set it up for us. You also brush your teeth when you’re done.”
You left him to the task and hurried up the stairs. You were much more excited than you were letting on tonight. You’d went on a little shopping trip yourself, earlier, spending spent the day at different makeup and department stores meticulously picking out an assortment of flavored lipglosses and chapsticks. You wanted to try them all on and have Michael guess what each flavor was after kissing you. The thought came to you after a particularly vivid dream of him begging you to wear your honey glaze scented gloss while you fucked. You decided you wanted him to be like that after any scent he ever smelled from there on out.
After brushing your teeth, you took off your robe and then laid all of the lip products evenly on your fluffy carpet, and placed your black eye mask beside them, waiting patiently for your boyfriend to leap up the stairs.
As he made it inside your room from your bathroom, having entered it from the hallway, he took in your position and the random scene in front of you, lifting an eyebrow.
“What kinda game is this?” he asked, sounding almost frightened.
“It’s a chapstick challenge. I put on a layer of one of the glosses or lip balms, and you guess the flavors by french kissing me,” you responded with a dazzling smile.
“K-kiss…Okay.” He was already losing it by the mere idea of the game. “And I wear the blindfold?” he inquired.
“Yep. No peeking, understand?” you said, faux seriousness laced into your voice.
“Yes, ma’am,” he responded, only half jokingly with the honorific, with his left hand to his temple in a fake salute.
You placed the blindfold over his thick afro, leaving it up just above the eyes, before giving him a kiss. You pulled away and bit your lip at the dazed look on Michael’s face.
You got up- slightly bouncing your ass again- to turn on the record player sitting on your bedside dresser, and adjusted the volume to a comfortable background hum, setting the ambience.
You plopped back down in front of him, and he looked at you hungrily, licking his lips and trying to ignore the lust growing in his abdomen.
“Can I know the flavors, please? Or am I going into this blind?” he inquired.
“We’ll do 7. They’re pretty easy to guess, so I’m making you go in blind. You’re fine with that though, aren’t you baby? You’ll be the best guesser ‘cuz you’re just so smart, right?” you cooed at him, knowing the way you spoke to him would get him to move a mountain for you if you told him to.
“Y-yeah I’m…It’ll be easy.” Bingo.
You pulled the mask over his eyes and opened the first chapstick, the pop of the lid unsealing catching his surprise since his non visual senses were heightened. Cherry. Easy. You applied a generous layer and rubbed your lips together as you inched toward his face.
You pressed your lips to his harshly and he got to work immediately. His tongue explored your lips much longer than it should’ve. This was one of the easiest flavors to guess, by far. He was being greedy. You pulled away with a pop, smirking at his neediness.
“Ch-cherry?” he asked, like it wasn’t obvious.
“You sure you don’t wanna search some more? That was one of the easiest. You could’ve been more sly about it,” you said teasingly.
“‘M s-sorry. I just love your lips…” he trailed off, embarrassed.
“I’m just teasin’. Of course it was cherry. One point to you! Good job, Mikey.” His lip twitched at the praise.
Peach was next. It wasn’t too hard, but the scent threw off the flavor; it smelled like mango. That was the exact reason you chose it. The ambiguity left room for more.
You repeated your earlier ministrations of application, and kissed him again, this time scooting a little closer to his body. You even cupped his jaw with your hand, eliciting such a soft whine, you were almost convinced you misheard it.
The kiss was longer this time, but purposely. You even took the opportunity to pull at his hair the tiniest bit, smiling against his lips as he made a surprised sound at the back of his throat. He pulled away this time, out of breath.
“That one stumped me. It smells way different than it tastes. I’m gonna guess somethin’ fruity…Peach?” he guessed.
“You got it!” you responded, genuinely surprised. “That one was one of the hardest ones. Didn’t it smell like mango?”
“Yes, that’s what that smell was! It confused me bad.” He chuckled softly, as he reached his hand out toward you, searching for your waist. You reached out to his hand and guided it to where he wanted it, biting your lip at the contact.
This flavor was watermelon. You applied the sticky balm to your lips and smacked them loudly, warning him of your impact this time. He met your lips with ease and immediately got to sucking and licking. His free hand cupped the back of your neck and he deepened the kiss, sliding his tongue past your lips and into your mouth. He moaned when your wet muscle met his, then pulled back, chest heaving.
“Just been waitin’ to do that. I know it was watermelon,” he announced proudly.
“Someone’s gettin’ a lil antsy, huh?” you responded, trying to conceal your bated breath. His lips faltered at the teasing, trying and failing to find an excuse.
“It’s okay, baby. I like when you get desperate.” He bit his lip and covered his face with his hands.
You reached for the next lip balm, this one being cinnamon flavored. He loved cinnamon, which was the reason you bought it. You lathered it on and pulled his hands away from his cheeks, meeting his lips once more. You decided to turn it up a notch by placing his hands right under your breasts and sliding a hand onto his chest, feeling his heart hammering pathetically under your touch, and throwing one of your legs over his. He gasped slightly and pulled you closer, his fingers holding you with a firm grip.
You led the kiss this time, almost forgetting you were playing a ‘game.’ You bit his lip and sucked his tongue just enough to make him squirm, and pulled away.
“What flavor?” you asked him smugly, staring at the slight sheen of lipgloss scattered about his chin and mouth. He didn’t respond, mouth still slightly hanging open with a dazed grin.
“What’s the matter? Cat gotcha tongue?” you continued teasing.
“No, I…You make me forget things,” he admitted sheepishly.
Scratching his neck while keeping one of his hands on your body, he continued.
“Well, I definitely know that was cinnamon. That’s my guess.”
“I knew you’d get that one. I thought of you specifically when I bought it,” you admitted. You poked his nose and absentmindedly applied the next gloss. It was one you already owned and the two of you absolutely adored. Honey glaze.
You smacked your lips one more, letting yourself taste the flavor as you did so, and settled yourself fully on top of his lap now. You felt how hard he was and ground against him languidly once. He whimpered at the contact immediately.
“Aww, my baby’s getting this turned on just from kissing? What am I gonna do with you?” you cooed at him, your breath fanning over his lips. His dick jumped immediately.
“Oh. You’re wearing my favorite…honey glaze.” His knowledge surprised you.
“You peeked, didn’t you?” you questioned him suspiciously.
“N-no! I just…I love the smell of this one. I can recognize it anywhere. Please kiss me,” he whined.
You leaned in at the kiss turned sloppy immediately.
He gripped your waist hungrily with both of his hands, and rocked up into your crotch desperately. You moaned against his tongue as he licked your mouth inside and out, drool sliding down your cheek.
The both of you got incredibly lost in the moment, allowing your need for each other to bubble up sporadically. You ground harshly against his erection and sucked his neck, leaving a bruise in its wake. He moaned once really loudly, and his hips jerked against yours. Then, his hands flew from your waist and ripped the blindfold off of his face.
“‘M sorry. I need to use the restroom,” he quickly mumbled out. He gently slid from underneath you, then made a beeline for your bathroom door.
“Mich-” you called after him breathlessly as the door shut.
“Damnit,” he mumbled as he pulled down his pants. His cum sat proudly against the fabric of his boxers, much to his annoyance. He grabbed a wet wipe and cleaned his crotch wildly, the cold wetness making him shiver. He couldn’t believe he let himself go like that. Sliding his underwear off, he internally cursed himself for being so embarrassing. He washed his hands and entered the room again, his head hanging low and his underwear balled into his fist. He put it inside your hamper and then sat on the edge of your bed without a word, avoiding your gaze.
You knew exactly what happened, and it made you cocky.
“Mikey, baby. I know you came your pants,” you announced crudely. You sat down next to him with a wicked smile tugging at your lips.
“It’s embarrassing. We didn’t even do anything…” He sniffed in shame.
“Baby, it’s flattering. I’m glad to know that you get that horny for me,” you replied. You gripped his jaw, forcing him to look you in the eye.
“It’s not…Well, yes. I do get…aroused by you. But it’s your lipgloss. The smell…It makes my brain numb,” he admitted.
You removed your hand and bent over right in front of him to pick up the honey glaze scented gloss from the carpet, purposely nudging your butt against his knee as you reached down. You turned back around and waved it in his face tauntingly.
“This lipgloss? My favorite one?” You opened it and applied another layer. Setting it down on the bed, you placed your hands on either side of his legs and inched toward his face.
“The smell turns you on?” you ask, letting the scent waft around his personal space. He whimpered loudly.
“Yes,” he spat out, shoving down a heavy gulp. He could already feel himself getting hard again, and his eyes trailed down your torso, straight to the curve of your breasts, which were more visible due to you being bent over.
“You checkin’ me out?” you asked him mockingly.
His eyes snapped to your face as if he got caught doing something wrong. You sat back down next to him and stared at his bottom lip, which was being cradled between his teeth.
The way you were looking at him, like you were a predator hunting its prey, made Michael’s heart hammer so loudly against his chest that he swore you could hear it.
Then, a voice echoed in his head.
Start givin’ her the eyes…Take your hand, place it on her shoulder…look her up ‘n down…
He followed each direction as it played in his mind, his sudden confidence faltering your own in its track. Then, he gave you the sexiest smirk you’d ever seen.
…Give her a lil’ smirk. She’ll know.
“Do you wanna fuck me?” you asked him straightforwardly. He flinched a bit at how direct your words were.
“Yes,” he sighed. “B-but only if you wanna! I don’t…It has to be your choice.” What he really wanted to say was that he wanted you to use his body like he only existed for your pleasure.
“Then fuck me, Michael. Rip my clothes off and plow me into my sheets.” You slid your thumb across his bottom lip and tugged it down. He stared at you like a deer in headlights.
“You gonna touch me, or what?” you asked, cocking your head to the side in fake confusion. You knew your words were scrambling his brain, and you loved it.
“Y- sorry. Um.” He fumbled with his hands, not knowing where to touch you or place them. He felt like an idiot. You’ve engaged in sexual acts before, but he felt out of his league now, the looming state of his virginity making everything much more serious.
“Go get a condom from my dresser. Top drawer,” you ordered him. He obeyed and picked a small foil wrapper from the unopened Trojan box. He secretly thanked God at the sight, realizing you hadn’t recently been using them with anyone else, although he already knew that.
He held the foreign object in his hand and stood between your parted legs.
“C’mere,” you said before pulling him down by his neck and making out with him like you hadn’t been allowed to for a century.
He cautiously explored your body with his large hands, continuing certain gropes and squeezes when you gave him louder whines.
His body was now hovering yours, propped up by his forearms, and you could feel his heavy dick slap against your crotch through his pants as he went to kiss tenderly on your neck.
“I’m not wearing any underwear either. Wanna feel how wet I am for you?” you asked him lewdly.
“Please,” he begged, letting you take his hand and place it square on top of your clothed pussy.
He could feel you pounding beneath his palm, and he felt that familiar slimy substance connecting his hand to your core. He rubbed two of his fingers into you a bit, collecting some of your arousal. Detaching his mouth from your neck, he looked down at you with a dazed expression. With his free hand, he gently gripped your face, making you look at him.
Without a word, he removed his hand from your sex and sniffed his fingers greedily. He bucked his hips into yours, and shoved those fingers into his mouth with a loud groan.
You were in awe.
“I had no idea you were this filthy. Thought you were a good boy, but I guess you’re way dirtier than I thought,” you told him with surprise etched into every word. Your statement only made him needier. He shoved his fingers farther into his mouth and pulled them out, searching for your cunt again.
“Please, let me take these off. Wanna feel you,” he begged, a mixture of drool and your arousal collecting at the corner of his parted lips.
“Go ahead baby. Show me how much you want me.”
With a whimper, he crawled down your body and landed on his knees with effortless agility. He hooked his fingers into the top of your pajama shorts and froze.
“I-i’m a virgin,” he stated, voice barely above a whisper.
“Michael, I know. We’ve talked about this plenty of times,” you responded patiently. You knew he was nervous, but you also knew he wanted this.
“I know, it’s just that…I’m not gonna know how to do everything. I don’t wanna embarrass myself,” he replied meekly.
“Baby…I know you think I’m some sex god, but I’m still a virgin too.” You sat up and looked down at him, forcing him to meet your intense gaze. He looked stunned.
“It’s okay if you’re not. You don’t needa lie to me to make me feel bet-” You interrupted him by clamping your hand over his mouth.
“Michael, I’m not lying. When I told you before we ever did anything sexual that I had experience, that wasn’t a lie either. I’ve just never trusted anyone to go all the way. But I trust you and I want this with you. Don’t you wanna give it to me?” you asked him with a faux-sad pout.
“Of course! I wanna be your first…I want you to be mine. And my last. I wanna give my soul to you,” he rambled, inching your shorts down your thighs as he leaned in closer.
“I can’t believe you’re letting me..” he spoke quietly, mostly to himself, drifting off once he unclothed your lower body. He threw the damp shorts onto the floor and looked up at you with so much gratitude that it made your heart swell.
“Taste me,” you said, as you watched him lick his lips like he was starving.
He placed your thighs atop his shoulder and delved in, immediately grinding against nothing at the scent of your pussy.
“Mmm, th-that’s right. Just how I taught you before,” you spoke to him. He was circling your clit with his tongue with expert precision; just enough to feel like you were floating, but not enough to feel like you were grinding against a rock. Then he did something else you taught him, but with his own twist. He scratched up and down your thighs, the familiar sensation making you feel like music. But then, he slid his tongue down to your entrance and stuck it in, your arousal pooling around it in the act.
“F-fuck. Where’d you learn how to do that? Been seein’ someone else?” you inquired, only half joking. He pulled out and looked up at you with an earnest fire in his eyes.
“Never.” Then, he continued his actions, fucking his tongue into you as far as both of your anatomies would allow.
You pushed his head into you, grinding down with need. His afro acted as a protection against your brutal shove. He slid his tongue back out and worked your clit again, feeling confidence settle into his demeanor. So much confidence, he took two fingers, collected your arousal into them, and slid them into you. You cursed loudly.
“O-oh my god…F-Yeah! Curl them like that,” you mewled, your brain not knowing how to compute your pleasure into words. You’d only felt your own fingers inside there, once or twice, and you didn’t enjoy it. Your fingers couldn’t reach as far as his currently were, though.
You fell back against the bed as you felt your orgasm sprinting toward you faster than you anticipated, gripping onto your sheets and locking your ankles around Michael’s neck in an attempt to hold on.
“M-mikey, ah. Stop. Stop, stop, stop,” you breathed out to him, feeling the knot in your stomach almost unravel. He immediately withdrew his mouth and fingers, you arousal leaving a string of connection to his chin as he did so.
“Did it start to hurt? Sorry, I just thought you were gonna have an or-”
“I was gonna have an orgasm. I just don’t want to yet. I wanna suck that pretty dick of yours first. You’re gonna let me, right?” you asked him, not really leaving space to take no for an answer.
Michael never let you suck him off, to your own disappointment. He’s eaten you out so many times that you’d run out of positions for it, he’s let you grind against his dick with clothes, he’s even let you jerk him off, but he’s never let you get on your knees and put your mouth on it. His exact words were that it was ‘degrading and useless.’ He didn’t wanna hurt you. But you wanted to see him let go. You wanted the proof of your lewd acts with him physically etched into bruises to the back of your throat.
“Baby, I can’t let you do th-” You clamped your hand against his mouth once more.
“You’re gonna let me suck you off. Right?” you asked, slowly moving your hand away from his mouth.
“Ok-kay,” he responded with resignation in his voice.
He stood up and you slid his bottoms off, licking your lips at the sight of him. He was holding out on you because god was it pretty. And big. You thought he was just being a modest gentlemen when he told you he didn’t want to hurt you, but it was more than just that. He was really long, and he knew it.
“So you knew how big your dick was huh? That’s why you never let me do this. Betchu imagine me sucking that pretty thing off all the time.” You reached for it greedily and spit onto his tip, watching it slide down the base slowly.
“Stop- d-don’t talk about it like that..” he said weakly.
“Oh but you like it, though. I could practically feel you getting harder, baby. No need to be shy about it,” you egged him on. Before he could protest any longer, you wrapped your hand around his base and began tugging upward. You reached for your lipgloss with your free hand and applied a thick layer to your swollen lips. You blew a taunting kiss at him. He was visibly holding back his moans, much to your disapproval.
“Nuh-uh, let me hear those pretty moans. Sing for me, Michael,” you directed. He obeyed, and not even on purpose. The way you were touching and talking to him made him forget who he was.
“Feels s- you feel so good. I love you..” he blabbered.
“I love you too, baby.” You leaned forward and gave his shaft an open-mouthed kiss, maintaing eye contact with him. His whole body went rigid in shock as he saw the sticky mark your lip product left in its wake.
“Oh, god,” he groaned, jerking his hips up into your hand. You started twisting it whenever you got closer to his tip.
Without warning, you took it into your mouth, eyes focused on his, and sunk down on it. His eyes rolled back and his hands flew to the back of your head, holding it for composure. You began slowly moving up and down, flattening your tongue and sucking him like he was the best popsicle you’d ever tasted.
“Pl-ease, I don’t wanna cum yet. Plea-, please, please,” he begged on and on, turning please into a chant.
You hummed around his length, ignoring him, and continued to work. Tears stinged at your eyes, and drool dribbled out of your mouth. The sinful sight of you made him do something he swore he wouldn’t do. He rocked into your mouth roughly, just once, but it was enough to make you falter and gag against him. You moaned lustfully and your eyes lolled to the back of their sockets. He removed his hands from your head and scooted back from your mouth with a pop.
“‘M so sorry! I should’ve contained myself better. I know better. Did it hurt? If course it hurt, you’re crying and you gagged. Oh, God I’m so sorry prett-” You gripped onto his dick harshly, cutting him off.
“Michael, I want you to do that. I love it. Fuck my mouth, angel face. I can take it,” you reassured him with a devilish grin.
“N-no, I shouldn’t’ve let you touch me like that. You’re too precious…I can’t hurt you agai-”
“Michael. For the love of God, shut the hell up. I want you to hurt me and bruise me and make me cry. Is that not okay? Am I too dirty for you?” you asked him, feigning hurt. You secretly enjoyed tricking him into getting what you wanted because he somehow always gave it to you, and this time was gonna be no different.
“Not at all! You could never be too dirty for me…You’re perfect. I just don’t wanna degrade you like that. But since it’s what you want, okay. I’ll give you anythin’ you want.” Bingo.
“M’kay, now you gonna fuck my throat like a good boy, right?” you asked him with puppy dog eyes, tears still sitting in your waterline.
“Y-yes,” he responded hesitantly.
“Yes, what?” you asked him, enjoying working him up like this.
“Yes, angel. I-i’m gonna fuck your face…like a good…boy?” he responded, sounding more like he was trying to convince himself than he was you.
You gave him a soft hmm and pulled him back towards you, spitting a glob into your hand once more. You jerked him slowly 4 times and then looked him in his face.
“Don’t worry about me, ‘kay? If I want you to stop, I’ll make you stop. But, I trust you,” you said earnestly. “C’mon, stand up and give it to me, baby.”
Then, you opened your mouth, sticking your tongue out in anticipation. He hesitantly stood up, jerked himself twice, and then pushed into your mouth. Holding the back of your head gently, but firmly, with both of his hands, he set an inexperienced pace with his thrusts. You hollowed your cheeks and sucked harshly whenever he would drag his hips back, causing his legs to shake.
“Th-this is so, AH, wrong. You shouldn’t look this pretty like this. With my…thing in your mouth.”
You scrunched your brows into a pout and moaned loudly, forcing him to unconsciously fuck your mouth harder.
“B-baby you can’t do that, ‘m gonna finish if you do.” You continued moaning and sucking loudly, noticing his breaths shorten as his climax neared.
“God, you’re so pretty d-down there. Ngh- wait-” You forced yourself away from his crotch and crawled to the center of your bed, positioning yourself on all fours. You turned around and coaxed him over to you with a teasing finger.
“Baby, I need you. See how wet I am?” You arched your back and swayed your hips side to side, letting the light catch your arousal. “I need you to make me feel better. It’s aching,” you pouted. His feet were moving before his conscious mind could register your words, and he joined you in bed. He picked up the condom he mindlessly dropped earlier and unwrapped it.
“I-i’ll make you feel better,” her says as he pulled the rubber from its foil packet.
You turned around and took the contraceptive from him.
“Let me put it on you, daddy,” you smirked as you said the nickname.
“Don’t call me th-that,” he pouted.
You placed it on his tip with unnecessary friction and rolled it down his shaft, raising your eyebrows and smirking at the pathetic boy in front of you.
“Mmm, but you like it when I tease you with it,” you told him.
“Okay.” He gulped audibly and leaned down to press a hot kiss to your lips. “I love you.”
“I love you too, Michael. Now fuck me like you need it,” you said as you went back to your position on all fours. You were almost scared that he’d be too big, or that you’d need lube that you didn’t have, but as soon as he pushed his tip in, your pussy sucked him in. It was an unfamiliar feeling, being stretched like this, but your body didn’t register too much pain. You were drenched.
“Oh god, oh god, oh god,” he called out as your sex squelched around him, forcing him in deeper. You moaned out as he stretched and filled you. As soon as he bottomed out, he laid on top of your back, already feeling overwhelmed.
“M-michael! Oh my god, ‘m so wet. Needed your dick inside me so bad, fuck,” you inched forward and slammed back against his length forcefully, arching your back in the process. He sat up immediately and gripped onto your hips.
“The way you talk…” he trailed off as he started thrusting into you slowly.
“You like m-my dirty mouth, baby? Want me to talk to you through it, pretty boy?” you asked him, feeling his tip hit your g-spot with ease.
“Yes, please,” he whined, speeding up slightly in anticipation.
“F-fuck me harder, baby. Feels so good.” You pushed your head into your mattress, arching your back up higher, allowing yourself to take him deeper. He followed your instructions and snapped his hips into you harshly once, gauging your body’s response to the action. You pushed your ass further into his crotch, and he took that as silent permission.
“Mikeyyy. You’re so bad, taking my virginity in my bedroom like this. Mmm-fuck,” you whined, your vision going blurry with tears of pleasure.
“Y-yes, so bad. ‘M so bad,” he repeated, slamming into you faster. Your bed was creaking with his thrusts. He could already feel himself losing it again.
“Mmm, mmm, Mikey p-push my head into the mattress baby. Be rough.”
He obeyed immediately, leaning over and pressing his palm to the side of your head. He took one look at your face and felt his orgasm creeping up. Your mouth was wide open and there was a huge wet spot where your mouth leaked drool onto your sheets.
“You’re so pretty, baby. You look so good like this,” he complimented.
“With you plowin’ me into m-my own sheets? Thank you, baby boy.”
Your tongue licked at his thumb that was near your lips, and you sucked it into your mouth.
“OH! I’m g-onn…I’m cumming. Shit, I’m cumming!” he cried out as his hips stuttered. He buried himself into you deeply and filled the condom with his seed. He collapsed his torso onto your arched back and you bit his thumb. He clutched it after you spat it out of your mouth.
“I didn’t say to stop, did I? I thought you were a gentleman. Make me cum,” you demanded.
“Yes, baby. ‘M sorr-y…” he apologized in between whines of overstimulation.
You reached your hand down to your clit and started playing with it needily, overeager to cum on him. He pounded into you again, his dick half hard, as you started babbling into your bedsheets.
“Mikey, ‘m s-so close. Keep fuckin’ me like that, baby. You’re doin’ so well for me. You’re fillin’ me up so good.” The sound in the room was so unmistakable. The noise of creaky box springs, skin slapping and sticky arousal drowned out the hum of music leaving your record player.
He leaned down and hovered over your ear, whimpering into it. He sounded like an undiscovered instrument. The sound made your pussy squeeze against his shaft, signaling your orgasm.
“Y-yeah be louder. Love your filthy little whimpers, Michael. Gimme more,” you said with the last of your breath. He pounded harder and fully moaned into your ear, causing you to completely come undone.
You reached behind you and dug your nails into his sides as your legs shook and your pussy spasmed around his spent dick, already hardened again. You screamed his name like a prayer and Michael wished that was the only sound his ears would ever be subjected to again.
As you began going limp, Michael slid his arm underneath you, wrapping around your waist, and pulled out of you. He rolled into his side and pulled you on top of his chest, ignoring how hard he was again.
“I’m so glad it was you,” he said after he caught his breath.
“Hmm?” you asked him, looking up to the side of his face.
“My virginity. I’m glad you took it. It feels like you were exactly who I was waitin’ for whenever I would tell my brothers I was waitin’ on the right girl. No, you’re even better,” he said bashfully.
“Well, I’m glad you took mine too. You were absolutely perfect. I’m so glad we get to share this memory with each other. We fit so well together, don’tcha think? Like two halves of a puzzle,” you mused with a faint smile.
“I’d say so,” he said with a gulp loaded with a double meaning.
“Whatcha mean by that, baby?” you questioned him.
“Just…It’s like your body was swallowin’ me whole. It was incredible.” He bit his lips as he looked you in your eyes. You felt a pulsing at your abdomen, finally noticing how hard he was.
“Ohhh, my baby’s ready for round two? You have stamina…Good ta know,” you teased him with a giggle.
“‘M sorry, you just look ‘n sound so pretty when you’re tellin’ me what to do…”
“It’s okay, baby. Here. Let’s go take a quick shower, yeah? Then we can sixty-nine,” you said as you sat up on your knees. You gave him a wink. He gulped both audibly and visibly.
“Oh, yes please. I’d love that,” he responded with unconcealed enthusiasm. You pulled him behind you and led him toward the restroom, the excitement of round two noticeable in your light steps. You discarded your shirt and pulled Michael’s over his head for him.
“Take off that condom, baby. I’m gonna wash you up.”
He threw the soiled condom into your tiny tin trash can, and trailed after you like a puppy.
You turned on your shower and faced him, your tits on full display to him now. He swallowed loudly and gave a kiss to each of your nipples, surprising you in the act.
“I love you,” he whispered, and then leaned in to give you an intense kiss. His tongue slotted between your lips before you pulled away.
“Uh-uh. Don’t start something you can’t finish in here, needy boy. I’ll make it worth the wait.”
You stepped into the shower, him immediately after you, and the two of you let a comfortable silence settle in the air, washing yourselves and then each other’s backs.
With the two forgotten lip balm flavors lying lazily on the floor, the promise of your newly broadened sexual history etched into the empty house with a faint trace of a sweet scent. The scent of honey glaze.
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Could u perchance.. do an mj x reader fic whether it’s before,during or after the Pepsi accident and Michael’s insecure to have us see him at first but eventually allows us to see him and take care of him 😋
So like a bit of angst and fluff
you're still you.
a michael jackson fic
summary ~ requested!
includes ~ angst // insecure michael // supportive reader
a/n ~ this one meant a lot to me! thank you for requesting this. also it's not proofread so bare w me if there are any mistakes.
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When Michael’s mother called, she spoke so carefully that you knew something was wrong before she told you.
There had been an accident.
There had been fire.
Michael was conscious, she assured you. He was being treated. The doctors were taking care of him, and you should not panic.
You panicked anyway.
By the time you reached the hospital, the story had already begun escaping into the world. People clustered beyond the entrance, carrying cameras and shouting questions at anyone who looked remotely important. Security guided you through a private door before anyone could recognize you.
You barely heard the instructions you were given.
All you could think about was Michael.
His hair catching fire beneath the stage lights.
His confusion.
His pain.
Whether he had called for you.
Katherine met you in the hallway. Her expression was tired but composed, and the moment she opened her arms, you fell into them.
“He’s all right,” she whispered, rubbing your back. “He’s shaken, and he’s hurting, but he’s all right.”
“Can I see him?”
Her hesitation frightened you more than the phone call had.
“He doesn’t want you to.”
You pulled away. “What?”
“He doesn’t want anyone coming into the room right now.”
“But I’m not anyone.”
“I know, sweetheart.”
“Did he say why?”
Katherine’s eyes softened.
You knew then.
The injury was on his head and scalp. Although the doctors had assured everyone that his face had been spared from the worst of the burns, Michael had still seen the panic surrounding him. He had smelled the smoke. He had felt hands pressing against his head and heard people speaking urgently above him.
Whatever he looked like now, it was enough to make him afraid of your reaction.
“I need to talk to him,” you said.
“He asked us not to let you in.”
“Then I won’t go in yet. But please tell him I’m here.”
Katherine squeezed your hand. “I will.”
You sat outside his room for nearly an hour.
His brothers came and went. Doctors passed through the hallway. Members of his team whispered to one another about statements, reporters and what could be said publicly. Everyone seemed to have a purpose except you.
You could only wait.
Eventually, Katherine came back out.
“He knows you’re here.”
You stood immediately. “What did he say?”
“He said you should go home.”
You stared at her.
“I’m not doing that.”
“I didn’t think you would.”
She gave you a weary little smile before returning to the rest of the family.
You sat down again.
Another hour passed.
You sent Michael a message through one of the nurses.
I’m not angry with you, and I’m not frightened of you. I only want to know that you’re okay.
The nurse returned several minutes later.
“He said to tell you that he’s fine.”
You looked toward the closed door.
“Would you tell him that he is a terrible liar?”
The nurse almost smiled. “I’ll tell him.”
The next message came directly from Michael, written shakily on a small piece of paper.
Please go home. I don’t want you seeing me this way.
You read it three times.
Then you turned the paper over and wrote beneath his words.
Then close your eyes. You don’t have to see me seeing you.
The nurse carried it inside.
This time, the door opened only a minute later.
Michael’s doctor stepped out, followed by a nurse. They spoke to you quietly, explaining what you should expect. His head was wrapped in medical dressings. There might be some swelling. The medication had made him drowsy and slightly disoriented.
None of it changed your mind.
The doctor opened the door.
The room was dim. Only a small lamp beside the bed had been left on, casting a soft amber glow across the walls. The curtains were closed against the cameras waiting somewhere beyond the hospital.
At first, all you could see was the shape of Michael beneath the blankets.
Then your eyes adjusted.
He was turned away from you.
The dressings covered much of his head, and a few dark curls remained visible near his neck. His shoulders were tense beneath the thin hospital gown. One hand gripped the edge of the blanket as though he had been bracing himself from the moment he agreed to let you enter.
The door clicked shut behind you.
Michael flinched.
You stayed where you were.
“Hi,” you whispered.
He did not turn around.
“You shouldn’t be here.”
His voice was hoarse and small. You had never heard him speak that way before.
“Probably not,” you said. “I’ve been told I’m very stubborn.”
“This isn’t funny.”
“I know.”
You moved closer, stopping beside the chair near his bed.
“May I sit down?”
He was silent for so long that you thought he might ask you to leave again.
Finally, he nodded.
You lowered yourself into the chair. You did not reach for him. You did not ask him to turn around. You simply sat beside him and listened to the soft hum of the equipment around his bed.
“I’m sorry,” he murmured.
Your brow furrowed. “For what?”
“For frightening you.”
“You didn’t do anything.”
“I knew there was something wrong.”
His fingers tightened around the blanket.
“The first time, I felt the heat. I thought maybe I was imagining it. Then they wanted to do it again, and I should have said something.”
“Michael.”
“I should have stopped.”
“You were performing. You trusted the people around you to keep you safe.”
“But if I had just—”
“No.”
Your voice came out firmer than you intended.
He went quiet.
“You are not going to lie here and blame yourself because somebody else’s equipment malfunctioned, or because of a decision that your father made for you,” you continued, gentler now. “You did nothing wrong.”
“You weren’t there.”
“I saw enough.”
His shoulders shifted.
There had already been footage. You had glimpsed only a few seconds before someone pulled you away from the television: the sparks erupting behind him, Michael continuing to dance, unaware that his hair was burning.
Those seconds had lodged themselves somewhere inside you.
“I keep seeing it,” you admitted. “Every time I close my eyes.”
“That’s why I didn’t want you here.”
You swallowed. “Why?”
“Because now you’ll see this too.”
He gestured weakly toward himself.
“You’ll remember me like this.”
Your heart broke so quietly that he could not have known.
“Michael, look at me.”
“No.”
“Please.”
He shook his head and immediately winced.
Your body reacted before you could think, one hand lifting toward him. You stopped yourself before touching him.
He noticed.
Slowly, Michael turned his face toward you.
His eyes were red and exhausted. There was swelling around them, and his skin was paler than usual. The dressings looked uncomfortable, stark white against him.
He watched you with naked fear.
Not fear of pain.
Fear of you.
You kept your expression soft, even as tears gathered in your eyes.
His gaze dropped.
“Don’t,” he whispered.
“Don’t what?”
“Cry.”
“I thought I had lost you.”
“You didn’t.”
“I know that now.”
A tear escaped before you could catch it. Michael turned his face away again.
“This is what I didn’t want.”
“You think I’m crying because of how you look?”
He said nothing.
You leaned forward, careful not to crowd him.
“I’m crying because I love you, and someone called me to say there had been an accident. I’m crying because I had to sit outside this room knowing you were hurt while you tried to protect me from seeing it. I’m crying because you’re in pain and I can’t take it away.”
His lower lip trembled.
“You’re looking at me differently.”
“I’m looking at you like I'm scared.”
“That isn’t what I mean.”
“I know.”
You allowed a moment of silence to pass.
Then you held out your hand between you, palm facing upward.
“You don’t have to let me touch you. You don’t even have to look at me. But my hand is here if you want it.”
Michael stared at it.
His fingers shifted against the blanket, but he did not reach for you.
You sat back and left your hand resting there.
Minutes passed.
His breathing gradually softened. The tension in his shoulders eased, though only slightly. You told him little things because silence gave his mind too much room to punish him.
You told him that his mother had made three different nurses promise to call her if he so much as sneezed.
You told him his brothers were arguing over who had reached the hospital first.
You told him that someone from his team had tried to hand you a prepared statement, and you had stared at him until he went away.
That earned the faintest sound from Michael. Not quite a laugh, but close.
“You frightened him,” he murmured.
“Good.”
“You can be very mean.”
“Only when necessary.”
His gaze drifted back to your open hand.
“I must look awful.”
“You look tired.”
“That means yes.”
“It means you look tired.”
“And the bandages?”
“They look like bandages.”
“The swelling?”
“It looks uncomfortable.”
“Me?”
You understood the question beneath the question.
Do you still see me?
You moved your hand a little closer.
“You look like Michael.”
His eyes filled immediately.
He reached for you.
His hand landed in yours with surprising urgency, fingers closing tightly as though he feared you might disappear. You held him just as firmly, lifting his hand to your lips and kissing his knuckles.
His eyes closed.
“You don’t have to pretend,” he said.
“I’m not.”
“You always tell me I’m handsome.”
“You are.”
“I’m not now.”
You studied him for a moment.
“No,” you said gently. “Right now, you’re hurt.”
His eyes opened.
“You’re hurt, frightened, exhausted and being very difficult. None of that makes you ugly. It makes you human.”
His face crumpled.
Michael turned away, but he did not release your hand. You stood and moved closer to the bed.
“Can I hold you?”
He hesitated.
“I don’t know where it hurts,” you added. “You’ll have to help me.”
“Everywhere,” he whispered.
You could hear the tears in his voice now.
“All right. Then we’ll be very careful.”
The nurse helped raise the bed slightly and showed you where you could sit without disturbing anything. Michael watched the entire process nervously, his embarrassment clear even through the medication.
Once you were beside him, you opened your arms.
For a few seconds, he remained still.
Then he leaned into you.
His movements were slow and guarded. He rested his cheek against your chest, keeping his injured head away from your shoulder. You wrapped one arm around his back while the other rested lightly against his forearm.
The first sob slipped out of him so softly that you almost mistook it for a breath.
Then another followed.
“I was so scared,” he whispered.
“I know.”
“I could hear everyone shouting.”
Your hand moved slowly along his back.
“I didn’t know what was happening. They kept touching me, and the pain was so bad. I thought…”
He stopped.
“You thought what?”
“I thought it had ruined everything.”
The words were muffled against you.
“My hair. My face. The performances. Everything.”
“Oh, Michael.”
“And then I thought about you seeing me.”
His shoulders shook.
“I knew you would try to be kind, but I thought you’d look at me and feel sorry for me.”
“I do feel sorry that you’re hurting.”
“That isn’t the same.”
“No, it isn’t.”
You pressed a kiss to his temple, far from the dressings.
“I don’t pity you. I’m not disgusted by you. I’m not disappointed in you. I’m just here.”
He cried quietly against you, releasing the fear he had tried to swallow for everyone else. You let him. You did not tell him to be strong or assure him that everything would immediately return to normal.
You simply held him.
Eventually, exhaustion softened his sobs into uneven breaths.
“You still love me?” he asked.
The question was so quiet that you almost wished you had misheard it.
You leaned back just enough to see his face.
“Do you honestly think a few bandages could change that?”
“I don’t know.”
“Then I’ll tell you until you do.”
You wiped beneath his eye with your thumb.
“I love you.”
His eyes closed.
“I love you when you’re onstage and everyone in the world is screaming your name. I love you when you’re wearing pajamas and stealing food from my plate. I love you when you feel beautiful, and I love you when you don’t.”
His mouth quivered.
“You don’t have to earn it by looking perfect.”
“I want to be perfect for you.”
“I don’t want perfect.”
“What do you want?”
“You.”
Michael looked at you for a long moment.
Then he raised your joined hands and pressed his lips against your fingers.
“You really are stubborn,” he murmured.
“Extremely.”
“I told them not to let you in.”
“You underestimated me.”
“I should know better.”
“You really should.”
The tiniest smile appeared on his lips.
There he was.
You wanted to kiss him, but you waited.
Michael noticed. His eyes moved briefly to your mouth before returning to your face.
“You can,” he whispered.
“Are you sure?”
He nodded.
You leaned forward and kissed him gently.
There was no urgency in it. You kept one hand around his while the other rested against his shoulder. His lips were dry, and he tasted faintly of hospital water, but the moment he kissed you back, some part of you finally believed he was safe.
When you pulled away, his eyes remained closed.
“Still think I’m frightened of you?” you whispered.
“A little.”
You kissed the corner of his mouth.
“How about now?”
“Maybe less.”
You kissed his cheek.
“Now?”
A real smile appeared this time.
“You may need to keep trying.”
“Convenient.”
“I’m injured. You have to be nice to me.”
“I have been sitting outside for hours because you banned me from the room.”
His smile faded.
“I’m sorry.”
You brushed your thumb over his knuckles.
“I understand why you did it. But next time you’re frightened, let me be frightened with you.”
“I don’t want to burden you.”
“Loving you isn’t a burden.”
He lowered his eyes.
“You don’t always have to be the one protecting everyone,” you continued. “Sometimes you’re allowed to need somebody.”
“I need you.”
The admission was immediate and painfully sincere.
You leaned forward until your forehead rested carefully against his.
“Good,” you whispered. “Because you have me.”
Later, after the nurse checked his dressings and brought fresh water, Michael allowed you to help him drink. He complained that the straw was undignified, then became offended when you laughed.
You adjusted his blankets. He insisted he was not cold, although he stopped protesting the moment you tucked them around him.
When the medication began pulling him toward sleep, you returned to the chair beside his bed.
His fingers tightened around yours.
“Where are you going?”
“Nowhere. I’m sitting down.”
“You’ll stay?”
“As long as they let me.”
“And if they tell you to leave?”
“I’ll hide in the bathroom.”
His sleepy laugh filled the dim room.
“You’re ridiculous.”
“And yet, you love me.”
“I do.”
His eyes began to close.
You thought he had fallen asleep until his voice reached you again.
“When the bandages come off…”
“Yes?”
His fingers shifted nervously between yours.
“What if it’s worse?”
“Then I’ll be there.”
“What if I don’t want to look?”
“Then you don’t have to look until you’re ready.”
“What if you look first?”
You lifted his hand and kissed it again.
“Then I’ll tell you the truth.”
His eyes opened slightly. “Which is?”
“That you’re still you.”
He watched you through the haze of exhaustion, searching your face for uncertainty.
Whatever he found seemed to soothe him.
“Come closer,” he murmured.
You shifted the chair until it touched the bed.
“Closer.”
“I cannot physically move the chair any closer, Michael.”
He gave you a weak, dissatisfied look.
You smiled and leaned over the railing, bringing your face near his. He relaxed immediately.
“There?”
“Better.”
His eyes closed once more.
You stayed beside him as his breathing became deep and even, your hand held securely in his. Every so often, even in sleep, his fingers tightened as if checking that you had not left.
Each time, you squeezed back.
The world outside was already turning his pain into headlines, photographs and statements. By morning, strangers would debate what happened and what it meant for his career. People would study every image and search for something dramatic to consume.
But inside the room, he was simply Michael.
Frightened.
Tender.
Alive.
And loved.
Just before dawn, he stirred. His eyes opened slowly and found you with your head resting beside his arm.
“You stayed,” he whispered.
You lifted your head, blinking away sleep.
“I told you I would.”
In the pale morning light, his bandages were still there. The swelling was still there. Nothing had magically healed overnight.
But when Michael looked at you, the fear in his eyes was quieter.
hiii <3 can i request backseat fun with tyriq on the way to a premiere? (reader is looking wayyy too fine and he is too impatient to wait)
major delay
a tyriq withers fic
summary ~ your man tyriq is in love with how you look before a premiere. he needs to make sure you know that.
includes ~ smut // public sex // boyfriend tyriq // girlfriend reader
a/n ~ driver roll up the partition pleaaaaseeee.
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The black suv was supposed to be taking you straight to the premiere.
Instead, Tyriq had other plans.
You looked dangerous tonight.
The custom black gown clung to every curve like it was painted on — deep plunging neckline, thigh-high slit, and a back so low it barely existed. Your skin glowed under the city lights, hair styled in soft waves, makeup flawless. You knew you looked good. Tyriq had barely said a word since you stepped out of the hotel, just stared with that dark, hungry look in his eyes.
Now, twenty minutes into the ride, he couldn’t wait anymore.
The partition was already up. The driver had been paid very well to mind his business and take the long route.
Tyriq’s large hand slid higher up your thigh, pushing the slit of your dress open even more. His fingers brushed the lace edge of your panties as he leaned in, lips against your ear.
“You tryna get fucked before we even get there?” he murmured, voice low and rough. “Looking like this… got me hard as fuck in the back of this car.”
You turned your head, giving him a slow, teasing smile. “We have a premiere to get to, baby.”
“Fuck the premiere,” he growled.
He didn’t wait for permission.
Tyriq pulled you onto his lap so you were straddling him, your dress bunching up around your waist. His hands gripped your ass possessively, squeezing hard as he kissed you like he was starving. The kiss was deep, messy, and full of weeks of built-up tension. His tongue slid against yours while he ground his hard dick up against your core through his tailored pants.
“Been thinking about this pussy all day,” he groaned against your mouth. “You look too fucking good. Can’t wait.”
You moaned softly, rolling your hips against him. He reached between your bodies, pushing your lace panties to the side, and slid two thick fingers inside you without warning. You were already soaked.
“Shit, baby,” he hissed, pumping his fingers slowly. “You wet as fuck. This all for me?”
“Yes,” you breathed, riding his fingers. “Always for you.”
He added a third finger, stretching you open while his thumb rubbed tight circles on your clit. His mouth attacked your neck, sucking marks into your skin that the makeup artists would have to cover later. You tried to stay quiet, but soft whimpers kept slipping out.
Tyriq pulled his fingers out suddenly and brought them to your mouth.
“Suck,” he ordered.
You obeyed, tasting yourself on his fingers while he watched with dark eyes. He groaned, then freed his thick, hard cock from his pants. It slapped against his stomach, heavy and leaking at the tip.
“Ride me,” he said, voice strained. “Right now.”
You didn’t hesitate.
You sank down onto him slowly, moaning as he stretched you open. Tyriq’s head fell back against the seat, a deep groan rumbling from his chest.
“Fuck… so tight. So fucking wet,” he panted. “This pussy missed me, ain't it?”
You started riding him, rolling your hips in deep circles before bouncing on his cock. The car swayed slightly with your movements. Tyriq’s hands gripped your ass hard, guiding you as he thrust up to meet you.
“Look at you,” he groaned, eyes locked on where your bodies joined. “Taking this dick so good. My nasty little girl.”
You braced your hands on his shoulders and rode him harder, the wet sounds of sex filling the backseat. Tyriq reached up and pulled the front of your dress down, freeing your breasts. He leaned forward and sucked on your nipple hard while thrusting up into you.
“Ty— fuck,” you moaned, head falling back.
He switched to the other breast, biting gently before soothing it with his tongue. His hands squeezed your ass as he fucked you deeper, the angle making you see stars.
“You gonna cum for me before we get there?” he rasped, voice wrecked. “Want to feel this pussy squeeze me.”
You nodded frantically, grinding down on him faster. He reached between you and rubbed your clit in fast, tight circles while pounding up into you.
“Cum, baby. Let me feel it.”
You came hard, crying out as your walls clenched around him. Tyriq groaned loudly, hips stuttering as he followed right after, burying himself deep and filling you with thick, hot pulses of cum.
He kept grinding into you slowly, pushing his cum deeper while kissing you messily.
When you both finally came down, he stayed inside you, arms wrapped tightly around your waist.
“Love you so much,” he whispered against your neck, voice soft now. “You look too good tonight. Couldn’t help myself.”
You laughed breathlessly, kissing his jaw. “We’re gonna be late.”
“Worth it,” he murmured, kissing you again.
He eventually pulled out gently and helped clean you up with tissues from the car. He fixed your dress, wiped the smudged lipstick from your mouth, and pulled you into his lap properly, holding you close as the car finally approached the premiere.
Tyriq kissed your temple, hand resting possessively on your thigh.
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heyy queen how are youu. Could you write if your comfortable an Anthony Joshua fic where’s he’s experiencing grief and he’s having a really hard time and starts to push reader away because he doesn’t want to reader to see him as “weak” but eventually he lets his walls down and he breaks down to reader.
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an anthony joshua fic
summary ~ requested !
includes ~ angst to fluff // comfort // grief
a/n ~ thank you for your request my love !
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Anthony was not the kind of man people expected to fall apart.
That was the problem.
The world had made strength his language before he was old enough to understand the cost of speaking it every day. Strength in his shoulders. Strength in his hands. Strength in the way he stood before fights with his jaw set and his eyes steady. Strength in the interviews, in the training clips, in the photographs where people looked at him and saw discipline, control, power.
A champion.
A fighter.
A man built like he could survive anything.
You knew better.
You knew the softer places in him. The quiet humor. The thoughtful pauses. The way he could sit with a cup of tea in both hands and listen to you talk about your day like there was no place on earth he would rather be. You knew how gentle he was when he loved someone. How carefully he held the people who mattered to him. How deeply he felt things even when he did not always know what to do with the feeling.
So when grief found him, you saw it before he named it.
It started in small ways.
Anthony became quieter.
Not peaceful quiet. Not the familiar silence he slipped into when he was thinking or tired after training. This was different. This silence had weight. It sat on him heavily, pulling his voice deeper, making his answers shorter, stealing the warmth from rooms he used to fill without trying.
At first, you gave him space.
He had lost someone close to him, someone who had known him before the fame, before the belts, before the cameras decided his body belonged to the public. Someone who had been woven into his life quietly enough that the loss did not feel dramatic from the outside, but inside him, you could see it had split something open.
The first few days after the funeral, he let you be there.
Barely.
He let you sit beside him on the sofa. He let you make him food he only picked at. He let you run your hand over the back of his head when he sat leaned forward with his elbows on his knees, staring at nothing. He let you stay the night, though he barely slept. Every time you woke, he was awake too, lying on his back, eyes open in the dark.
But then something changed.
Or maybe the shock wore off.
Maybe the house got too quiet.
Maybe the flowers started wilting and everyone else went back to their lives, leaving him with the kind of grief that arrived after the condolences stopped.
That was when Anthony began pushing you away.
Not cruelly at first.
Anthony was too careful with you for cruelty to come naturally, even when he was hurting. He started with distance disguised as consideration.
“You should go home and rest, love.”
“I’m fine here.”
“I know, but you’ve been here all week.”
“So?”
“So you need your own bed.”
“I need to be where I want to be.”
His mouth would tighten at that, and he would look away. “I don’t want you worrying about me.”
That sentence came up often.
I don’t want you worrying.
As if worry was something you could set down because he asked nicely.
As if love did not naturally lean toward pain.
By the second week, he stopped calling as much. Texts that used to be warm and easy became practical. Short. He skipped dinner twice and claimed he had already eaten, though you knew him well enough to hear the lie in his voice. When you came over, he kept himself busy. Dishes that did not need washing. Laundry that could have waited. Training footage playing on mute while he stared through the screen instead of at it.
Anything to avoid sitting still long enough for grief to catch him.
One evening, you found him in his kitchen with the lights off.
It was raining outside, the kind of steady London rain that turned the windows blurry and made the whole house feel smaller. You had let yourself in with the key he gave you months ago, carrying a bag of groceries and a stubborn hope that maybe tonight he would let you cook for him.
Instead, you found him standing at the sink, both hands braced against the counter, head lowered.
He had not turned on a single light.
“Ant?”
His body stiffened.
That hurt more than it should have.
Once, your voice had made him relax.
Now it made him prepare himself.
He turned slightly, not enough for you to see his face clearly. “You didn’t say you were coming.”
“I texted.”
“I didn’t see it.”
“I know.”
He looked down. “You shouldn’t have come in the rain.”
You set the grocery bag on the counter. “It’s water. I’ll live.”
He did not smile.
That was how you knew it was worse than usual.
You stood in the dim kitchen, watching the outline of him against the window. Big, still, unreachable. His shoulders looked tense beneath his black sweatshirt, his posture controlled in a way that felt exhausting even from across the room.
“I brought stuff to make soup,” you said softly.
“I’m not hungry.”
“You don’t have to eat now.”
“I said I’m not hungry.”
The sharpness landed before he could pull it back.
You both froze.
Anthony closed his eyes, jaw flexing. “Sorry.”
You swallowed. “It’s okay.”
“No.” He shook his head, still not looking at you. “It’s not.”
The silence that followed was cold and wet around the edges.
You moved closer, slowly. “Anthony, talk to me.”
“I don’t want to talk.”
“I know you don’t.”
“Then don’t ask.”
His voice was rough now.
Not loud.
That almost made it worse.
You stopped a few feet away from him. “I’m asking because I love you.”
He let out a humorless breath. “That’s why you should stop.”
Your heart pulled tight.
“What does that mean?”
Anthony finally turned toward you.
In the low light, he looked exhausted. Not physically, though that was there too. His face was drawn, eyes heavy, beard slightly grown in. He looked like a man who had been holding up a wall with his bare hands and refusing to admit his arms were shaking.
“It means I don’t want you seeing me like this,” he said.
Your voice softened. “Like what?”
He looked away again, and when he answered, the words seemed to cost him.
“Weak.”
The word entered the room like something ugly.
You stared at him.
Anthony rubbed a hand over his face. “I can’t do this, yeah? I can’t have you looking at me like I’m broken. Like I’m not—” He stopped, searching for the word and hating that he needed one. “Like I’m not myself.”
You took a careful breath.
“You think grief makes you weak?”
His eyes flashed briefly, defensive. “I didn’t say that.”
“You did.”
“That’s not what I meant.”
“Then what did you mean?”
He looked at you, and for a moment you saw anger there. Not at you. At himself. At the loss. At the fact that the world had taught him a man could be admired for bleeding in a ring but not for crying in his own kitchen.
“I mean I’m supposed to handle it,” he said. “I’m supposed to keep moving.”
“Why?”
“Because that’s what I do.”
You shook your head gently. “That’s what people watch you do.”
His face shifted.
You stepped closer.
“That’s not the same thing.”
Anthony looked down, throat working.
You wanted to touch him, but something told you not yet. Not because he didn’t need it, but because if you reached too soon, he might retreat out of instinct. He was standing so close to the edge of himself. You could feel it.
“I’m not them,” you said quietly.
He didn’t answer.
“I’m not the cameras. I’m not the crowd. I’m not someone waiting for you to say the right thing after a hard night. You don’t have to be impressive with me.”
His jaw tightened.
“I don’t know how to not be,” he admitted.
That broke something in you.
Not loudly.
Just enough.
You looked at this man you loved, this powerful, gentle, grieving man standing in the dark because turning the lights on might make it all too real, and you understood then that he was not pushing you away because he loved you less.
He was pushing you away because he trusted you too much.
Enough that your opinion could hurt him.
Enough that being seen by you felt more dangerous than being watched by millions.
“Anthony,” you whispered.
He shook his head once, like he already knew what you were going to say and couldn’t bear it.
“I don’t want you carrying me through this,” he said. “You shouldn’t have to.”
“I’m not carrying you.”
“You are.”
“No.” You stepped close enough now that he had to look at you. “I’m standing with you.”
His eyes shone faintly, but he blinked it back fast.
Too fast.
You saw it anyway.
“I don’t need you to be okay,” you said. “I need you to stop pretending being alone is the same as being strong.”
He breathed in, and it came out unsteady.
For a second, you thought you had reached him.
Then his walls came up again.
“I think you should go,” he said.
Your chest hurt.
But you did not move.
He looked at you more firmly. “Please.”
The please was what almost made you break.
Because even now, even while trying to send you away, he was trying to be gentle.
You nodded slowly. “Okay.”
His face changed, just slightly. Like he had expected you to fight.
You picked up the grocery bag from the counter, though your hands trembled.
“But I’m going to say one thing before I do.”
Anthony looked tired. “Love—”
“No. You can ask me to go, and I’ll respect that. But I’m not leaving with you thinking I only love the strong version of you.”
His expression cracked.
Just a little.
You held his gaze.
“I don’t.”
The rain tapped harder against the windows.
“I love you when you’re steady. I love you when you’re laughing. I love you when you’re focused, when you’re stubborn, when you’re walking around the kitchen acting like you know better than everybody.”
That pulled the faintest, saddest breath of a laugh from him.
Your eyes burned.
“And I love you now. Like this. Angry. Quiet. Hurting. Scared. I love this version too.”
His mouth tightened, and he looked away.
You knew he was fighting tears.
You knew because he always looked away when softness got too close.
You set the groceries back down.
“I’ll go if you really want me to,” you said. “But don’t confuse me leaving with me giving up on you.”
The silence stretched.
Then Anthony’s shoulders moved.
Once.
A barely visible shake.
Then again.
He turned fully away from you, one hand covering his mouth, the other gripping the edge of the counter.
You heard the first broken inhale.
Your heart dropped.
“Ant.”
He shook his head, but his body betrayed him. Another breath tore out of him, rough and uneven. He tried to swallow it down, tried to fold grief back into whatever place he had been storing it, but it was too late. The wall had cracked. Everything behind it was coming through.
You crossed the room.
This time, when you touched his back, he did not move away.
His body shook beneath your palm.
“I’m sorry,” he choked out.
“No.”
“I’m sorry.”
“You don’t have to apologize.”
“I can’t—” His voice broke. “I can’t stop thinking about it.”
You moved beside him, your hand sliding gently to his arm.
Anthony lowered his head, eyes squeezed shut, tears slipping despite every effort to stop them.
“I keep thinking I should’ve called more,” he said. “I keep thinking I was busy. Always busy. Training, meetings, camp, flights. Always something. And now I keep remembering every time I said I’d come round next week, or I’d ring later, and there is no later. There’s no—”
The sentence collapsed.
He covered his face with both hands.
The sound he made then was not loud.
It was worse.
It was the kind of sound someone makes when they have finally run out of places to put pain.
You wrapped your arms around him as best you could, pressing yourself against his side.
He turned into you so suddenly you nearly stumbled.
Then he was holding you.
Not carefully.
Not with the usual awareness of his size, his strength, the way he always made sure he never overwhelmed you.
He held you like he was drowning.
His arms closed around you, his face dropping to your shoulder, his body shaking as the grief came out of him in heavy, broken waves. You held him tighter, one hand cupping the back of his head, the other moving slowly over his back.
“I’ve got you,” you whispered.
He cried harder.
“I’ve got you.”
His knees seemed to weaken, and you guided him down slowly until both of you were on the kitchen floor. The tiles were cold beneath you, but he clung to you like he did not feel them. His head rested against your chest now, his arms around your waist, his breathing ragged and uneven.
You had seen Anthony tired.
You had seen him frustrated.
You had seen him after losses, after brutal training days, after moments where the world tried to turn his humanity into headlines.
But you had never seen him like this.
Completely undone.
And all you felt was love.
Not pity.
Not disappointment.
Love.
Because this was not weakness.
This was a man finally letting himself be human after trying to survive as a symbol for too long.
“You should’ve heard me,” he whispered after a while, voice muffled against you.
“What?”
“When they told me.” His hand gripped the fabric of your top. “I didn’t say anything. Everyone was crying, and I just stood there. Couldn’t move. Couldn’t talk. I kept thinking if I didn’t react, it wasn’t real.”
You brushed your hand over his head slowly.
“And then people kept saying, ‘Stay strong, champ.’” His voice twisted around the words. “Everywhere. Messages. Calls. Stay strong. Stay strong. Stay strong. And I wanted to scream.”
Your eyes filled.
“I know they meant well,” he said. “But I don’t want to be strong. I want them back.”
The simplicity of it shattered you.
You bent over him and kissed the top of his head.
“I know,” you whispered.
“I want them back,” he said again, smaller this time.
“I know, baby.”
His tears soaked into your shirt.
You let them.
For a long time, the rain and his breathing were the only sounds in the kitchen. You didn’t try to make grief tidy. You didn’t tell him everything happened for a reason. You didn’t tell him they were in a better place, though maybe they were. You didn’t offer the kind of comfort people used when they were desperate to stop pain from making the room uncomfortable.
You just stayed.
When his sobs quieted, his body became heavy with exhaustion. He remained against you on the floor, one arm still wrapped around your waist like he was afraid you might disappear if he let go.
“I didn’t want you to see me like that,” he said hoarsely.
You looked down at him. “I know.”
“I hate it.”
“Crying?”
“Feeling out of control.”
You nodded, fingertips tracing lightly along his shoulder.
He turned his face slightly, eyes red and tired. “Do you think differently of me?”
The question was so quiet you almost missed it.
Your heart clenched.
You touched his cheek, guiding his gaze up to yours.
“Yes,” you said.
Pain flashed across his face before you continued.
“I think you’re braver than I did yesterday.”
His eyes closed.
“Don’t do that,” he whispered, voice breaking again.
“Do what?”
“Love me so well when I’m being difficult.”
A sad smile touched your mouth. “You’re not being difficult. You’re grieving.”
“I pushed you away.”
“You tried.”
His brows furrowed faintly.
You wiped gently beneath his eye. “You didn’t get very far.”
For the first time in days, his mouth curved.
Barely.
But it was there.
You smiled back, small and soft.
“There he is,” you whispered.
His face crumpled again, but this time the tears were quieter. He turned his face into your palm, pressing a kiss there before lowering his head.
“I’m tired,” he admitted.
“I know.”
“Not sleeping tired.”
“I know.”
“Soul tired.”
You swallowed.
“Then let me help you rest.”
He did not argue.
That was how you knew something had shifted.
You stayed with him on the kitchen floor a little longer, until the cold tiles became too uncomfortable and his breathing steadied. Then you helped him up, though he didn’t need the physical help. Maybe he just needed to let someone do something for him. You made tea. He sat at the kitchen table, quiet but no longer unreachable. When you placed the mug in front of him, his fingers brushed yours and stayed there.
“I’m sorry for telling you to go,” he said.
“I know.”
“I didn’t mean it.”
“I know that too.”
He looked down into his tea. “I just thought if you saw too much, you’d…”
You waited.
He shook his head, ashamed. “I don’t know.”
“Leave?”
His silence answered.
You sat beside him.
“Anthony, I’m not here because you’re easy to love.”
His eyes flickered to yours.
“I’m here because I choose you. That means the hard parts too.”
His throat shifted.
“You can have ugly days,” you said. “Silent days. Angry days. Days where you don’t know what you need. I won’t always know how to help, and I might get it wrong sometimes. But I’m not going to look at you grieving and decide you’re less of a man.”
His eyes shone again.
“You hear me?”
He nodded slowly.
“Say it.”
His voice came out rough. “You won’t think I’m less of a man.”
“No.”
He looked at you, vulnerable in a way that made him seem younger.
“Promise?”
You reached for his hand.
“Promise.”
That night, for the first time in weeks, Anthony slept.
Not perfectly. He woke twice, once from a dream that left him breathing hard in the dark, once because the grief simply returned without warning. Both times, you were there. Both times, he reached for you instead of turning away.
The second time, he whispered, “Are you awake?”
You were.
You turned toward him beneath the covers. “Yeah.”
He stared at the ceiling, eyes reflecting faint moonlight.
“I was thinking about something they used to say,” he murmured.
“Tell me.”
And he did.
He told you a story you had never heard before. A small one. Not dramatic enough for a funeral speech, not polished enough for public memory. Just a real memory. Something funny. Something ordinary. Halfway through, he laughed softly, and the laugh cracked into tears at the end.
You held his hand through both.
After that night, grief did not vanish.
It never did.
It came in waves. Some mornings Anthony seemed almost himself, moving around the kitchen with sleepy eyes, kissing your forehead while the kettle boiled. Other days, he went quiet again, disappearing into his head, staring too long at old messages or photographs. Sometimes he still tried to say he was fine when he wasn’t.
But he stopped locking you out.
That was enough.
A week later, you found him in the living room with an old photo in his hand. His eyes were wet, but when you walked in, he did not hide it.
He looked up at you.
“I miss them today,” he said.
Your heart softened.
You crossed the room and sat beside him. “Tell me about the picture.”
He leaned into you, shoulder heavy against yours.
And he told you.
Months later, the world still called him strong.
They always would.
They would see him in the ring and say he looked unbreakable. They would watch him train and say he was built different. They would hear him speak with measured calm and call it composure.
You understood now that strength was not always what people thought it was.
Sometimes strength was standing in front of thousands.
Sometimes it was getting out of bed after loss.
Sometimes it was calling someone you love instead of sitting alone in the dark.
Sometimes it was a man like Anthony crying on a kitchen floor, terrified of being seen, and letting himself be held anyway.
One evening, long after the sharpest edge of grief had softened but before it had fully become something he could carry without wincing, Anthony stood in the kitchen making tea while you sat at the counter watching him.
He looked over. “What?”
“Nothing.”
“You’re staring.”
“I’m allowed.”
His mouth curved. “Are you?”
“Yes.”
He brought your mug over, setting it carefully in front of you before leaning both hands on the counter.
You studied his face. Still tired in places. Still carrying loss. But more open now. Less alone.
“I’m proud of you,” you said.
His smile faded into something softer. “For what?”
“For letting me stay.”
He looked down.
For a second, you thought he might brush it off.
Instead, he reached across the counter and took your hand.
“So am I,” he admitted.
You squeezed his fingers.
He lifted your hand to his lips and kissed your knuckles, slow and grateful.
“I thought breaking down would make me feel weak,” he said quietly.
“And?”
He looked at you.
“It made me feel loved.”
Your chest tightened.
You slid off the stool and came around the counter. Anthony opened his arms before you even reached him, pulling you into his chest. His hold was warm, familiar, strong in the way that no longer felt like armor.
This time, it felt like trust.
You pressed your cheek against him and listened to his heartbeat.
the summer of 1976 beamed with heat and possibility in the backyard of your parent’s house. your father, a successful banker, had just hired a new pool boy to keep the olympic- sized pool maintained, while your father and mother handled their busy schedules. you were home from college, spelman to be exact, you were quick to enjoy the luxury of the the estate and take a break from the stress of school and the pink and green, glamour from the AKAs . the first time you saw jackie, you were lounging on the shaded patio in a bikini, a book open but unread in your lap.
jackie had arrived in a simple white tank top and shorts, tools in a bag and already wiping his head due to the early morning sun. your father had called your name to meet the young man. you were irritated that your alone time was interrupted but was curious to meet whoever ther person your father wanted you to meet.
your father introduced him briefly. “jackie, this is our daughter. she’ll be around, don’t let her distract you.” your dad chuckled, but jackie’s gaze fell upon you for a long second. you began to get familiar with his appearance, twenty-five, tall and lean-muscled from physical work, with smooth brown skin, a neat afro, and warm, expressive eyes that seemed to see right through and his lips were full and pink, like they screamed ‘come kiss me’
you offered him a polite smile and looked away, but the image of him lingering in your brain.
your thoughts clouded you.
he’s got no business looking that good. those arms… girl, get a grip. he works for daddy.
his thoughts clouded his brain as well.
she’s stunning. that rich brown skin, those curves… keep it professional, man. It’s just a job.
the days that followed, started innocently. mornings, you would bring freshly squeezed lemonade to jackie, taking paused to notice his shirtless figure, more so staring at his toned chest followed with his chiseled abs. jackie would pause his skimming or chemical checks , noticing your manners and thank you with a low, smooth voice. “appreciate you, mama.” his eyes tracing your figure, before taking a sip of the sour, sweet lemonade, eyes not leaving yours as he gulped down the liquid, some trickling down his neck and onto his warm chest.
you coughed. “you’re welcome”
that day, you quickly got the cup back from him and scurried off to you room. you window faced the backyard, which meant you could take peaks at jackie any time you wanted, which was very frequent. sometimes you would even lounge while he is working, dressed in a skimpy one piece while “reading” a book. you would feel jackie’s gaze on you all the time, it made you nervous even though you set everything up on purpose.
at night, alone in your bedroom with the breeze cracking through your half-opened window, thoughts of him consumed you. sometimes, you would lay in your pajamas just frustrated that you couldn’t go to sleep because your mind wasn’t ready yet. you’d slip the panties from underneath your silk nightgown, own your soft legs and let them fall on the floor. fingers circling your clit slowly, teasing, as you imagined his strong, veiny hands, gripping your thighs. you picture him finishing a hard day of work and entering your house, going straight upstairs to your room to fuck you. your breath would hitch, back arching off the sheets as you slid a finger in yourself, then two, pumping in rhythm as your thoughts fueled your mission. soft moans escapes your lips and into your palm, trying not to wake your parents down the hall. you release came in waves, leaving you flushed and aching, whispering his name in your pillow. it was never enough for you, you had to have him.
weeks passed like this, you having a encounter with jackie and you touching yourself to him each night. you started to chose to wear shorter dresses or short shorts and halter tops when you knew he would be working, pretending not to notice his stare. one humid afternoon, while your mother was inside, jackie brushed your arm “accidentally” while handing back another glass of lemonade. the touch was electric and lingered. “sorry, mama.” he muttered, voice low and sweet like he had described all his brother’s voice to be like, saying they get it from their mother.
you smiled shyly. “no harm.” your heat raced as you, yet again, scurried off to you room, already planning tonight’s fantasy.
each day became thrilling and seemed to build up as both of you were going crazy. your parents were constantly around because of brunches and evening guests, so everything stay subtle: shared smiles, quick conversations when no one was around. one late afternoon, whirl your father was inside his study, jackie thought it was a good time to talk to you. you were outside, like usual, just soaking in the heat and playing with the sleeves of the dress you hated but your mom made your wear for the house gathering that was currently in session.
you didn’t notice jackie at first, but did feel a presence. “having a good time, mama?”
there it goes again. that name that made you weak in the knees. mama.
you turned around, snorting at his question. “as much fun a girl can have during a event like this.” jackie stepped closer, chest inches away from yours. you felt your heart pounding in your chest, as you turned to see if anyone else was able to see the both of you.
when you realized you two were alone, you stepped closer. “been thinking about your smile more than I should.” jackie confessed, softly, eyes dark with want.
before you could respond, the voice of your mother calling you inside broke the moment. you retreated indoors, pulse pounding, fingers already itching for relief later.
the tension built like a slow, shimmering groove, flirtation, restraint, and mutual hunger. jackie timed his breaks when you were outside. you brought him small snacks, fingers brushing deliberately against his long ones, sending sparks up your arm. he’d compliment the way the sun flushed against your skin, you’d laugh and swat in response which made him want you more. you’d catch him watching your swim laps, jaw clenched with barely held control.
then, one warm evening at dinner, your father announced casually, “your mother and I are off to Hawaii for a week. some business, some relaxation. jackie will handle the pool as usual. the house is yours, just behave yourself.” your mother nodded approvingly. you kept your expressions neutral, but heat flooded your body. jackie, dropping off supplies before leaving for the day, caught your eye through the patio doors. his look was dark, full of promise.
the morning their car pulled away, the estate felt alive with possibility. jackie arrived at his usual time, but there were no tools in hand today. you waited on the lounge chair, next to the pool , in a vibrant red bikini that hugged your full curves and deep brown skin, heart hammering as he approached.
“finally alone, pretty mama.” he says, voice rough with weeks of restraint and frustration. he closed the distance and cupped your face, kissing you slow at first, soft, full lips exploring and savoring your taste. it deepened when you gripped his shirt, tightly as your tongue meet his, arms pulling your body flush against his. you felt him hardening against your thigh, and a moan slipped out.
jackie lifted you off the chair, making you squeal. he guided you into the house, placing you on the couch. he peeled your bikini top down reverently, mouth descending to your breasts, tongue lavishing attention on your dark nipples until they tightened. “such a pretty thang, are ya?” he whispered against your skin. his hand slipped into your bikini bottoms, fingers stroking your slick folds before sliding his, thick fingers inside your cunt.
first one, then two and curling them perfectly while his thumb worked your clit. the pleasure built deliberately, all that slow-burn tension unraveling under his touch.
“shit, jackie. mmm.” you cried.
you came hard, shuddering against him , tears slipping down your cheeks. jackie popped his fingers out your soaked pussy before lifting them to his lips, licking them clean.
only then did he shed his clothes, revealing his warm abs and veiny thick, hard cock. you stroked him slowly, relishing the heat, before he settled between your thighs. he pushed in inch by inch, stretching you out deliciously, both of you groaning. “you feel perfect, baby doll,” he breathed, starting a deep, rolling rhythm that built gradually, slow thrusts turning harder, faster.
you wrapped your legs around him, nails on his back as he drove deeper. “yes jack- jackie please. uhhmhm.”
he flipped you onto hands and knees, gripping your hips and taking you from behind with one hand reaching around to rub your clit. the air from the cracked windows, the slaps of skin, your mingled sounds, it was everything you’d imagined and more.
you both started to get close. “come on, baby doll. let it happen.” he cooed, rocking into you with vigor. you squeezed the cushions between your fingers as you got closer to your end.
You eventually reached your end. “m’cummin oh my god- jackie. mmmm oh m’cummin ahhh!.” you came again, clenching around him, and jackie followed with a deep groan of your name, spilling hot inside you.
you collapsed together, tangled and breathless into the damp couch. jackie kissed your shoulder, already stirring against you. “ c’mere, lemme hold you a minute, mama.”
you smiled lazily, pulling him in for another kiss before slipping in his strong arms. “you know you’re my girl now, huh?” he grinned, sly and slightly tired.