My Guru Me

Today is soooo beautiful and light and sweet. Im hella into it. Yesterday was weird. But I had some great moments…. I hung out with one of my favorite oldest friends…it had been years. SO GOOD. SO FUN. SO FUNNY. Whit we crazy :))) I ate good stuff and stretched a lot. I got to spend the evening with Ry and Q….. my heaven. I got a job at the yoga studio I go to. I clean the studio once a week for unlimited free yoga!!! HOLLER. 100 bucks a month is something I cant justify right now so it feels great to work trade swap pow. So last night I trained on what Ill be doing. Tight. So heres where it was weird….. about half way through the day I started getting deep, intense waves of depression. It would only last for a couple minutes but it was AWFUL. It felt like tragedy, like someone I love died. It came and went for hours. I had to cry a lot and just breath it out. I kept checking my phone because I was scared that something was happening and I was going to get a call about it. NOT FUN. NOT COOL. It was so weird guys. I get sad spells here and there but this was something I have never experienced before. I hope it means Im working some stuff out…. maybe releasing some pent up emotions or something? Cause I feel amazing today. I LOVE my life and am super full of gratitude and everything wonderful. So ya. Just thought Id share a SHE. ‘Strange Human Experience’ It feels like spring and I get to have another perfect night with my boy hunk and man hunk. Hellyeaaahh. I hope you feel the happies too.

Oh man. My struggle with Rys diet is REAL. He is the pickiest eater EVER. His list of acceptable foods are..... bacon, popcorn, fries, tater tots, bluberry ego waffles, chocolate donuts, asigao bagels, pringles, doritos and a select few other chips. Its been VERY hard to feed this guy for 8 years. He will SOMETIMES eat grapes and apples but for the most part he cant stand most fruits and veggies :(( And I only have so much control. So I swap out all his favorites with the healthiest, most organic versions I can find. THANK HEAVENS the guy will eat Facon. My home girl Mary introduced me to electric citrus juicers....WHAM BAM. He will drink OJ (he wont eat an orange though) so I am crazy happy to have him drinking the freshest, healthiest kind possible. AND he loved the process which is priceless and can only help the entire situation. Thanks Mare!!! XO

Music times. With my furry man babies. Yes.

ooooh yesssss. My favorite dinner at home has been veggie stir fry over brown rice noodles. I freaking love it. My favorite meal out last week was a super foods salad from Red Rock. SO DAMN GOOD.

Whoooooooooa nelly. Okay so week two was harder than week one. FOR SURE. I defintely had some struggles. BUT I remained pretty tough despite it all :) I didnt eat nearly as much raw delights as I would have liked to but I didnt sway from veganism which is my main goal at the begining. I find that eating vegan foods is waaaay easier when Im eating Raw though. Its easy to get sick of fruits and veggies, expeically when youre not cooking them and adding fun stuff BUT being tired of raw foods makes eating a hardy vegan dinner EASY... Im super excited to eat dinner by the time it rolls around that I dont have any room to miss cheese and all the other easy to miss foods that contain animal products. I came to that conclusion over the weekend and am happy about it. On the days last week that I was just eating vegan foods all day (Vegan junk included.... lots of frozen stuff) I would find myself struggling when dinner rolled around. I would get sick of my vegan options and feel sad, longing for some cheese or creamy sauces, whatever. I am proud of my willpower, I made it through some rough ones NOW Im back to feeling motivated and ready to press on. I made huge headway last week and feel ready to let go of some of the struggle with diet and focus more of my attention on my other goals knowing my diet is under control right now :) WOOOOOOOO Valentines rocked. I got to surprise my little hunk with a prize, Quinn showered me with love, I showered him right back and I got a prize from my mom. She has made valentines day special my entire life, teaching me that celebrating love is THE SHIT and doesnt have to be romantic at all. Its nice when it can be sexy too though :) meoow I LOVE LOVE. Quinn and I made lots of progress in the music depot last week.... which is mega exciting!! I feel music magic pumping in the air. mmmm sooo goooood. Alright. BACK ON TRACK. Thank you cupid and presidents past... Thank you universe for my beautiful life and all you wonderful friends for being here. Lets do this.

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FINALLY!!!!! This wouldnt work for me for a couple days!! sheesh!! Happy Tuesday everyone!!! DAY 9!!!!!!!!! Hell yeah. I just made smoothies for the first time ever. Im not much for ice cream and cold treats so smoothies was something I never thought I would be into BUT now that Im trying to eat as much raw as possilbe I decided to give it a try! I did a bag of frozen strawberries, one big grapefruit, one big banana and half a cup of orange juice! I LOVED IT. AND I feel full. Which is awesome. YAY FOR SMOOTHIES!!! Alright.... Im ready for an awesome day. xo

It looks gloomy and dry buuuut it totally wasnt. I like warm face skin.

My favorite lunch right now is avacado with peppers and pine nuts! I like to add cucumbers and mushrooms too! Lighting wasnt my friend for the dinner pic but the meal sure was. GIIIVEEE ITTTT. Mashed potatoes are my ultimate favorite food ever.

Yesssssssss. I love that tomorrow it will have been a week already!!! Im so happy and excited!!! Thank you all SO MUCH for joining me…. its made my mission soooo much more fun. I love you guys. Today was chore day so I cleaned a lot and got the house ready for a new week! We also went for a drive up the canyon and let Vader play! What a beautiful, warm day. I rocked my goals. The only thing I didnt get in was a proper yoga (which was the hardest thing this week to get in) But I feel extra motivated to try harder next week. I just finished an early dinner of vegan chikin sliders, mashed potatoes and peas….mmmmmmm…. one of my ultimate favorites. Now I want to take another bath, get cozy and watch some movies. I AM SO GRATEFUL TO BE FEELING LIKE THIS!!!!!!! so much peace. Have an awesome, fun, spring-like saturday niiiiiiight

Whoa I had to double check that day 5 is right because the days went by so fast!!!! Dang. Sorry for the late post. I FINALLY started and yesterday was more of a quiet day. I got lots done at home then I got to pick up Ry up from school! I usually dont have him fridays so it was AWESOME. NO homework ALl fun. We had a raging spongebob party and it was off the chaaaain. I have been a SB fan from day one so Ry and I have been waiting for the movie for months!! We loved it. So good. I did pretty great with my goals!!! Food and drink intake..... GREAT....except for when the movie rolled around and I had left my healthy treats at home. Ooops. I split a pineapple dole whip and some fries with Q. Not healthy. But still vegan and I didnt inhale the whole treat myself so Im not sad about it. I also had nothing but health treasures the rest of the day. I want to get one of those Dole fruit treat makers. That stuff is delicoussssss. Last night I was SO HAPPY to stay home. Soaked and meditated in a hot bath for 30, bent it out, drank all the juice and tea and water, watched amazing people do amazing stuff via video technology. Kissed Quinn a lot and reminded him how special he is and how luck I am. I was thinking about what firdays used to mean and be like. That super excited feeling I would get about dressing up and losing control and feeling stoked that ANYTHING could happen. hahaha uhhh Ill tell you what happens..... get drunk, say a bunch of ridiculous junk, stay up too late, smoke a hundred cigarettes, get grouchy when Im suddenly too tired then wake up feeling like death. Naw. No thanks. I feel so content and peaceful about that right now. Thank you me. THANK YOU. Have a beautiful Saturday guys. I want outside and a big ass salad today. I LOVE LEAF.

I like to toss a couple clems into my juices here and there but Id never had a straight clem juice. SO GOOD. I cant wait to make more!!! Also...... tacos own a peice of my soul.

ahhhh another day is done. Its been quite a lovely one. I got to spend a good chunk of it with three of my most favorite ladies evvvvver. I spent the morning with an old friend who doesnt live super close so it was awesome to catch up and spend some time alone with her. I consider her a mother-nature guru and am SO thankful that she came up and shared her fruits and wisdom with me. I really needed some time with someone who understands the benifits of raw foods first hand. She borrowed me a couple books, gave me some recipes, made me the best clementine juice EVER and gave me a list of things to check out via the inter webs...... I cant wait to share what I learn with you all!! I also feel extra motivated to keep devouring my earth treats. Thanks again Mare. I love you. Next I got to spend some time with one of my best friends who is just one of the most beautiful people on the planet, inside and out. I got to be in her magical home and hold her perfect baby girl and laugh and cry and heal. I love you so much Sayrah. Then I got to finish my day with my incredible mom. I have been missing her A LOT. So I just decided to go be with her, feed my soul. I really really needed it. Just to be near her makes everything feel so much better. Just flowing down stream with ya moo. GOALS I NAILED TODAY: Food and beverage intake..... nailed it. singing and writing.......nailed it. meditation....... I didnt exactly nail it but I spent many moments concisously breathing and being present so thats great! yoga...... not so much. BUT I stretched in small ways all day, every little bit counts! I gots lots done today and feel way better than yesterday. But I do have tenders in my heart still... I can feel so many huge changes happening all around me and inside me. A new season is right around the corner. Unthinkable surprises are about to happen - Bjork Sleep tight weenies xo

This was delicous.... Thank you berry chipwhippleton

Eeeeeh. Today was alright. I still have a tender heart from yesterday....plus more sad stuff happening to people I love. I should also start annnnny second now so PARDY! Its cool Its cool, woman power! My body feels strange today so I didnt eat like I normally do...I didnt eat breakfast so by the time lunch rolled around I scarfed all the left over mexican food from last night. Which is NOT my raw fruits and veggies before 5 goal BUT still vegan and packed with nutrients so whaaaaatever. Then later I got a pumping headache (from dropping tears I believe) so I had to rest when I wanted to work. Then I ate an early dinner: mounds of noodles and marinara sauce with veggie meat balls. I havent done yoga yet....so Either I will hit the 815 class or do a video at home. Home sounds nice :) I didnt even remember to take picures of my food today!!! Which is weird! Along wih the word weird. isnt the rule I before E except after C? I dont get it. Im going to bend in my basement. Meditate some peace back into my being and snuggle my peeps. Ill take a picture of the berries, vegan whip and vegan chocolate chips im going to stick my face in later! WOOOOOO Quinn called me Meyonce today sooooo success #day3 Love you nuts.