Inej Ghafa had long since learned to stop struggling. During the long days and nights at the Menagerie she simply allowed her spirit to leave her body, going to roam Ravka and preform on the high wire with her family like she had as a child. She imagined herself back on the wire, eyes open to the vast sky, with nobody there but herself and her Saints to protect her. Her body didnât matter on nights in the Menagerie, it was simply a vessel for her and she didnât need it as long as she had a light soul.Â
Lynx, they called her. Her given name was forgotten, her family name erased, printed onto her indenture papers and then taken to the peacockâs hoard of girlsâ broken dreams. She wasnât even human to the people of Ketterdam. She was an animal. Reduced to the color of her skin. Forced to conform to be a symbol, not a person. Theyâd dressed her in a mockery of the culture she celebrated, forced her to parade it around like it was a decoration. Her dignity stripped away with every one of Tante Heleenâs lashings. And it wasnât just her. It was done to every girl in the pleasure house.Â
Inej liked to think that one day sheâd return to Ravka, return to her family. She spent a lot of time blaming herself, too. If she hadnât been so stupid maybe they wouldnât have captured her. Maybe if sheâd been quicker. Maybe if sheâd been loud enough. Maybe a lot of things. The memory of the slaver ship was still fresh in her mind.Â
A group of men had woken her one day when sheâd been sleeping in. Their smug faces were imprinted in her mind. She remembered how they had sneered and laughed, congratulating themselves on another capture. After theyâd gagged her and dragged her towards the ship kicking and screaming, theyâd tossed her in with other boys and girls. She hadnât known what was going on. She remembered how hopeless their eyes had all been. That night they had taken turns telling stories in the dark, holding each other when the large waves became too frightening and the shadows on the walls looked like demons. Sheâd made friends on that boat. With boys and girls just as scared as she was. They spoke of tales where the misguided strong pirate captain would turn out to be good at heart, where the faeries would take the good children to a land of sweets, when the Saints would bless people with powers to help children like them. They told each other that everything would be alright. They had known they were lying.
âInej,â one little girl on the ship had said. âWhen can I see Mama again?â
âSoon. I promise you, the Saints will make sure you see your mama again, even if they have to grant you wings to fly back,â Inej had told her.
There had been older ones on the ship as well. They had comforted the young ones and gave them their own shawls when the nights became to cold.Â
Now there was little kindness in her world. There was no help here. Just the men coming in every night and Tante Heleenâs poisonous actions. Inej kept her hope and faith close to her heart because now, it was the only thing she had left.
Sheâd heard the other girls talk of how theyâd gotten rewards for helping Kaz Brekker. Better food, softer pillows, better treatment, letters home. Inej had had little to lose so sheâd tried to catch Brekkerâs attention, walking towards him with purpose and desperation hanging off her frame. Sheâd walked to him praying to her Saints, praying that her life would improve. I can help you, sheâd whispered.Â
Heâd looked at her as if heâd seen a ghost. Perhaps she was a ghost, she thought to herself. Perhaps the time she spent in the Menagerie had almost completely split her soul from her body. Perhaps she didnât even mind.
The day after sheâd met Kaz Brekker, her life changed forever. That day, she became the Wraith, but more importantly, she again became Inej Ghafa.