Midnight

I dont wanna burden you with stories and tears about why i am like this.

Find me now when im still happy

Please for the love of God,

the lord

Last night.

I said, I still

Stand by with

What I said when

I was 12.

But please, I begged,

Dont let the pain be

That bad.

If anything,

Be gentle with

This beating heart.

I know the pain is

Inevitable but God

Make me numb.

I cant go back to being

Strong alone

Tears in the bathroom

Cries in the void.

I cant keep on

Looking at the moon

And be reminded of you

Because thoughts are evil

That when I think im

Almost at the finale

Im actually just

back in the first

Fucking level.

Im tired of overthinking

My poor mental health

Cant take this.

I know the feeling is

Exhilarating but damn at night

I cant stop crying.

This is what You

get for

And what do u do with a heart that just feels.

What even is a heart if not for feeling,

Love and pain

Sadness and joy.

What do u do with a heart that just feels

Both numb and tingling.

All these emotions with no one to dump it with

Alone in the room outside it rains

Inside theres tears.

But is quick to jump in the pool for someone

who’s gasping,

end is nearing ,

to him desperately clinging.

he-

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