God's well aware that I'm not his strongest soldier and he's not giving me his toughest battles, but I won't lie the battles I am getting are kicking my ass

"came back wrong" what about Came Back Afraid. You used to be brave. Too brave maybe, defying the odds at every turn, a fighter, cocky, playing with fire, first to throw yourself at the enemy. Until one day it all caught up to you. You came back, somehow, but now you know all too intimately how it feels to lose, to die, to be destroyed. Now you flinch and freeze and cower at the slightest provocation. Who even are you now if you can't be brave? The grave may have let you go, but the mortal fear still grips you tighter than ever.

You never know if today is gonna be the day that they’re gonna throw it back to you

Lord forgive me for my hypocrisy and laziness. Stir in me the good works you have set before my path, and fulfill the purpose and future and hope you have given me.

happy 250 years of independence!