365: my days

When you've been fighting for it all your life

You've been struggling to make things right

That's how a superhero learns to fly

( yossi kotler art-acceptance, portrait )

Day 46: I listen to this

When your highs are low, keep the faith yeah

Cause you know that a life's never wasted

Standing tall, shaking off the dust

( Photo by Sergei Akulich on Unsplash )

Forest. Thanks for the oxygen supply.

Day 45: I listen to this

She just wants to be beautiful

She goes unnoticed, she knows no limits

She craves attention, she praises an image

She prays to be sculpted by the sculptor

Oh, she don't see the light that's shining

Deeper than the eyes can find it, maybe we have made her blind

So she tries to cover up her pain and cut her woes away

keep your cool, ignore all the bugging things in your life because when you just ignore it, your life has more clearly. i always got distracted from my goals because i’ve been attracted to the bugging things in my every day life. and kind of feeling little mad to the point it depressed me. it affect not just my life but my mental state and my body as well. and to get away with that while need to accomplish my goals just not good option. trust me.

so, this is the answer i’ve been searching for. the funny thing about this is i came to these conclusion while i was trying to shut all the noises in my head one night. dig up my pasts, all the good and bad days, step back and yeah in reality i just sit in my room in the middle of the night “talking” with my self.

And honestly I was just about to pick up the phone

And then I realized that I didn't do nothing wrong

You would even tell two lies to prove that you were right

Day 42: I listen to this

Where were you? When my world came crashing down?

That always seemed so ridiculous to me, that people want to be around me because i'm kind of person who always help her friends. It's feel like they just picking their breakfast cereals based on color instead of taste.

When i need them but they can do NOTHING for me, for a second - as a human - of course i mad. they can't help me when i need. Next thing, i help them with remove myself from their friend's list.

Because i can't stay around them without being used again. if i have this thought that someday they'll change and maybe can help me - would do for me as i do for them - i'll end up disappointed. That day never come. Some people will only love you as much as they can use you. Their loyalty ends where the benefit stop.

I was calling for the last time

we’d been here before

they found pictures in the snow

they found pictures in the snow 

I would like to register for university and learn many things, apply on my favorite full-time job and so for side job (need to make money for live and get place to stay).

A hot cup of chocolate and good book are on the top of my to do list!