ellie

this is from standing on the shoulders of complex female characters by rayne fisher-quann

does anyone else constantly get the feeling that you’re running out of time?? and for no reason!! i could be lying in bed in the middle of summer vacation and my mind is like “hurry up!!! before it’s too late!!!” and i’m just like “hurry up and do what?? leave me alone wtf!!!”

do not lose yourself trying to keep a connection with someone who isnt choosing you just because you are afraid you will “never find something like that again” that is not true. Keep a mind of truth and abundance. you will find that again. in a different way, in a different time. and it will be healthy and it will be better.

my hot take is that you don’t have to love being single or love being alone. if you can’t spend a second in your own company there’s a problem, but wanting love and companionship is completely normal and natural. you’re not weak or mentally unstable for feeling lonely or yearning for partnership and friendship. we do need each other, we need community, we need love, it’s part of our dna to be social creatures.

Maybe I'll treat myself to some substance abuse in response to these slight inconveniences