HIGHLIGHT

dear 2019,

even after all we've been through, we always end up meeting back at the same place. thank you highlight, for being a constant in my life and for giving me a home.

To Light.  Are you doing well? Are you healthy? The seasons are changing so it worries me a lot. Ah! I first wanted to tell you thank you. I am reading the online letters you sent me, without leaving out a single one or a single character. The handwritten letters too! Seeing you relaying news of the outside made me so thankful and apologetic that I've been very uncomfortable these past few days... But thanks to you I get to hear news about the members. Please send them my regards.. And tell them to prepare themselves before they come here.. kekeke. It seems you all worried a lot saying I didn't even get to rest and that you felt bad I had to enlist right away.. Yes.. I feel bad for myself thinking about it too.. But seeing the faces of those around me who became at a loss because of me, I couldn't not smile. No matter how much I prepared, or how determined I was, or how much support people gave me, it was still so hard. It felt like everything was falling apart. I felt like I hadn't wrapped anything up and I thought 'What should I do about this'. My future seemed so desolate that without knowing I cried a lot by myself. From time to time I get a reality check but I think I've adjusted now so please don't worry too much. I miss you a lot. Because I couldn't properly say goodbye, I don't know until when I will feel this discomfort and feel apologetic for, but the day we meet again after you endure the remaining members finishing their military duties, I might start sobbing. Everyone, please stay healthy. I will bring you news again after I've been assigned. Be healthy and happy. Be careful not to catch a cold ♡